What came out of Yuroic's mouth next almost made her swerve at the wheel. It was only her experience as a pilot under stress that kept her hand steady.
"...what?" She drove until she hit the finally made it to the Silver Temple, but just parked and then locked the doors to keep him from leaving. At that point, she didn't much care if he was drunk, as he had brought up issues that she felt the need to address right on the spot. All of this was disheartening news that had never appeared in official reports.
"It is NOT YOUR FAULT what happened to Jairdain and Karl!" She was almost shouting then, rising guilt causing distress. "That's on me! I sent them to Charros! I underestimated the resistance they would face there! I failed to deploy reinforcements in time, feeling sorry for myself on Kashyyyk!"
Moisture welled up in her eyes, but she didn't cry, instead of dropping her forehead against the wheel as she slumped forward in her seat. "I told her that she would be safe, I promised that I would protect her. That would protect all of you..."
Her outburst certainly wasn't behavior befitting a Grandmaster, and she would beat herself up for it after the fact, but at the time it didn't feel right expressing herself in any other way to Yuroic in private. Sorel she would never be, too much fire in her blood.
"The truth is that...none of us are safe," she spoke hoarsely, words only coming out a little above the level of a whisper. "The truth is that we are hunted, day in and out. Sith, governments, corporations and all the others, trying to take us and turn us into their tools, living weapons."
The thought of Marzoon came to mind, where she had stumbled upon the First Order attempting to exterminate a rogue group of Force Users simply trying to hide away from the wars that ravaged the galaxy. Their only crime being that they sought to retain their dignity as sentients. No one would ever know, but that's what had been the final tipping point in her decision to push for action against the First Order. She was tired of her kind getting pulled into the idiotic crusades of politicians and warlords, dying for their causes.
"It was wrong for me to make such promises, but I just wanted to make her feel safe. I want to all of you to feel safe, for this place to be your sanctuary from all those who would try to use you against your will. If we could just remain among ourselves in peace, then I would like that, but that's not how the galaxy works."
[member="Yuroic Xeraic"]