The Abominable (Iella)

[Syn]

@[member="Iella E`ron"]

He had to keep a grin on his face at that and looked at the girl, his daughter and he kissed her forehead before her mother took her to the galley and he took his sons hand leading the way behind the pair. He entered the galley and looked at the food the droids had brought for them from the food stuffs stored away. It wasn't a great thing but it was a something to eat as they continued deeper and deeper into the core. For a moment he worried about the safety of the children but he believed in their protection for what they were going to find there was no tightening of his gut to alert to danger it seemed and he sat down. "Alright you two, eat up and get ready where we are going your going to have some more fun surely."

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

@[member="Syn"]

Iella placed Abaigeal down in a seat and made sure she and her brother had a plate in front of them as the service droid served meats and vegetables for them, she poured a drink of juice for them both before she saw to it that Syn and herself had plenty to eat too. They are lucky, the two children are not fussy eaters and quickly fell on their food with authority. Iella smiled at the table, it is not something that the family can do together much and to diner and talk about things is a great time and one she enjoys the most in life.

The service droid fussed about making sure there was plenty on the table of them all, a large bowl of bread placed in the center for them to share. "Then we get to our destination you two will have to remain on board the ship, as we need go .. but not for long. The droid will look after and .. don't tie him up this time", she grinned.

"Now my love you have not told me much about the change of plans, you have sensed something, what is it?", she asked, not hiding anything from the children of their business. She gives them full knowledge of what their parents do, no secrets with them, for if something goes wrong at least they have the knowledge of why and what their parents are trying to do in the galaxy. And they would never be left wondering.

 

[Syn]

@Iella E`ron

Syn was making sure to eat the food before him and then was thinking between bites how best to explain what he sensed. It wasn't something he thought could really be known but more a feeling something in the back of your head that you went towards. He had to keep thinking for a moment before speaking. "A tremor in the force, subtle but there below the surface. Whatever it was is old and powerful but not malevolent like many other things it is more gray more there. It is hard to explain but listen and you can feel it, you can hear in below the surface and white noise of the galaxy." He had a smile on his face at that and he took another bite while observing the two.

"And yes no tieing the droid up who is set to watch you there is plenty of things you can do on the ship and not get into to much trouble." The jedi master looked at Iella and offered another smile while waiting for her to sit down and he moved his hands from the plate for a moment to tussle the hair of the two children. "We should not be long though so I want the two of you to be on your best behavior and I'll show you some other tricks that can be done when your stalking your prey." The smile he flashed was all teeth and let his incisors show where they were pointed before he turned to Iella and felt along that mental link. That small bond they had to send what he had felt. warmth and kindness, anger and sadness all rolled into one but all apart of the force itself.

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

@[member="Syn"]

Somehow she had the feeling that their words were falling on deaf ears, the children would try their best to behave but .. hmmm. But like Syn had said they would not be gone long and soon would be back to the ship to survey the damage.

However, his words ignited a sensation within her, something he had sensed below the surface of the force, something Iella only senses from time to time, as she is not as powerful in the force as he, but she tried to connect to white noise of the galaxy. Her focus showed her many things within the force, of distance places and connections of individuals now friends and enemies, much turmoil and pain licked the undercurrent in the force. For the moment she could not pin point it, many things lurking there and needed addressing.

"Hmm maybe when I am closer, I am sensing too many things to point to it".

 

[Syn]

@[member="Iella E'ron"]

He gave a nod to her at that and listened to the rest coming to his senses. He had taught Iella to listen and see the force but it was something subtle you needed to really focus if you couldn't see it all the time. Slowly the jedi master continued to let his senses flare out to enjoy the moment while eating. He had more then enough going on in his head as he listened to the others with Iella, the force whispering until he continued to go at it and finished what he had. "Now you two finish up and enjoy the food. The last time you were in the core must have really been when your mother and me were married." He had a grin on his face to that now thinking about the last time the two of them were on the planet with Arya watching them while they rode a sandworm. Then he felt it again under the surface and there was much going on while he let outa breath. This was actually going to be fun he thought for a moment and was enjoying the idea.

