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Her eyelids scrunched slightly as she felt Connel’s distant energy standing at her villa’s stoop. Then his realization that she was out passed over her like a cloud momentarily obscuring the sun. It wasn’t that his presence troubled her; it simply eclipsed the peace she had found amongst the tall grass of a water meadow. She hoped that she could return to it, but now it was time to aid Caltin's son.

Her eyelids fluttered open and she stood slowly from where she sat on an ancient slab on stone that had fallen horizontal like a bench. She reached out through the Force to offer Connel an auric tether. If he took it, and followed the clairvoyant path, he’d find her at the end of it.

With this new lifestyle she had chosen for herself, she didn’t have much else to do but wander.

That and wait patiently, which she did for him.

An Elder head sculpture towered over the gently swelling hillside Efret had found her way to. In fact, its four identical faces observed the whole valley. One pair of stony eyes seemed to stare down Connel as he approached Efret. Nirrah, nor any of the other convorees that Efret now kept, were anywhere to be seen. If they were with her, they must have been perched on one of the figure’s many ledges along its far face cast in shade.

She smiled, knowing the humanoid figure too far off for her to see in sharp focus to be Connel. “Hello again.” The voice of her interpretation unit carried easily to him on the caressing afternoon breeze. “I didn’t know you’d be back so soon or I would have stayed home.

Alternatively, she could have met him halfway, but she couldn’t bear to leave this place. Not yet. It reminded her of the Bogano Vault with its Zeffonian statues, and she needed the kind of comfort that similarity could afford her right now.

 
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He was just leaving the Naboo Temple, or “Sanctuary” as it was called. The data was left, they could do with it what they will, but he did his part. Normally, an ordeal like this would be “out of sight… out of mind” when it came to Naboo, but there was something since everything that happened that made him feel differently. Connel was not still here out of a sudden change for the planet, Naboo was still not his cup of tea, but he felt a responsibility.

He was born here after all.

Yep.

Connel thought that he was born on Alderaan, but in fact he found that this was his "Patria”.

He also felt a need to thank Master Farr for her help, even if it was reluctant on her part.

I wasn’t planning on still being around, but Buster here needed some play time… and I needed to bring you something. Buster of course was being his normal happy, hopping around “goofy goober” that he was.

Connel was… different… he was still the brooding figure he had been known to be, but there was something changed in him. Ever since destroying that influence in the caves not that long ago. Maybe that was why he was less concerned about being on Naboo than before, but that was a conversation for another day.

Speaking of “Different”... there was a change in the former curator. Maybe then this was the wrong gift to bring here. I know you would appreciate this. This was actually my father's, great grandfather’s actually… My father used this as inspiration for his choices and beliefs as a Jedi. It was his grandfather’s lightsaber crystal. He was the proverbial “poster boy” for everything a Jedi was according to my dad. I don’t really know how the records were destroyed… I do know that this particular Adegan is over fifteen hundred years old.


 

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Once he had finished speaking, she held out a hand to accept the crystal. If given it, she rolled the terminated hexagonal prism along her palm. Despite its permafrost color, it emitted a comforting warmth—either real or imagined.

Then she glanced up, more of the same sorrow he had felt in her at her villa etched onto her face. She clutched the Adegan against her skin with her pinky and ring fingers so that she could sign two-handed.

"Connel..." she began. "The last things you gave me were lost to the Sith Covenant."

The religious Tunrothese weaponry. The crystals from the Kyber Arch that had been lost during the Dark Empire's invasion of the Grand Temple.

Of course, the fracturing of the Core was not Efret's fault, nor was the division of the Galactic Alliance's former territory. She had made a good choice in transferring the New Jedi Order's antiquities from Coruscant to Fondor shortly after the Senate had been likewise relocated. It was rather clear by her expression that she still blamed herself for failing to protect their artifacts long-term, though.

"I shudder to think of their fate."

She paused to think about the phrasing of what she wanted to say next.

"Given how important it must be to your father's memory, maybe it should join a collection that can be safeguarded. I'm told that Echo Athoth Echo Athoth is Chief Curator at the Rori Museum of Natural History."

Strange. It was strange to feel both shame for herself and jealousy for someone she had never met effervescing in her blood.

She shoved both feelings aside. Though she had been looking at Connel for almost the entirety of their conversation—giving such attention was a necessity for her—her gaze shifted into a more intense connection, serious and sincere. She had gone more than half a year without touching an object of any cultural, even personal, significance. The hesitance that had begotten in her had run its course. Connel's offer was a sign from the Force.

There was surely more consideration of her past missteps to be done, but she'd be a fool not to accept the crystal when it symbolized a new, parallel path.

"But if you think it best I have it, I'll take it."

 
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She didn’t want it.

Understandable because she didn’t want to do this anymore, if she did, she would still be in the field. However, to try and pass it off was disappointing.

