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Acier Moonbound
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Sibylla froze.
It was the sharp lash of Ace's curse that cut through her pacing, and for one suspended moment she simply stood there with her back half-turned toward him.
Banthashit.
Her jaw tightened as it clenched, chest rising under the intricate embroidery of the violet gown as he kept going, each word finding its mark with an almost surgical precision, peeling apart every distinction she had been trying to make between the man who had entered the Covenant and the Sith he had eventually become -- because the worst of it was that he was right.
She
had stepped away at the Trinity precisely because she could no longer excuse what was happening to him. She had drawn that line because there came a point where understanding
why someone committed terrible acts could not absolve them of committing them. Yet now that he stood before her again, she was searching for those distinctions all over again.
"Then what would you have me do, Ace?" The words came out harsher than she intended, Sibylla whirling to face Ace again. It was his remark on the death penalty that finally snapped something loose in her, what was left of her composure cracking under the frustration written plainly across her heart-shaped face.
"Stand aside? Say nothing? Nod politely while you decide that the only suitable conclusion to your life is an execution chamber?" She demanded, her arms rising in emphasis before falling helplessly to her sides.
"Yes, you became Sith. Yes, you killed for them. Yes, there were choices you made that I cannot defend." Her voice tightened.
"I know that. I knew it on the Trinity. It was why I walked away."
She took a deep breath and began to pace again, the frustration bleeding out of her.
"But this is not only about you and me anymore." she added, turning back, the thick fabric of her shirts swaying as her heels clipped a loud beat on the floor.
"There are Senators who would have every darksider branded irredeemably evil and made an example of. There are Jedi who would agree with them. And then there is the Charter of Unity, which recognizes that people can be coerced, manipulated, radicalized, or simply led so terribly astray that finding their way back becomes nearly impossible... and Jedi and others alike who believe that there is always a path for redemption -- Lorn had told you he would wait for you on the Trinity."
She shot back, reminding him of what Lorn had told Ace before attempting to lock him inside her office... and then the violence that occurred after.
"None of this is black and white, Ace. Shiraya knows I sometimes wish it were." She breathed out, her voice faltering for a moment before strengthening again.
"And yes, damn you, I care what happens to you."
There it was.
"Every decision made here will have consequences beyond this cell. For the Republic. For the Jedi. For every person who comes after you and asks whether redemption is actually possible, or merely something we speak prettily about until granting it becomes inconvenient."
Sibylla's chest rose sharply beneath another breath.
"If you want repentance and justice, then repent and seek that justice. I will do everything within my authority to ensure you receive a fair trial. Every crime, every circumstance, every piece of intelligence you provided, every life you harmed and every life you helped save should be weighed."
Sibylla stopped before the barrier again.
"But do not expect me to stand aside while you insist they throw the entire book at you without bothering to read every page."
Breathing hard, she finally came to a stop.
"Live with what you have done, Ace. But live." Hazel eyes bore into his beyond the cells detention shield.
"Do better." and as she felt her throat draw tight, she added,
"Help me do better."
Because perhaps that was the only way any of it would ever begin making sense.
Silence returned with her heavy breathing. Sibylla finally lifted a hand and raked it over the braids woven through her hair, taking several restless steps away. At least until his quiet question registered.
How's my droid?
Of all the things he might have asked... The thought made her release a breath with a quiet whoosh, her shoulders leveling.
"Tic misses you terribly." The admission was quieter now. She turned back toward him, the fire having drained into something tender and tired.
"I wanted to tell him you were here. I even considered bringing him with me, but I had him stay back on the shuttle with Corde." Her lips pressed together briefly.
"But I did not know whether it was the right time."
She swallowed, studying Ace for a moment.
"But I can bring him. If you want me to."