Been a while since I did one of these things. A long while.
Well, a lot has happened, life is terrible from a mental standpoint that makes ripples into nearly everything else, but I won't weigh you all down with the details - I've done that enough over Skype already. Just one word particularly sums it up: depression. It's an awful thing.
The hardest part has been accepting that I can't do anything like I used to, because it's too much to handle as I am, right now. One of those things is that I can't write like I used to and it's taken a long while of trying to write that way and utterly failing every single time to get to the point where I realise it and begin to accept it. I've got to take it slow, keep it small, and take control of my rampant want to do it all and inability to keep up, because I have a terrible habit of taking on too much, burning myself out, crawling back into myself, and disappearing.
So, two posts a day, and no more, even if I want to. Even if I really, really feel like I could. No less, because I need to practice consistency. That's the way it's gotta be, and it's gotta be scheduled. So it's scheduled, and I've been directly notifying the writers I'm involved with as to when they will be receiving posts. I will evaluate the position of my threads each weekend, schedule what I owe for each coming week, and notify.
In addition, I'll be continuing to avoid large-scale, fast-paced threads such as dominions and invasions, for the foreseeable future. Those whose company I keep have likely noticed my lack of participation in such things.
So, that's about it. I'll let y'all know if things change.
-K
Well, a lot has happened, life is terrible from a mental standpoint that makes ripples into nearly everything else, but I won't weigh you all down with the details - I've done that enough over Skype already. Just one word particularly sums it up: depression. It's an awful thing.
The hardest part has been accepting that I can't do anything like I used to, because it's too much to handle as I am, right now. One of those things is that I can't write like I used to and it's taken a long while of trying to write that way and utterly failing every single time to get to the point where I realise it and begin to accept it. I've got to take it slow, keep it small, and take control of my rampant want to do it all and inability to keep up, because I have a terrible habit of taking on too much, burning myself out, crawling back into myself, and disappearing.
So, two posts a day, and no more, even if I want to. Even if I really, really feel like I could. No less, because I need to practice consistency. That's the way it's gotta be, and it's gotta be scheduled. So it's scheduled, and I've been directly notifying the writers I'm involved with as to when they will be receiving posts. I will evaluate the position of my threads each weekend, schedule what I owe for each coming week, and notify.
In addition, I'll be continuing to avoid large-scale, fast-paced threads such as dominions and invasions, for the foreseeable future. Those whose company I keep have likely noticed my lack of participation in such things.
So, that's about it. I'll let y'all know if things change.
-K
