Recent events made me think of all the people who were in my life once, but aren't anymore. However long or short our time together may have been, I do remember you. In one way or another, you have become part of my history. To all I cannot speak to, this letter is for you. Even if you can't read it.
As short as it was, I remember the time spent learning from you fondly. I've left the Sith behind, but I somehow doubt you'd be surprised by that. My home is among the stars now, or in less fancy words, I'm a spacer. The freedom is something I wouldn't trade for anything. I never did find out what happened to you, but I hope you're doing okay. If you're dead, well... I'm sorry. I do hope our paths cross again one day, only just to know you're alive.
Maybe I'd finally let you give me that padawan braid.
You really did creep me out, to be honest. Especially the smoke thing you did at the apprentice tryouts, that chite still gives me nightmares sometimes. Most Sith are cold, so it wasn't anything weird at the time, but damn you were something else. All I can say is that I'm glad I never got on your bad side. Not sure how I avoided it, but I'm not complaining.
We never really talked much, but we were part of the same circle for a while. You still mostly kept to yourself, but I always considered you part of the gang. Chances were I sucked at showing that, but there isn't much I can do about that now. I guess I could technically seek you out through Leliana if I wanted, but it would just be weird at this point. Still, I hope you're doing alright. I also heard from Lel you two are a thing now, which honestly doesn't really surprise me. I'm happy for the both of you. She better treat you right.
I think I'll copy that bit and send it to Lel so she can forward it to you.
Despite acting like an insufferable chite to give you a terrible first impression, you were still kind to me for some reason. I know we just met one day and that was that, but you somehow still stick out in my mind. I still don't know if I ended up doing something I wasn't supposed to by helping you find that file, but I never got caught. Now that I'm out of there, it doesn't matter anymore either. Honestly, I hope it did ruin someone's day.
I actually practiced a bit of basic sign language in case I need it one day because of you. You were a tiny spark of kindness during a time when I felt completely alone. I'll always be thankful for that.
I recently heard of your passing and it actually made me pause for a second. As much as I have come to despise the people in charge of the Sith Empire, you left a strangely positive impression during the guest lecture. I still have that crystal you made, I also made a little display stand for it when I got bored one day. You even put my overseer in his place. I'll never forget the look on his face during the meeting after that happened. What a bastard that guy was.
On one hand, screw you for the chite you did while you were alive. On the other, you did make my life at the academy a little easier. Rest in peace, if that's what you're doing. You never know with Sith.
And finally, you.
I haven't said or written your name ever since last time. The final time. I didn't dare to. Until now, I guess. I miss you. As much as my life has turned around, despite finally beginning to come into my own. As much as I have grown, not having you around hurts just as much as it always has. I know it's my fault, but that admission isn't going to change anything now. I should've listened, but you know me. Ever the stubborn idiot.
I have gotten to my feet, though. I escaped the Sith death spiral and let a lot of those old demons go. I'm still shocked how quickly things can change, to be honest. I'm just upset that I didn't make the leap of faith earlier. Maybe you would've still been here. I'm slowly learning to deal with the loss, but I will never forget you. You truly were too good for me.
Thank you. For all you have done for me. I wouldn't be the person I am today without your endless kindness, compassion, and most importantly, unwavering friendship for all those years.