Darth Voracitos
Chaos-God of Gluttony
Before elaborating, I'm going to ease the mood by posting a cute picture of a cat:
On to the discussion...
I imagine that this is all news to you, and might make more than a few people rather upset at the untimely nature of it all.
But lately, I have felt disheartened in regards to role playing. It just doesn't feel like the same place to me any more. I love the stories, and I wish I could see them ALL through, but... I think I'm beginning to realize that at the age of 16, there really are better things to be doing then sitting in front of computer all summer creating amazing stories with other strangers that will never be heard, never be known to anyone but me and those strangers. I love writing, and it's an amazing creative outlet for me, but more than anything it has become an addiction. I'm not saying it's a bad addiction but no addiction is every really good to begin with.
There is girl out there that I take a fancy to and there is no way in hell she'll notice me if my mind is sucked into a pointless game on the computer all summer. Granted, I'll be away for the summer but that's beside the point, and that point still holds validity.
Months ago, I was banned from roleplaying until I wrote a paper about how detrimental this sort of thing can be and proved I had earned the right back to do it. I called it bull poodoo (not in my parents presence of course) and just didn't write it. Then, months after that banning I discovered google incognito and slowly but surely I went back to roleplaying here on Chaos. Since then I've experienced severe nostalgia, and minor upset at the goings-on here at Chaos. Nothing major in my opinion, and nothing having to do with me directly, but all the little things are building up and bothering me to make me uncomfortable sometimes to log in on here.
When I first started Triam Akovin, I made her with the intention and "promise" that I would only end my roleplaying once she had completed all the restricted material objects... then I kicked up Voracitos, and said "Not until the League goes major", then later "Once he gets powerful in the Heralds of Chaos", and recently "Once I finishing starting the Covenant", which in term kicked up my interest in the old character Hutuun'Kyramud (hasn't happened yet). I also made Stone Hermes, who is awesome and has been in some pretty interesting threads, that recently kicked up my interest in the old character Iron Giant. I also made Boke the alchemist, and the snowmen species with Fatty, and most recently Sybil Menneseh (who've since her inception I have amazingly completed 10 whole pages [not counting scrapped content] of a short story, with an awesome rest of the story planned for her not involving RP. That's real progress for me, it took me weeks to finish my roughly 15 page short story English Assignment that I thoroughly loved during its creation [though not afterwards]).
Basically, I dived full on into Chaos again, which was not my initial intention to begin with. Now with my newest and probably brightest inspiration with Sybil Menneseh... it frightens me a little to say that I might not even be interested in Roleplaying any more.
It is probably inevitable that at some future date, you may never see me actively write here again. So I guess the title is a bit misleading, because I don't think it's a question, but more of a request to myself that I had to write and share with to feel the finality of my choice. I'm going to need help, because I don't think I have the strong self-discipline to get it underway. I think I'll begin by finding the quickest possible way to finish my story lines by asking for help in the closest friends I have developed here on Chaos to help me plan it all. Then, one character at a time, when they are all allowed to stagnate with no need for new threads, I'll gradually lessen their activity until they essentially don't exist.
After that point I think I'll stop in and probably post some of my work for peer review, but ultimately... I think if Star Wars RP: Chaos ever served a purpose for me... it has been sufficiently fulfilled at this point, and I'm ready to move on.
I guess that's all I really have to say right now. To answer a few questions, yes, all threads I'm currently in will be completed, and any planned subsequent threads will be completed as well. But be warned that my muse could be extremely volatile and flaky.... and in general I've been undependable anyway so... whatever. As for discussion, I'd be welcome to ideas of how to unplug myself, things to consider, that sort of thing. Any discussion is welcomed and appreciated. I've made LOA's in the past where no one responds, so I'm really hoping that this isn't another one of those over looked LOA's.
Not to end this post, I will post a cuttlefish... for no apparent reason...
On to the discussion...
I imagine that this is all news to you, and might make more than a few people rather upset at the untimely nature of it all.
But lately, I have felt disheartened in regards to role playing. It just doesn't feel like the same place to me any more. I love the stories, and I wish I could see them ALL through, but... I think I'm beginning to realize that at the age of 16, there really are better things to be doing then sitting in front of computer all summer creating amazing stories with other strangers that will never be heard, never be known to anyone but me and those strangers. I love writing, and it's an amazing creative outlet for me, but more than anything it has become an addiction. I'm not saying it's a bad addiction but no addiction is every really good to begin with.
There is girl out there that I take a fancy to and there is no way in hell she'll notice me if my mind is sucked into a pointless game on the computer all summer. Granted, I'll be away for the summer but that's beside the point, and that point still holds validity.
Months ago, I was banned from roleplaying until I wrote a paper about how detrimental this sort of thing can be and proved I had earned the right back to do it. I called it bull poodoo (not in my parents presence of course) and just didn't write it. Then, months after that banning I discovered google incognito and slowly but surely I went back to roleplaying here on Chaos. Since then I've experienced severe nostalgia, and minor upset at the goings-on here at Chaos. Nothing major in my opinion, and nothing having to do with me directly, but all the little things are building up and bothering me to make me uncomfortable sometimes to log in on here.
When I first started Triam Akovin, I made her with the intention and "promise" that I would only end my roleplaying once she had completed all the restricted material objects... then I kicked up Voracitos, and said "Not until the League goes major", then later "Once he gets powerful in the Heralds of Chaos", and recently "Once I finishing starting the Covenant", which in term kicked up my interest in the old character Hutuun'Kyramud (hasn't happened yet). I also made Stone Hermes, who is awesome and has been in some pretty interesting threads, that recently kicked up my interest in the old character Iron Giant. I also made Boke the alchemist, and the snowmen species with Fatty, and most recently Sybil Menneseh (who've since her inception I have amazingly completed 10 whole pages [not counting scrapped content] of a short story, with an awesome rest of the story planned for her not involving RP. That's real progress for me, it took me weeks to finish my roughly 15 page short story English Assignment that I thoroughly loved during its creation [though not afterwards]).
Basically, I dived full on into Chaos again, which was not my initial intention to begin with. Now with my newest and probably brightest inspiration with Sybil Menneseh... it frightens me a little to say that I might not even be interested in Roleplaying any more.
It is probably inevitable that at some future date, you may never see me actively write here again. So I guess the title is a bit misleading, because I don't think it's a question, but more of a request to myself that I had to write and share with to feel the finality of my choice. I'm going to need help, because I don't think I have the strong self-discipline to get it underway. I think I'll begin by finding the quickest possible way to finish my story lines by asking for help in the closest friends I have developed here on Chaos to help me plan it all. Then, one character at a time, when they are all allowed to stagnate with no need for new threads, I'll gradually lessen their activity until they essentially don't exist.
After that point I think I'll stop in and probably post some of my work for peer review, but ultimately... I think if Star Wars RP: Chaos ever served a purpose for me... it has been sufficiently fulfilled at this point, and I'm ready to move on.
I guess that's all I really have to say right now. To answer a few questions, yes, all threads I'm currently in will be completed, and any planned subsequent threads will be completed as well. But be warned that my muse could be extremely volatile and flaky.... and in general I've been undependable anyway so... whatever. As for discussion, I'd be welcome to ideas of how to unplug myself, things to consider, that sort of thing. Any discussion is welcomed and appreciated. I've made LOA's in the past where no one responds, so I'm really hoping that this isn't another one of those over looked LOA's.
Not to end this post, I will post a cuttlefish... for no apparent reason...
I highlighted the important bits!
