Alexandra Feanor
The Lady in Silver/Grey Historian
"You are more than right there Jair, there is alot of talking I need to do with this fox faced fool..." She said, looking at [member="Jairdain"] for a short moment before returning her gaze to @Vulpesen.
Alex listened to him, staring him in the eyes before her body started to move again, tears streaking down her face as the visage contorts. Her body slow at first but the force provided what little stability it could find as she moved from the bed to stand up, staring at him with that same pained, sorrow filled look and stared him in the eyes with anger and hate bubbling behind it.
"I left, not because I didn't trust you, but instead because I didn't trust myself. I trusted you with my heart, body and soul. I trusted you to leave my home and raise my kids on Veradune, I trusted you to bring me back and to love me as I was put to death in some false trial. I trust you now, as I have always done so, to protect our kids and to help those who I had gone to Coruscant with. I loved you then as I do now, I never have stopped doing so and that is why my fear had consumed me so completely. You are right though, I did leave, and for two years, the only person I have hated more than anyone else, the only person I could see die for their mistakes was myself. I lost the three people I care about most in this universe, the only people I have left and are worth living for... And now I get to see one of them again. You have no idea how much Ive missed you and hated everything ive done and everything I am. I wish I could go back and make sure I never left. I regret letting Hel cause such fear inside of me, to create a situation where I lost the only family I have left."
At this point, her body gave out and she fell to her knees, no wounds opening back up though as she slumped down and sat there with her head dropped, her shoulders hunched forward, and sobs sounding from her as her entire body just lost the strength to do anything but cry and hate what she was and what she had done. She didn't want to move, or talk, or do anything right now. Her body wouldn't if she wanted it anyways.
That was fine though, they would be on his planet soon and she would be left to her own devices. If he so much as went to touch her though, her sabers would find her hands and a single glare would meet his face. It wasn't one of hate or anger though, more asking him to just leave her alone right now. She was twisted on the inside, her chest tight and her breath barely coming out. She didn't know how to react and right now all she wanted was to hug him and cry into his shoulder like the old days, but he had cast her aside. She didn't deserve that.
Alex listened to him, staring him in the eyes before her body started to move again, tears streaking down her face as the visage contorts. Her body slow at first but the force provided what little stability it could find as she moved from the bed to stand up, staring at him with that same pained, sorrow filled look and stared him in the eyes with anger and hate bubbling behind it.
"I left, not because I didn't trust you, but instead because I didn't trust myself. I trusted you with my heart, body and soul. I trusted you to leave my home and raise my kids on Veradune, I trusted you to bring me back and to love me as I was put to death in some false trial. I trust you now, as I have always done so, to protect our kids and to help those who I had gone to Coruscant with. I loved you then as I do now, I never have stopped doing so and that is why my fear had consumed me so completely. You are right though, I did leave, and for two years, the only person I have hated more than anyone else, the only person I could see die for their mistakes was myself. I lost the three people I care about most in this universe, the only people I have left and are worth living for... And now I get to see one of them again. You have no idea how much Ive missed you and hated everything ive done and everything I am. I wish I could go back and make sure I never left. I regret letting Hel cause such fear inside of me, to create a situation where I lost the only family I have left."
At this point, her body gave out and she fell to her knees, no wounds opening back up though as she slumped down and sat there with her head dropped, her shoulders hunched forward, and sobs sounding from her as her entire body just lost the strength to do anything but cry and hate what she was and what she had done. She didn't want to move, or talk, or do anything right now. Her body wouldn't if she wanted it anyways.
That was fine though, they would be on his planet soon and she would be left to her own devices. If he so much as went to touch her though, her sabers would find her hands and a single glare would meet his face. It wasn't one of hate or anger though, more asking him to just leave her alone right now. She was twisted on the inside, her chest tight and her breath barely coming out. She didn't know how to react and right now all she wanted was to hug him and cry into his shoulder like the old days, but he had cast her aside. She didn't deserve that.