RECKONING
SHIRAYA’S REST
NABOO
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Michael, Gabriel, Raguel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel
[Any text in brackets signifies comm-link usage and not face to face conversation]
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SURGICAL - CRYBERNETIC IMPLANTS
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Shadow Sanctuary - Enterprise
The more things changed, the more they stayed the same.
Connel stood back and listened.
He listened to the justifications for war. To the stories of injustice. To grief wrapped in conviction, anger dressed as duty. More than words mattered. Tone. Cadence. The pauses between declarations. The way some voices sharpened when they spoke of finally pushing back.
That was what troubled him most.
Not the willingness to fight. Connel Vanagor was no pacifist. He had gone into the field so others would not have to. He had stepped into dark places, hunted monsters, killed when there was no other choice, and carried the consequences afterward. He understood the need for a sword.
What he heard now was something else.
I came here to see if the Vanguard needed a sword. Not to watch Jedi ask permission to become knives.
That sat cold in his chest. Redemption had become an inconvenience. A pretty idea to honor in theory, then discard when the work became difficult. Guardians of peace and justice were speaking as though mercy was a luxury the galaxy could no longer afford.
For Carnifex? Solipsis? Prazutis? Fine.
Connel was not naïve. Some monsters had been offered the hand so many times that all they knew how to do was bite it. But all Sith? Every acolyte? Every frightened apprentice? Every soldier born under the wrong banner? Every broken soul never shown another road? That was not justice.
That was convenience.
For years, Connel had believed himself unworthy of the title Jedi because of what he had done, and what he was still willing to do. This was no crusade to him. This was the mud left after desperate people prayed for rain. He held no illusions about the ugliness of the work.
But he knew the road.
He knew its weight.
And too many here spoke as though they had only just discovered how clean a blade could look before it was used. Intentions were not enough. Good reasons did not make a dark path bright. The road to Mustafar was paved with good intentions and lit by people who swore they were saving the galaxy.
Perhaps it was best his mask was on. Best that his expression stayed hidden. He had not come to judge them. He had come because the call had gone out, because Jedi were gathering, because if there was to be a Vanguard, someone needed to know what shape it meant to take.
Maybe it was good that he was not truly one of them. Not Vanguard. Not Council. Barely even Order. There were others who seemed to understand the danger. Lily. Aiden. Cora. Colette. Novac. Feng, despite being young enough that too many here might mistake her fear for weakness instead of wisdom.
Maybe that mattered.
Maybe it was no coincidence that those who had stood in the ruin of Coruscant understood that survival and righteousness were not the same thing.
Connel’s visor shifted slowly across the gathered Jedi.
The Sith believe peace is weakness. His voice was calm. That made it worse.
Everyone here knows they are wrong.
He let the words settle into the old stone.
If that is what we are beginning to believe too, then tell me where the difference is. He looked toward those most eager for open battle, for hard choices, for what had to be done. Standing between the horde and the village was one thing. What he sensed here was something else. Duty was one thing.
Hunger was another.
... I’ll wait. The silence that followed was not empty. Connel did not reach for anger. He did not need it. Anger was loud. This required clarity.
His visor shifted toward Lorn.
I believe you mean every word, and for the right reasons. Your intention is for the best, I have no doubt. He paused.
That is what worries me, what your thoughts have inspired to some gathered.
His hands moved to the weapons at his sides. Not drawing. Not threatening. Simply acknowledging the truth of what he was.
Just like I meant it when I said I am built for this kind of work. I can fight in the dark. I can hunt. I can kill if there is no other choice.
For a moment, the memory of Caltin Vanagor felt heavier than any weapon Connel carried.
My father taught me that redemption is never out of reach. You just have to reach for it. His head tilted faintly.
That does not mean everyone takes the hand. Some will spit on it. Some will try to cut it off. Some will use the offer to hurt more people. Then we stop them.
He looked around again.
But the offer matters. The line matters. Because once we decide the line is inconvenient, we are not defending the Light anymore. We are negotiating with our own darkness and calling the terms strategic. He held another pause.
Longer this time.
I am not afraid to fight. His voice lowered.
I am afraid some of you are no longer afraid of what fighting can make you. Connel looked back to Lorn one last time.
For the longest time, I thought I did not deserve to call myself a Jedi. Maybe I still do not. But if I have to argue basic moral boundaries in a room full of Jedi, then the room has already told me what it is.
He gave a small nod. Not contempt. Not anger. Something sadder.
Recognition.
And there is no need to wonder anymore.
Connel turned.
I don’t belong here. Then he walked away. Slowly. No flourish. No challenge. No final look over his shoulder.
He had heard enough.