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

@[member="Syn"]

After the meal was completed, it was time for the children to sleep. The service droid was left to tidy the table and Iella stood to usher their children out of the galley to their quarters. It was nice to do this routine, Syn and herself do not have the opportunity on a regular basis so these moments precious to them both.

"Now it is your bed time, but before that you need to be washed .. and no arguements", she smiled. .. .. .. "From you father that is", she winked at the children. "Now I will go and prepare your bath, tonight why not have some fun together playing in the water", she had a plan of course and it involved Syn, knowing how much he hates water the children knew this too, and through a telepathic communication with her children they had set the plan.

"Syn please bring them shortly", she smiled more.

 

[Syn]

[member="Iella E'ron"]

Syn looked at Iella and had a grin on his face while he looked at the two children and washing them. He looked to Iella who was going off while he scooped the two children up while he went towards the showers and while hating the water. Though a few scenario's went through his mind and he knew there were many things that could happen. Hating the water was one thing but he could bare somethings and plenty of it for a good cause and they were just that a good cause. He moved with them fluidly and ready to do as needed until he had his grin still on his face entering and getting them ready.

Nearly an hour later and after some scuffling, splashing the jedi master stood with a look at the two who were dressed while he carried them to their mother and he spoke standing in the doorway while they went in. "Well now that was funa nd I hope you had a nice relaxing rest. We'll be working hard in a bit."

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

[member="Syn"]

After much fun, and the Children's plan had paid off and they managed to get their father very wet. Iella knew she would pay 'dearly' for it later but it was all in good fun. The family walked to the children's quarters and went through the usual bed time rituals, which involved much protest and kisses from all parties. But their young bodies soon gave in to fatigue and they where both asleep. Silently leaving them in their beds, Iella moved to the door and waited for Syn.

As Syn joined her, "We will be arriving soon, and the droids will take care of the children, but what is our plan?", she asked knowing that he would have already have one.

 

[Syn]

[member="Iella E'ron"]

The jedi master looked at Iella and had a grin on his face as he was dividing his attention and thinking about what he had seen as he checked some new clothing going into a simple set of black clothing. A trench coat he could have his equipment in the sleeves and pockets, they would be there soon and he turned to see Iella with a smile while running a hand through his hair wiping some of the water from it and the tiny hairs on his arms were up ready for anything. "Our plan is to see what there is and go from there. There is much that can be learned and we have nothing pressing to do as it stands."

The jedi master remained standing for a moment and then joined Iella on the bed to wait until the time came and they arrived at the coordinates. He could feel strange as the droid pilot called them forward and spoke. "Master Synlidwirh there is a shell of energy blocking our sensors. We cannot see what is beyond it and are reading now planetary bodies." A smirk came to his face at that thought. There was something there he had felt it and placed a hand on the droid as he spoke and gave a nod. "Steady as she goes and move forward there is many mysteries here at the heart of the galaxy and we are in the oldest places, the heart and that is our destination.

The droid moved forward in the seat as the jedi master touched him and brought the ship forward while the force glowed like a beacon in front of him and the shimmering light shown the outline of the planet beyond. Something teeming with the force and as the warm wash of energy came it sent shivers along the length of Syn's spine until they came out the other side. He could see the planet now and there was much of the force here, more then he had ever seen in one place even surpassing the valley of the jedi or valley of the dark lords. Tython didn't even compare which brought almost tears to his eyes.

"We are here." And he was looking upon it all as the ship went to touch down. The jedi master went to the ramp as it opened and he would check first before Iella came as the desolate surface was a barren shell but it pulsed with life from within. Deep down and he could see in the distance several spires across the planet, he moved forward and spoke leaving his weapons behind but letting the equipment come in his belt. The sasori boots, gauntlets and undersuit were under the cloth and leather with a trench so he had some protection. "Whatever it is that is here is at those spires."