That’s fine if you don’t want it, but I’ll just keep it. I don’t want it going to some Jedi museum to get swiped.. A bit crass, and fatalistic, but some of the things he has seen since last they ran into each other (before his request for her help) he has seen things that gave him the prescience to be on his guard.

Maybe this is why Caltin was always so paranoid.

I am sorry to have wasted your time with it. Pocketing the crystal, he recalled Buster, who was busy chasing falling leaves. I've just lost my way since the Empire attacked Coruscant and I am trying to get it back.


 

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Or maybe not. Maybe she had misread the gesture. Maybe she wasn't ready to move back towards archeology or artifact collection just yet.

She pressed her lips together at his comment, reminding herself that it wasn't personal—just practical, and she respected that. She handed the crystal back over to Connel with an understanding nod.

"No, you're never a waste of my time," she replied, smiling. "Most of us seem to have lost our way, myself included." Her smile faltered, but she motioned at the bench behind her. "Would you like to sit with me? We can talk or meditate or just be."

 
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Connel suddenly fell somewhat silent.

Not because she rejected his gesture, but because Connel was not sure that he wanted to really dive into what was going on with him. It was the “Vanagor” in him, he felt like “counseling” and “therapy” was pointless. He preferred action over introspection, finding solace in physical challenges rather than emotional exploration. Connel felt that delving into his thoughts might weaken him, so he avoided it, clinging to his identity as a fighter. Yet, deep down, he sensed something unresolved, tugging at him subtly.

Walking over to the bench felt like he was walking with multiple eyes on him, like a prisoner being walked to his execution.

Life for me is about “The next mission”... always has been. It’s my lot in life and I accept it. He sat there, elbows on his knees as he was giving Buster “Rubbies”.
Right now, I’m losing something in myself though. When The NJO was operational, there was a purpose. Now? Now it’s just bitterness... or at least that is how it feels.


 

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Efret's lips pulled sideways into a pensive expression.

Connel's experience reflected hers like the crystal-clear surface of any yonder lake.

She leaned over to pet Buster as well, then retracted to sign. "Purpose is a strange thing," she began. "So is service. Years of service can convince us that purpose does not exist without a faction. That we don't exist." Her lips extended into a smile once more. "But it looks like you still exist to me.

"I'm sorry that you feel bitter," she continued. She resisted the urge to ask if he feel that towards her. This discussion was about him. She refused to make it about herself. "Maybe you have lost something, maybe you haven't, but, if you have, maybe the Force was making room for you to find something else."

 
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I just said I lost something…

He wasn’t trying to argue, she clearly wanted to help, but what could she do? She clearly did not want to be a part of anything, and maybe she earned it, the right to walk away. Maybe he should work up the courage to do so, but he couldn’t. There was a purpose he needed to fulfill, a responsibility to make what happened on Coruscant mean something.

The Force? What I have learned about the Force is that it is blamed for stupid choices. The thought made him angry, not at her, but at the situation as a whole. The lie about why they “fall to the Dark Side” never changes. The lie why the Jedi fail is that they are afraid to be afraid.
He looked up, still giving Buster scratches. You’re the first one I’ve told this. He knew if he made the thoughts public… how both sides had gotten it wrong… he would be mocked… and then more isolation… more bitterness…

Who cares anymore…

For some reason… I still do…


 

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Blamed for stupid choices.

Efret kept the shock from her face. Had she made a stupid choice leaving the Order? Was she pretending that she hadn't by leaning on the Will of the Force as a crutch?

She put aside those questions for another. Optimism wasn't getting her anywhere, so she reached for curiosity instead. "Thank you for trusting me with this." Her expression held no judgement, only interest—and it somehow felt personal. "Why do you think Jedi fail?"

 
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  • Michael, Gabriel, Azrael, Sariel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel, Raguel
    [Any text in brackets signifies comm-link usage and not face to face conversation]

  • Gear/Armor
    Mask
    Right Gauntlet
    Left Gauntlet
    Nano-Tech Armor (For Emergencies)
    Headset Microphone Comm-Link
    Mobile "Bodycam" Datapad
    Lightblaster
    Shortsabers (“Night” and “Day”)
    Throwing Lightknives
    Force Blinding Flashbangs
    SURGICAL - CRYBERNETIC IMPLANTS
    Repli Implants that would be for the limbs
    Bonemer enhancements to strengthen structure of the body
    Muscle enhancements.
    Hemo enhancements for blood flow
    Hawkeye implants for eyes
    Advanced Medical Implant
    Scentzy
    Injected Nanotech upgrades


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… am honest question from someone who no doubt was insulted by his insinuation.

They fail for the right reasons. Jedi teach, and live the way they hope the galaxy would be instead of how it is.

It sounds weird, yes, but he stopped himself. Standing and acting so others don't have to. There is nothing wrong with that.

Shaking his head, still giving Buster scratches. You’re the first one I’ve told this, because I know you wouldn't judge me for it like I know others will… but there is no shame in fighting if you don't let it define you. When you pray for rain, you have to deal with the mud and too many Jedi wear expensive heels.

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