Ashin Cardé Varanin
Are you on the square?

Continued from Orphiad: The Resurrection of S.
Kaalia's simple statement of intent and fellowship calmed Ashin - and she couldn't allow that. Fear had a power all its own, a valuable strength. She nodded tightly and mustered a smile, and the current carried the boats along, down to the River's end.


AN AMBIGUOUS AMOUNT OF TIME LATER
THE GATE OF THE DREAMING DARK
The gate looked like nothing so much as a shimmer, a soap-bubble wrongness surrounded by absence. This deep in the Netherworld, they were very close to being swept away, dissipated into the Cosmic Force. The realm ahead was something defiantly other but far more dangerous. Just being here at the gate challenged the reality of Ashin's existence - a tentative challenge, like the vertigo of glancing over a cliff. She knew from speaking with the ferrymen that the sensation and risk of dissolution would intensify past the shimmer, in the dark woods.
When she glanced back, she saw the boats far off, where the River rushed and faded into this absent void. The ferrymen would offer passage back to lucid lands, even to the few distant gates to realspace, if Ashin and her party reemerged from the Dreaming Dark.
She set her spine and turned to face those who had gathered and were still gathering - around two dozen, mostly Darksiders, who'd survived the journey here. To the uttermost edge of the Mist Beyond. To the place where all the strength they'd known and faced meant virtually nothing.
"We're often told that fear is a path to the Dark Side. If a Jedi says it, they mean fear is a weakness. If the average Sith says it, they're gloating about a weakened enemy, or considering fear a useful stepping stone to anger. But there are deeper Sith teachings that most Lords have never heard. Sidious taught Maul that fear, anxiety, and unease can be sources of strength in and of themselves - that fear is one of the weapons of a true Sith, and not just others' fear. Show me a Sith brave enough to acknowledge and embrace their own fears, right to the controlled edge of frenzy, when the tool is appropriate to the moment, and I'll show you a Dark Lord."
She gestured back at the shimmer with the Waythorne's dagger point. "That place terrifies me. Am I still going inside? Of course. To be a true Sith is to do absolutely anything for what you want most, and what I want most is trapped in there. But walking through this gate into the Dreaming Dark isn't a matter of ignoring fear. Controlling it, yes - without suppressing it. Fear is one of the core emotions that can unlock the power of the Dark Side. You can feel the connection my fear gives me - and I need it. I traded perceptiveness and insight for raw strength decades ago, but fear gives me eyes in the back of my head, puts my stunted senses on edge. It's like I'm young again, fighting through knee-deep muck in a brutal trench war on a world whose name nobody but me remembers. It's like creeping through no-man's-land with nothing but a knife. That's a state of power - the power to come back alive."
She faced the shimmer again, and stepped through.

The alienness of the Dreaming Dark slapped her in the face and hooked her guts. She'd thought she might feel dissociated from her body, whatever her body meant in this, the least rational and real plane of the Netherworld, but instead she felt unpleasantly grounded. Trapped in an implacable, even gleeful, reality. The Dreaming Dark had nothing to do with the dark side of the Force - it came from something infinitely beyond the universe she knew.
Spencer. I'm here.
Already the creatures of the Dreaming Dark rushed between the trees, circling and closing in. She drew Entropy, Rave Merrill's greatest sword, and lashed out to ward the enemy off while her followers came through the gate. She'd promised it would return to

Against the unnatural things of this place, it was only a sword.
Insofar as her heart was still real, her pulse spiked with tenacious, inescapable fear...and her lip curled with something else entirely.