Then he was moving faster then normal to reach them until he was there and waiting for Iella to stand near him, the scents coming from below were of the earth and he looked down seeing the energies of the force like an ocean. The light illuminating his vision more then enough while the feeling of it reminded him of standing in the valley of the jedi's waters. He could feel the force going within him to heights he couldn't believe and then he was jumping in and letting the energy wrap around him as he came to land on a floating island that pulsed with the energies of the force.

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[Coci Heavenshield]

[member="Syn"]

Iella had followed Syn as they moved toward the bridge, still unclear of the destination and their mission but more came to her now. She looked out of the view port windows on the bridge to see an amazement beyond any words Iella could think on. The Force rippling through the very galaxy as if from this point .. it's center .. the waves of which visible to the naked eye and felt through the force is an overwhelming pulse of energy.

Words failed her now and she did not speak .. she did not wish to. The planet, the name of which she did not know, radiated with spires of light on which traveled all manner of energy sources .. the power and strength of it seeped into her skin and through to her core her center in which the force resides for her.

As the ship descended more wonders fell before then, spires of light that looked solid but floated in a sea of illuminessence .. she stepped back as if afraid .. taken aback by it all, in fact she was afraid, the power of the place beyond anything she had ever experienced and it is all harnessed in this one place.

"Where are we?", she asked in a whisper.

 

[Syn]

[member="Iella E'ron"]

He wasn't sure, at least not really. This was something new or old depending on how you looked at it. As he stood there and listened to Iella he continued to reach out with his own senses and came to a small realization. "We are not alone." Then he was hearing it, sounds that went between laughs and screams, rage and humor. Each spectrum of emotions until he was standing and facing Iella in something new, something that had closed around them. He could feel the force flowing through the walls like veins in a body while above voices came to them looking down.

"A new one."

"You brought us a new one."

"Sith...... jedi."

"Abomination."

"Kill them."

The jedi master continued to listen to them as the time went on and forward but the few moment seemed to stretch into an eternity. Then he looked at Iella and smiled at the sight of her in all of this and he spoke. "I think we are in the cradle, where all life. The force and life is stronger here then I have ever felt and."

"This is the point where the living force meets the cosmic, where the force touches all aspects of life. Connected, penetrating, binding the universe together."

"Or that." He had a grin on his face and continued to look upon Iella in the moment not turning his face to the priestesses but letting the tension ease away from his body as he continued to listen. Continued to prepare for anything and whatever he had seen that led him here. "They brought us here for a reason."

"Perhaps or perhaps we brought you here to keep you, to entrap you in a place where no one will find you unless we will it."

Now he was intrigued and remaining near Iella but letting himself look up at them. "I don't think you'd use time like that, you wouldn't want to have us here to just talk and do whatever. Your not like that at least not all of you." He let a smile come to his face then. "And I think whatever comes from this... we may be safe." He continued to look and laughter echoed around while they swirled creating a whirlwind almost of energy that he saw being able to make out the faces of their masks. Then he was outside and Iella was somewhere else, off in the distance separated by a chasm with a large floating island in the middle, then he felt it the rain on the edge of the air. He could hear the lightning and knew one of the priestesses was explaining the same thing to Iella while his equipment was gone possibly back on the ship and the jedi master felt his sash. "Where am I?"

"This is the first, facing yourself, dealing with your own hubris and pride. On that island is a great evil, something terrible that must be fought to move forward and protect the one you love in life and in death."

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

[member="Syn"]

Her senses compounded in on her as the voices spoke, the force twisting and turning between darkness and the light.. emotions riding a wave on a sea raging on storm, overwhelming and numbing to her body. Her hand reached out to touch Syn's arm but he was gone, they are gone .. on longer on the ship but standing on a spire floating ..

