I've experienced all three in great quantities. Despair. Hatred is a motivational tool. Softer emotions are the melody of a healthy soul. Despair...is unrelenting. It's infinite. You can't escape on your own. There's no hope to resist, and it causes something much worse than simply death. To give in to despair is to languish in emptiness with nothing but your own self-loathing to keep you company. Despair is far, far worse.
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