For the briefest moment, Quinn forgot to breathe.
The mask struck the ground somewhere beside them with a dull scrape of metal against the ice, but the sound didn't register. Her attention had already caught on the face beneath it. His face, features unchanged from when she knew him as only…
Alisteri.
Not Darth Strosius. Not the masked Sith Lord whose broadcasts she mocked, not the infuriating zealot, or the man who had some supernatural ability to be exactly what drove her insane.
He was just Alisteri.
Though he was worn down in ways that neither of them had been when they were students. His face carried years Quinn hadn't been there to witness, carved into features she still recognized immediately.
For one strange heartbeat, the battlefield disappeared, and she remembered the Bastion Academy.
Hallways, lectures, assemblies. His perpetually irritated expression whenever she opened her mouth. The way she had learned exactly which words would make his eye twitch. She remembered her youthful cruelty, when hate had been something almost
fun. When Alisteri had simply been someone she couldn't stand.
When things between them had been easier.
Something painfully soft moved beneath her ribs, then his mouth found her throat.
Quinn gasped.
There was no grace to it.
His fangs punched through scarred flesh with enough force to make her entire body tense. Her fingers snapped around his shoulder instinctively, nails digging against whatever ruined armor remained there. White-hot pain shot from her neck down through her chest as her other hand lifted halfway. On a baser level, she wanted to protect herself; the Force gathered in the palm of her hand.
For half a second, she almost threw him away from her.
Instead, her hand trembled.
Then, slowly fell.
"Fuck—"
The word escaped through clenched teeth. She had been bitten before. Alina had done this.
That realization made something twist unpleasantly inside of her.
Alina had always been different.
Even when hunger had sharpened her, there had been an intimacy to the act. Quinn remembered fingers against her skin. Breath at her throat. The strange anticipation before fangs broke flesh. Pain followed by warmth, closeness, the quiet awareness that she had
chosen to give something of herself to someone she—
Quinn shut the thought down before the name could drag anything else out of its grave.
Alisteri wasn't Alina.
His feeding felt like violence.
Desperate. Ugly. Almost frantic. She could feel every pull.
Each one sent a strange hollowing sensation through her, deeper than blood loss. Her essence followed, something luminous and unnatural drawn from somewhere under flesh and bone. The sensation made her knees threaten to buckle as her stomach tightened. Heat crawled beneath her skin while the cold around them suddenly seemed sharper against her exposed throat.
Quinn's fingers tightened against him.
Not pushing, holding.
That realization disturbed her almost as much as the bite itself.
Quinn hated him, oh how she hated him.
She hated his voice. His sermons. His stupid broadcasts. His endless ability to worm himself into places where she didn't want him. She hated his smugness when he thought himself clever after insulting her, his stubbornness to walk against the norm, his ridiculous little cult, his insistence on calling her a
puppet as though he had ANY right to touch that particular wound.
She hated how easily he could make her angry.
Purely angry.
A feat so few people left could do. Most people inspired calculation. Suspicion. Desire. Fear. Obligation.
Alisteri could still make her want to strangle him over something as insignificant as the tone of his voice.
And somehow—
Somewhere along the years—
That had become precious.
Quinn closed her eyes and let her head rest lightly against the side of his. The gesture was so small, so out of place for what he was doing to her. She could pretend it wasn't tenderness.
For a few heartbeats, her touch changed entirely. The tension left her fingers. Her nails stopped biting into ruined armor, her palm flattened against him with a gentleness that had no place between them. Her thumb moved in a slow, absent stroke, almost
reassuring.
There was no mockery in it.
Just warmth.
Quinn realized what she was doing instantly. Her hand stilled and her eyes opened. Something close to embarrassment flashed across her expression. It curdled into irritation as though he had somehow been responsible for catching her in a moment she hadn't meant to have.
Her fingers curled again, but not enough to hurt him. Just enough to make the touch unmistakably less tender.
Idiot.
Whether she meant him or herself, Quinn wasn't entirely certain.
"You always were dramatic," she whispered, lacking the venom she often had.
Quinn noticed. She hated that too.
Her breathing became shallower as he continued to feed. Exhaustion was already embedded deep in her bones from everything that had happened here. Her body protested this new demand immediately, heartbeat thundering beneath his mouth, each pulse offering him more.
She could feel herself becoming lighter.
Vulnerable.
Quinn hated feeling this way more than anything. Yet she didn't stop him. Because beneath all the spite, beneath decades of insults and genuine resentment, there remained something she would never willingly give a name.
He represented her past, a moment of her life where nothing truly mattered.
And perhaps that's why she offered herself, why she didn't push him away. He needed her and, in a sense, she needed him as well. Her mind wandered briefly, remembering the sound of Arris' voice telling the blonde girl that she needed her.
She was good at giving everything she was, everything she had. Just to feel, in this moment, as if she belonged, she was wanted.
Her fingers slipped into his hair, tentative at first. This time she was painfully aware of the gentleness threatening to creep back into them, and she fought it as though it were another enemy.
She rested them against the back of his head anyway.
Quinn despised herself for it.
Her thumb moved once, barely. A soothing gesture she caught as soon as it happened. She stopped. Her fingers tightened.
There.
That was better.
"You're going to be absolutely insufferable after this," she murmured, her voice growing thinner despite her attempt to keep it sharp.
A faint smile touched her lips. It hurt. But everything hurt.
The battlefield continued screaming around them, time passing incredibly slowly. But Quinn found herself strangely aware of only the small things.
His weight against her, the ache in her neck and the blood slipping warm beneath her collar. She grimaced when another warm trail followed the first, disappearing beneath the fabric of her armorweave.
"All these years, and you're still a messy eater…" she huffed.
A little laugh slipped from her before she could stop it.
Soft. Breathless.
Almost
fond.
Then the world shifted.
Her vision had begun to darken at the edges, the battlefield narrowing around them until everything beyond Alisteri seemed strangely distant. Her body followed. Sensations dulled, first in her fingertips, then her legs, as though she were slowly becoming disconnected from herself.
Her knees dipped, but she caught herself against him.
The movement broke whatever fragile control she had been pretending to maintain. Her grip spasmed against his armor, fingers now clutching hard enough to hurt, and her head tried to pull away as a strangled sound escaped her throat.
"Ali—"
His name came out wrong. Too thin… too close to a plea.
Quinn hated that too.
Her jaw tightened as though she could somehow take the sound back.
Quinn forced her eyes open and found the battlefield swimming around them. Snow. Blood. Smoke. His bare face.
His mask, his entire identity lying somewhere below them, abandoned and useless.
Her pulse stumbled again beneath his mouth. This time, she felt the danger clearly. Not abstractly. Not as some distant consequence she could dismiss with her arrogance. It stopped being something she could simply endure because Quinn Varanin had decided that she would.
Her heart was slowing.
Her legs were failing.
If he didn't stop, she would not be conscious long enough to make him. For the first time since offering him her throat, something cold that wasn't the blizzard slipped through her. Once more, her fingers tightened.
"Easy," she whispered.
The word came out softer than she intended. Not because she was afraid, but because some treacherous part of her
enjoyed being needed by him.
Quinn wanted to believe that beneath the hunger, the blood and everything they had done to each other, he still needed… wanted her alive.
"Don't make me regret this."
The familiar edge returned, weak, but unmistakable.
"I allowed you a taste, Ali…"
The Echani's mouth curved faintly against the pain.
"Not all of me."