Iella had heard his words spoken to a priestess one both abhorrent and beautiful to the eyes, a twisting vision of the two aspects of the force. Everything was here, both and all. Just simply .. the Force.

Her reeling mind fighting to maintain control and failing .. in and out of self control but she had to hang on. The only thing now in her thoughts are her children back on the ship and she filled with rage and fear for their safety. How dare he bring them here, to this place and set them all in danger... The lioness had awoken, a woman now with the only purpose of protecting her children and she wanted to get back to the ship.

Iella's eyes looked out across what appeared to be a floating island in between the two spires they stood upon.. in the distance she could see Syn. Her head pounding with pain .. the anger overwhelming her making it impossible to breath. NO! her mind screamed ... This is all wrong!

Pulling the light side of the force to her, yes it still remain here.. in fact it is at it's most powerful as is the dark side. "I don't care for you tests .. or what you have in store for me. Who are you?! .. show yourselves!". She was desperate now as she screamed her demands.

 

[Syn]

[member="Iella E'ron"]

The being was floating next to Iella as it spoke looking upon her with a mask of almost sadness. "Such a poor girl, there is always a test. Life is a great one few see and understand. Your worries are unfounded, we do not harm others, only those who come here to learn, come to be taught. Ones who try and abuse the knowledge they have learned throughout the ages but we do not interfere like some believe." Her small laugh came while she continued to move around in the air. "What is coming is up to you, facing your inner thoughts, seeing the greatest temptation before you and finally something that not even we can control."

Syn looked off at the woman while she spoke and moved forward. He could sense and follow Iella as he hoped she was doing well while he moved forward. One of the things he had seen throughout the years was one person going forward despite what others believe as the pathway of floating islands stones leading to the large one came into view and he could feel the raging force storm. The air sending small jolts around him while the jedi master continued forward with a small grim look on his face. No weapons and little equipment in a world that wasn't seen except by those who knew where it was.

Then he was standing on the large island and could feel on his skin the storm. The pelting of the rain, the force in the wind as he moved forward and something was there. In the dark creepying around as he entered a small enclosed area. The rustling came as he turned to look hearing the sound in the distance. On the wind and a faint whistling was there, something he hadn't heard is so long. Something he hadn't felt until he stopped moving and stood there. The sounds coming louder while the hair on his arms bristled rising up in agitation until it was standing behind him and Syn turned.

"If you go into the woods tonight... you won't believe your eyes. If you go into the woods tonight, you're in for a big surprise" The whistling ended as the being stood there washed in darkside energy and singing a little bit of words before he stood there and the jedi masters eyes went a little wide. He had expected something evil, something dangerous but here and now she moved seeing the being as it spoke and charged at him. The fury in its slashes bringing his arms up to be beaten almost by clubs. "What's a matter hero? Looks like you've seen a ghost. Think I would be that easy to get rid of? I'm just there below the surface."

The jedi master moved and rallied bringing his arms up to defend and then strike back. "You're not me, your something old and twisted. Something left over from a time when one didn't have a choice." Then a laugh responded and the words came. "And yet you fall back to me more then you want to admit. When the frustration at the council who betrayed you, were willing to be blind and make peace with the sith, when they removed all peaceful means of protecting a fools gambit, when they tried to run you to ground for not following a child. I was there your warm comfort."

Then he got a solid punch in and Syn reeled into a wall, what was here wasn't great but he understood what was happening. He was right in many ways, while he had relied on Iella and Elayne, on Celtic e had also let the frustration push him to embrace that side of him. That darkside that was always there willing to be under the surface until he had acted to raze a sith academy. Then was on the run and brought back either because of foolish notions or because someone agreed with him. No one saw peace with the sith as a good thing and then after Aleidis had disappeared they aided the Republic in wiping the sith out for a time. It would always be for a time.

