Allyson wrinkled her nose as she shook her head.
"Just Allyson, I've done nothing of worth, and I wasn't born with an aurodium spoon in my mouth." She gave Kaila a cheeky grin. Lies poured from her lips easier than the advice she had given. Allyson knew the truth of what she had walked away from.
All of it led to this.
Bodies appeared, and Allyson glanced through their faces. None she could pinpoint as someone she knew, but some had an air of familiarity. Allyson remained silent as she let the realm shift with the power the Emperor summoned. The weight of his presence was something she had felt, not just around him but also during studies or other heightened times. It was as if just a breath of his power embodied her, giving her something more as she reached into the abyss of the dark side.
It was that same power she felt now, emboldening her for the ritual.
His blood married with the pledged items in the basin. The last ingredient transformed it, and Allyson raised a brow and then looked at Taeli. She knew the woman couldn't do anything for her at that moment. Allyson had made this choice - she had made it for the power she
needed. Her hands curled into fists as she stepped forward with renewed resolve.
She took the first step forward and looked into the basin. In the liquid, she saw her reflection. There was still a chance to back away. She could still try to hold on to the Light she already felt fading. Or she could welcome the change, the freedom that came with defying fate. The answer was in front of her, and the longer she thought, the more obvious it became.
Allyson stared back at herself, and a brief glimpse into who she was meant to be reflected back. It was enough to prove itself to her.
Hands rested just under the basin's edges as Allyson lifted its fullness. Another moment to breathe, taking in the pungent scent of freedom. Glancing to her side, she stared at Taeli - the usual carefree grin spread across her face as she lifted the basin slightly as if it was a goblet of alcohol.
In their native tongue, the Corellian nearly chuckled,
"Chakta, Sai, Kae." Another raise of the basin, emphasizing the toast before Allyson returned her focus to it. Her lips touched gently against the cooling edge of the stone while the thick liquid flowed through her mouth.
The taste was unbearable, foul, and rotten, but she didn't stop. Allyson let the once-cold liquid feel warm against her throat, coating it with its viscosity.
She could feel the concoction spilling into her gut. The more she drank, the more she craved it. The basin continued to tip as she swallowed the entirety of the brew.
As the last drop passed her eager lips, the basin returned to its place, and she stepped back. At first, nothing felt out of the ordinary. She covered her mouth, burping or feeling the need to throw up - it subsided quickly. But at that moment, her skin felt cold, and then quickly, the searing pain in her chest began to burn. Hands clutched her chest, just over her heart, as her breaths became labored. Through gritted teeth, she did her best to fight it, not wanting to show the immense pain she was feeling.
The pain surged,
shattering her flesh as thin cracks bore open from what felt like a pit in her chest.
A viscous liquid pulled in place on her shirt; it was thick, warm, and
golden. It continued to pour, leaking from the cracks in her flesh and spilling onto the floor at her feet as if she were
bleeding the Light from her bones.
Arms drenched in this golden ichor as her covered eye
cried the same substance. Each flaying crack of her skin bled the Light, pushing its poison through her flesh until she couldn't stand the pain anymore and fell to her knee.
Her vision blurred as she looked down at her hands, covered in the aureate blood. It dripped from her mouth and every place it could, her painful cries muffled by her gritted teeth and choked throat.
Allyson looked up towards the endless abyss of a sky. The stars poured their Light, taking whatever she was giving through her flesh. Despite the pain, she could feel the weight of the Light falling from her shoulders. All of her failures and successes meant nothing in this moment. She could feel and taste the freedom of His lessons, each and every one of them being etched upon her flesh.
Whispers of her Master, His, and the Worm's married in her mind as she understood what was happening; the anger and the desperate claws to be free dragged against her mind. She understood everything, and she wanted it. Allyson desired every ounce of this freedom, to pull away from the Force's will and bend it to hers.
Beyond her own freedom, she wanted another's.
This was what she needed to have; this was the power to make her
whole.
Her mind quieted, the pain dulled to a careful and rhythmed pulse until it finished, and the cracking scar-like marks, tinted by the bleeding light, stopped.
Finally, she breathed, her eyes closed, taking in the moment of tranquility and silence. Slowly, she stood, and she looked down, where she once saw the
golden ichor of the Light— Allyson suddenly realized all she was left with was the
obsidian of the Dark.