You got scared Mid-journey

Enterprise Station Ship
Open Space
[Any text in brackets signifies comm-link usage and not face to face conversation]

PRIVATE LOG – CONNEL VANAGOR
LOCATION: Enterprise Station ShipSTATUS: Orbit Locked – Secure
TIME INDEX: 0400, Local Ship Standard
BEGIN ENTRY
It’s quiet.
Too quiet for a ship preparing to take on three new lives.
But maybe that’s how it should be.
The hum of atmospheric scrubbers. The subtle shifts in bulkhead pressure. The rhythm of boots on deck as Omega Squad runs their standard system-wide sweep. This place isn’t a monastery. It’s a forge. And for the first time since my father’s death… I find myself shaping something that isn’t just a mission.
Three Padawans.
Not operatives. Not agents. Not soldiers.
Padawans.
And this station—this floating shard of purpose above the storm—is going to be their proving ground. Not just for stealth, not just for sabotage, not just for war. For identity. For discipline. For choice.
Dagos Terrek.
He’s already a brother in blood, if not name. My father’s final student. The last apprentice of Caltin Vanagor. I know what that means. The weight. The shadow. The expectations.
Dagos carries the ghosts of every line in the Code that my father ever uttered in that baritone voice of his—and the fire of the streets underneath. He knows the Underworld. He’s done things the Council would hesitate to even name aloud. That’s not a stain. That’s a skillset. But I will expect him to remember that shadow and dagger are tools—not identities. Not destinies.
He deserves more than a legacy.
He deserves direction forged with him. Not for him.
Cartri Keswoll.
Darkwire. That’s not just a file header, that’s a warning label. Most Jedi don’t get within five systems of that name and sleep well at night. He didn’t just run with them—he survived them. Out-thought them. Built around their rules and tore through more firewalls than I care to think about.
He's the kind of tech-savant the Empire dreads. But tools can become crutches. I’ve seen it. Force-sensitivity can get diluted under circuitry and schematics. Cartri is going to learn that a lightsaber isn’t a backup plan. And the Force isn’t a terminal waiting for a query.
He has the mind of a slicer. I’m going to help him grow the soul of a Jedi.
Kell Masaara.
She’s the one who already caught me off guard.
The kid moved like a whisper in the Force, felt through steel bulkheads like they were air, and fed me tactical readouts in a way I’d expect from Sariel or Gabriel. She belongs here. But belonging doesn’t mean being ready.
Stealth. Pathfinding. Observation. That’s her foundation.
But this ship, this mission, and this war we didn’t choose—this is going to teach her to act. To know when to disappear... and when to make the galaxy know her name. I see in her what Ala once saw in me—an ability not just to follow the path, but to make it.
Omega Squad is prepping the loading bay. BRAD’s already making fun comments about setting up bunk assignments like a “cruise director with a lightsaber fetish.” Michael’s keeping him in check. Barely. Gabriel’s rerouting auxiliary power and integrating updated training modules into the simulation deck. Raphael and Jeremiel are hauling gear crates like it’s drop day. Azrael’s in the armory. Sariel’s nowhere to be seen, which means he’s exactly where I want him.
They're ready. Whether they admit it or not, they’re eager to teach.
Not just with weapons. Not just with tactics. But with trust.
This isn’t the Jedi Temple.
It’s not a battlefield either.
It’s something in between—just like them.
Just like me.
When they arrive, I’ll gather them on the observation deck. Let them see the stars. Let them feel how small everything looks when you’re floating between two galaxies, and how much power there is in simply choosing where to go next.
Then I’ll tell them:
“You’re not here to be soldiers.
You’re not here to be ghosts.
You’re here to become who you were meant to be—
Even if the galaxy never sees you do it.”
And I’ll mean every word.
END ENTRY