"You never knew the real me." He moved and struck grabbing the shadow and sneering for a moment while his mind went over and over what was and had happened. "Always busy trying to come back, to get the better of me. Trying to make me back to the way I was, something sick and twisted. Always trying to see our reflection in the emotions and faces of others instead of accepting what we are." Then he attacked again jumping to a tree branch and slamming the shadow. "I am a part of you and you me but I am nothing like you. You were forced to become a monster.... I didn't, I went through the trials, through the pain to become something more.

Then he jumped again and brought the shadow into the ground making an impact crater. "This like has almost done me in a dozen times, hundreds even but I kept going at it because it is the right thing to do. Compared to the vanity and pride you were." Then he heard a laugh and the shadow spoke. "I thought it was to be with her?" Then Syn paused for a moment and thought about it a single moment pausing until he smiled. It was for Iella and his pride was there still. "And? She is my everything a part of me just like you are. I accept that."

Then he was standing there as the shadow shimmered and slowly melted onto his arms to rejoin him but he could feel it. There was a difference compared to before and the weight had been lifted from his body. Almost his soul while he felt a hand on his shoulder and the priestess spoke. "You have faced your arrogance and pride, your inner darkness so easily there below the surface. Next you will face something greater, a great temptation that can ensnare you. Iella may be there if she has managed to make her way through the same trial."

Then he was standing tall and brushed himself off, the caked blood from wounds taken in the tree coming down in a warm trickle. Syn moved around towards the path indicated and was preparing to wait for Iella before he moved on to face this great temptation.

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

[member="Syn"]

She moved around as the being floated near her, her saber gone she knew that but there is always more one can do if the need to protect one’s self is required. Iella is not impressed with the being around her at the moment, she considered them to be the ones that held the pride and arrogance in the way in which they conducted themselves .. A test? For what purpose?

“I know full well the tests life throws at us, we face them every day, do not consider me a fool. You think that you do not harm to my children, when you are set to harm their parents? What good would come to them if you do this? To have parents lesser for them? No you are wrong there is always consequences to ones actions, directly to the person and indirectly to the ones that love them. They would suffer if we are harmed and you will have lied”. She said moving more to face this thing.

“I did not come here willingly, to be taught .. and what if I refuse to face this test? What will you do? Kill me!?!”, she yelled getting increasingly angry.

 

[Syn]

[member="Iella E'ron"]

Syn continued to move forward towards where the being was waiting through a dangerous thicket. The thorns sliced into his skin while he felt Iella off in the distance and was wondering what was going on.

The being continued to hover around Iella as she spoke and its masked expression didn't change. The robes going in the breeze created by the force flowing around as it spoke. "If you do not wish to continue, we will return you to your ship and the other will keep going. Understand everything is a choice and consequences come no matter what. Not wanting to learn can be just as dangerous as continuing forward but all is not lost. That unconquerable will, immortal fiery hate, the ancient study of revenge or cold heartlessness created by time or the will never to yield or submit? All are why we allowed this and there are many paths. His faith in the force is because he has forever had to trust in its guide, you rely upon your physical sight perhaps to much." Then another being appeared joined the other. "This one is strange but funny. It treats this like something unseen, unknown but others have come before you and we have watched. Our people were the first to learn of this world and spread out to all the knowledge." Its hand came up and glowed forming for a moment. "How do you think you got that dent on your lip Iella. I'll tell you, when you were laying in your crib I told you a secret and went shh." Her hand went up to the lips of the mask and the two waited there to see what would come next.

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

[member="Syn"]

The words cut like daggers into her heart. She fell to her knees with the weight of them bearing down on her, I … I don’t understand!

But she did, deep down she understood that they are right. Her eyes lifted to see off into the distance and caught sight of Syn moving in a blur on the floating Island and then he disappeared from her physical vision. She searched for him frantic but nothing came to view, she could sense him through the force through their force bond, but that too had proved to be useless as if removed.

