Bastila had expected coming home to hurt more than it did.
She stood some distance behind Briana, close enough that they were unmistakably together, far enough that neither sister was obliged to acknowledge the other’s silence. They had arrived that way and, somewhere between the lantern-lit path and the edge of the lake, they had both simply stopped and for all it cared the world could have as well.
Stretched around them in fragments lay what remained of their families historical legacy, where it had all fallen apart, where they had accepted their fates and paths shattered into a million pieces. Yet amongst the memory Bastila remembered the estate larger than what she was being presented with here.
She remembered racing through gardens that had seemed endless, hiding beneath tables when she was supposed to be upstairs getting dressed, stealing things from kitchens and blaming Blaire with the absolute conviction that nobody could possibly see through the lie.
She remembered Brandyn being insufferable and Briana being worse. The voice of their mother carrying through open doors, beckoning them in for the afternoon meal, to get ready for bed or to just see them closer than shadows upon the estate fields. The memory was shared by that feeling of her father occupying every room he entered simply by being Baros Sal-Soren. The Noble, the designer, the Terrorist.
She remembered home and this place before her bore its shape. Yet resemblance of shape was all that it was.
One of the old walls had survived almost intact, stubbornly standing where everything around it had collapsed. Lanterns had been strung from its broken edge, their warm light spilling across stone blackened by the Cataclysm. Flowers grew between fractured paving slabs. Someone had erected tables where part of the western gardens had once been, and beyond them the first guests were beginning to gather around the great bonfire.
Bastila stared at it all and waited for something.
She expected grief, maybe even anger. But for nothing to come, even when she invited anything…Her hand tightened briefly around the fabric at her side.
For years, Evenfall had existed in her mind as something preserved. Not untouched, exactly. Bastila knew what had happened here, it played an important part of her life in the fading of that destruction. Yet memory was strange. Somewhere inside her, the estate had remained exactly as it had been when she was a young girl. She took in the lake glittering beneath summer light and upon the faint evening air swore she could hear music spilling from open windows. Inside her mother would be tending to lively matters, very much alive. Her father was also alive, papers and datasheets across his desk abandoned for the attention of his youngest. All four Sal-Soren children scattered somewhere across the grounds, convinced in the arrogant way of children that tomorrow would resemble today.
Perhaps she had expected that version of home to reach for her. Instead, there were strangers walking through its bones, blissfully ignorant to what had come before.
Bastila watched a pair of children dart between the trees, pursued by another carrying some brightly coloured festival ribbon above his head. Their laughter carried across the lawn like the sound of memory made reality. It made her smile slightly and she found she didn't mind that either. Sometimes the past had to be buried for the new to rise.
Her gaze moved toward Briana and for a moment, Bastila considered crossing the distance between them. Yet within that moment she noticed that there was something about the stillness of her sister and it made the instinct almost immediately fade away. She knew enough of Briana's burdens to recognise when they were gathering around her, even when she didn't know their exact shape. Briana wasn’t just her big sister anymore. She was the matriarch of the family, the shoulders upon which all was being held.
So Bastila stayed where she was and allowed Briana her ghosts. Bastila had enough of her own.
She turned away from the lake and instead focused in on where the gala was coming alive behind them. That, at least, was something she understood.
Lanterns climbed the trees in long golden chains. Musicians were beginning to find the rhythm of the old songs, tentative notes becoming something fuller as more instruments joined them. Dresses swept across ruined stone and military uniforms mingled with Naboo finery. Jedi who had spent too many months dressed for battle had apparently remembered that colours other than brown and black existed.
Bastila's mouth twitched at the thought of it all. The absurdity of it.
For once there were no alarms sounding. No evacuation orders. No Sith fleet hanging over the horizon. No one was asking her to crawl through a ventilation shaft or rescue someone from captivity. The expectation was no longer on her to stand in front of something considerably larger than herself with nothing but a lightsaber and an increasingly questionable faith that everything would work itself out.
Instead tonight there was music and tonight there would also be wine. Tonight was all about people pretending, perhaps desperately, that the galaxy had not become entirely consumed by war.
Bastila could manage that too, she could pretend. At least she thought she could as her attention drifted across the gathering crowd, lingering here and there as familiar faces emerged among the unfamiliar. Nobles. Soldiers. Jedi. Politicians. Survivors. Every one of them carrying something beneath whatever they had chosen to wear tonight.
The pressures of formal life once more upon her she for the first time since arriving, actually looked down at herself.
The gown had been an ordeal, but anything that had been pulled from the Sal-Soren collection always was. It was beautiful, certainly in the eyes of those around her. Yet also entirely impractical. It was the sort of thing that required assistance to put on and strategic planning to take off. She had endured opinions and at least one conversation about embroidery that had lasted long enough for Bastila to briefly reconsider whether fighting Sith was really so terrible.
She brushed one hand across the fabric, smoothing a crease that wasn't there and with a sigh realised that it felt strange being dressed like a Sal-Soren again.
She had gotten some scars since the last time she had worn a dress like this. Both inside and out, yet right here, right now she could be Bastila. Just Bastila. Not that she was entirely sure who that was anymore. The very thought threatened to pull her backwards and Bastila refused it the opportunity.
Her chin lifted as another swell of music rolled through the grounds, louder now, joined by the growing murmur of conversation and laughter. Somewhere nearer the centre of the gathering, someone called for more wood to be brought to the bonfire. Servants moved between the guests carrying trays of drinks. The Dance of Set and Veré was beginning.
Life, apparently, had grown impatient with mourning. Which was good, they had no time to mourn. She took one final look toward the broken silhouette of Evenfall. No time to mourn she thought as the emptiness remained, threatening her that it always would. Yet she knew she could live with that.
Perhaps.
Now, moving her eyes to the Gala once more.
Who had been foolish enough to come?
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