[member="Syn"]
The words cut like daggers into her heart. She fell to her knees with the weight of them bearing down on her, I … I don’t understand!
But she did, deep down she understood that they are right. Her eyes lifted to see off into the distance and caught sight of Syn moving in a blur on the floating Island and then he disappeared from her physical vision. She searched for him frantic but nothing came to view, she could sense him through the force through their force bond, but that too had proved to be useless as if removed.
She gave in to it all, allowed in the fact that she now knelt before them a simply sentient being. A Jedi Master but Master of what? She has the gift to use it, to manipulate it for a will or purpose in order to protect others and fight against the darkness of the Galaxy, but was that all she had? Yes.. this sudden realisation that she had over time, forgotten to pursue the art of understand of the force in it’s entirety .. something none would ever achieve but this path was closed to her. Whether by subconscious choice or from a removal because of outside influences matter not, the fact remained she had forgotten. Who was she to teach others? Sure teaching Padawans the art of a Jedi was not easy but something she could do, but teach them the force and its way? No, she lacked this greatly . . her pride in herself now stood bare and in this moment void of knowledge.
Many hours she had spent with others talking about the ways of the force, but now here she realised she had not the comprehension .. she had failed. Her breathing became laboured her chest tightened and she looked up to the faces of the masked entities around her, pleading for their lesson to be learned .. if she is to become more, more able to teach with authority then she needed this regardless of the pain of it to come.
One of the entities shifted in a shimming light raising a hand to point directly at her then Iella is hit but a full impact of the dark side of the force. An image entered her mind of her children dead before her .. they lay next to the body of their father also dead, their blood running on the ground at her feet.
She turned away from them and looked upon the ground once more to see another body, the one she had killed for revenge of the death of her family. The great power of the dark side filling her with an energy she had never experience, it is intoxicating alluring and she wanted more. She stood tall and strong, her face corrupted and twisted, her eyes glowing yellow and her body lean from feeding from it. The dark side imbued her limbs with a power she had not felt before .. she felt invincible.
You have both Pride and Fear dwelling within you, pride that you have lost much in your life as much as anyone has and you faced this and won. Had not fallen to the darkside as a consequence of it and consider those that have weak of character .. you are just as weak as they, there is that ever present fear of losing the ones you love that will be your undoing if it comes to pass… what you see now will come to pass.
No! Iella screamed in her mind. But she knew they are right.
Her body began to tremble uncontrollably .. she gave in to the force in all its manifestions and she left it, not the dark side nor the light side, just the force, an overwhelming influx of power that over came her senses and she collapsed to the ground.
You have now come to realise your wanting of your character .. you lack much but now with this knowledge we have given you go froth and walk the path you once sort to do, the path you have forgotten.
Iella’s eyes opened her vision blurred unable about to see with clarity. She slowly pushed herself up from the ground and stood, her physical sight removed she stood now on the floating Island completely blind.