She gave in to it all, allowed in the fact that she now knelt before them a simply sentient being. A Jedi Master but Master of what? She has the gift to use it, to manipulate it for a will or purpose in order to protect others and fight against the darkness of the Galaxy, but was that all she had? Yes.. this sudden realisation that she had over time, forgotten to pursue the art of understand of the force in it’s entirety .. something none would ever achieve but this path was closed to her. Whether by subconscious choice or from a removal because of outside influences matter not, the fact remained she had forgotten. Who was she to teach others? Sure teaching Padawans the art of a Jedi was not easy but something she could do, but teach them the force and its way? No, she lacked this greatly . . her pride in herself now stood bare and in this moment void of knowledge.

Many hours she had spent with others talking about the ways of the force, but now here she realised she had not the comprehension .. she had failed. Her breathing became laboured her chest tightened and she looked up to the faces of the masked entities around her, pleading for their lesson to be learned .. if she is to become more, more able to teach with authority then she needed this regardless of the pain of it to come.

One of the entities shifted in a shimming light raising a hand to point directly at her then Iella is hit but a full impact of the dark side of the force. An image entered her mind of her children dead before her .. they lay next to the body of their father also dead, their blood running on the ground at her feet.

She turned away from them and looked upon the ground once more to see another body, the one she had killed for revenge of the death of her family. The great power of the dark side filling her with an energy she had never experience, it is intoxicating alluring and she wanted more. She stood tall and strong, her face corrupted and twisted, her eyes glowing yellow and her body lean from feeding from it. The dark side imbued her limbs with a power she had not felt before .. she felt invincible.

You have both Pride and Fear dwelling within you, pride that you have lost much in your life as much as anyone has and you faced this and won. Had not fallen to the darkside as a consequence of it and consider those that have weak of character .. you are just as weak as they, there is that ever present fear of losing the ones you love that will be your undoing if it comes to pass… what you see now will come to pass.

No! Iella screamed in her mind. But she knew they are right.

Her body began to tremble uncontrollably .. she gave in to the force in all its manifestions and she left it, not the dark side nor the light side, just the force, an overwhelming influx of power that over came her senses and she collapsed to the ground.

You have now come to realise your wanting of your character .. you lack much but now with this knowledge we have given you go froth and walk the path you once sort to do, the path you have forgotten.

Iella’s eyes opened her vision blurred unable about to see with clarity. She slowly pushed herself up from the ground and stood, her physical sight removed she stood now on the floating Island completely blind.

 

[Syn]

[member="Iella E'ron"]

The beings remained in the vision and had transported Iella to the island. Into an overgrown thicket with tree's and thorns as the shadows thickened until they formed a figure and let it stand there. One of the celestial priestesses spoke more to Iella while she stood there and hovered over the vision of Syn. "Have you ever noticed Iella in the old stories about jedi how when they wanted someone killed or someone or to hunt down they sent another jedi. Can you imagine the mentality of that, the sacrifice? To forever serve the jedi with one hand dipped in blood and the other supposed to stay a blade. To have your own order look at you like a monster because of your duties. Chaos is not lakes of fire or chains of ice, it isn't something of your own making. It is being removed from the grace of the force and cursed to forever wander in the darkness. Because and this is why our people loved you so. Humans and the species of this galaxy know more about greed, war and treachery then we could ever have known."

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

[member="Syn"]

She stood now, trembling. The entire strange world in darkness as her eyes failed her. Panic began to grip her soul in this unfamiliar place, with unknown elements .. the only thing that she knew, that she could trust is Syn.

She had heard the words these beings spoke but for now they mattered not. The ever present knot in her stomach the focus point of all her force energy began to churn and grow tight, just like the day she first felt in on Illum in the cave. That explosive energy she now can harness and direct at will, which she later discovered to be a shock wave most powerful that even she had marvelled at the extreme of it. The day she ruptured the very ground and sent tons of sand for miles in the Silent Desert on Tython.

Iella stood struggling for control .. the energy begging to be released but if it did, if she allowed it it’s freedom all would be destroyed. She could not allow that. Focusing her mind, she centred the force to remain within her body, her limbs throbbing with the power like she had never felt before, it is not dark or light … just the purity of the force. It is more intoxicating them either ends of the spectrum. She allow herself to drink it in, to wash through her. Her eyes opened still she did not see but now calm with steady breath, she opened her mind and let everything in.

The explosion of light white and pure like no other flashed before her, the briefest of moments before her vision rushed before her, the entirely galaxy lay there in all its majesty … she smiled as she remembered this sight .. the day Syn had given her the gift of this ability .. and she had lost. All the history of the galaxy etched in one single moment, but not as if she had stood here before in this very place and been a part of the making of it.

A child of the stars, a child of the force.

She began to walk, the thorns and branches cutting her face and hands, but she felt no pain. And finally she spoke in a voice not quite her own.

“I have witnessed this .. the Jedi are duplicitous .. they are no different from any sentient being that walks the galaxy. Only the ones that know that have witnessed the darkness can walk that path to do the duty that others will not. Who am I to judge them? One that grows the darkness in side with each passing moment. We all grow the darkness .. it is the ones with the ability to love that hold it at bay”. She Continued her walk toward Syn.

 

[Syn]

[member="Iella E'ron"]

The being looked at Iella and listened as it continued on with it all. "All beings great and small, light and dark are like that even we were but that does not mean it is a fault. The truth is intent and sometimes those who walk a path do so because of arrogance, or their own pride, because they desire to help truly and do not know the way. Others enjoy the moral high ground they create for themselves that holier then thou attitude which will allow them to judge and condemn those who do what they refuse to when the galaxy burns and cries out. You have seen the galaxy, felt it, we have heard it. Billions of voices calling out for salvation, it is easy to say warmonger when you have your own little world to live in." The being continued to look at Iella while the dark shadow came about and held a thick branch to beat Iella. "Come on little lamb time for fun."

 

[Coci Heavenshield]

[member="Syn"]

Iella felt the first hit of the branch and yelled in pain. Anger continued to build inside of her, with each blow but soon she used the force and could see and dodged them. "I don't consider myself holier then thou!", she yelled which was true enough. However, she did hold pride and yes it had blinded her way, but so did so many other things, things she had no control over. Or at least she thought.

She began to run, the shadows forming around her, unclear to her and sensed them gaining on her. For the first time in a long time, fear began to grip her and she desired to hit out against it .. against all things that lead her to this point. Frustration climbed rapidly as did the wanting to rid her of the pain ... "Do make me do this!", she yelled as she felt the build up of power in her belly. A smirk crossed her face .. no she wanted to do it. She want to show them her power one she only had release twice. She is proud of it and knows it would be used in extreme circumstances but still she longed to release it again, as it felt so good and intoxicating.

On and on they continued to beat at her, some hitting the mark and hurting and injuring her. Blood started to pour for open wounds, pieces of wood embedded in her skin and she howled. Her eyes flickered .. a sense of desire and hatred enveloping her, and she raised her arms her hand open with palms upward. A laugh .. one like none have ever heard from her, erupted from her mouth and she set the force in motion. The tight ball that knots within her turned inward, and she breathed deep with the intoxication of the darkside. So much pent up emotions, she much wanting to do things that she is not allowed or the Jedi Code forbids a desire to try it, just once, only just once.

Boom!

Her shock wave exploded from her, just like before in the Silent Desert. Radiating outward in all directions from her core leaving her untouched. A invisible wave that stretched out rapidly flattening everything in it's path for what would be miles until it began to recede. This time she did not collapse however, but stood there drinking in the destruction, or at least in her minds eye. "I want it", she whispered in a snarl.