Words were meaningless now.
The great golden eye centered in the ceiling stared down at Carnifex as he raised his hand towards it. What he believed was a manifestation of shadow was far worse than he could have possibly imagined. Yet even then, Nwul knew it was not enough. The gaze of the dark side fell upon the sphere of inverse dark and widened with concentration before the pupil shrank to a point. The glass-like material that had coated the walls and floor, that had turned the room into a horrific hall of mirrors, held fast in the presence of the gravitational anomaly. Tendrils of biting darkness whipped out of ripples in the glass, reaching out to lash at the singularity only to be rebuffed by the powerful field. Some of the tendrils lashed out at the man himself, and it seemed like the space itself was more the domain of some manner of ancient, horrible, unknowable entity than a place in space and time.
Nwul rose out of the floor, silent as the grave, and lashed out with
Derriphan. The weapon that shared its name with Carnifex' own sword. Again, he was rebuffed, forced away and slinking back into the shadows. Nwul bit his lip in the space between, the realm of reflections, a world that seemed like an ocean beyond oceans that he now touched intimately for the first time through creating this dark place. It was so strange, it wasn't a power he had learned from the many minds he had consumed. Ah- as the thought crossed his mind he saw their faces reflected in the endless sea, each molecule a piece of glass that screamed impotently at him. Their wills were still so strong. Had he truly only borrowed their power? Not made it his own? Was Carnifex right?
Nwul's expression hardened. Of course he was.
A Sith Lord of Carnifex' calibur only spoke in deeper truths, they did not need to lie to dominate. But they could twist the nature of their words to create the impact they desired. Nwul knew that tactic all too well.
Nwul drew his hand to his heart, closing his eyes, he felt the ceaseless storm of power that raged inside of him. The mighty planetary hurricane of emotions made of every feeling one could conceive. Each mote in the stormcloud was another feeling that he had taken from someone else's past. Someone else's life. They were not his feelings, but he felt them anyway. He had let them roam free in a storm around the core of his being, the crucible that fueled his power in the dark side. The stormcloud was his fuel source, he drew a bit in to his dark crucible when he needed power. Just a bit. Just enough.
Nwul analyzed the feeling, analyzed his emotions in a way he hadn't done in some time. He'd become so blinded by his growing power that he'd almost forgotten the fundamentals of his own teachings! He had to observe his feelings, dissect them, understand them, and then make them his. Break them down into fuel until they were separate from him but also his own. As a tool. He was Sith. The cloud inside of him billowed and raged, the joy, love, hate, fear, lust, madness, passion, worry, greed, all of it a cacaphony. Nwul believed that the force set someone free and that emotions were meant to be felt freely and without restraint. That did not mean they could not be honed and controlled. The two were not mutually exclusive. That was his own failing.
In the heartbeats it took to understand the error in his thinking, the blindness of rage dispelled. The redness that had begun to inch into his eyes and poison his thoughts faded, leaving by the molten golden luster once more. He lunged for the surface, to return to the real world again. Outside, in the three seconds that passed the mighty gaze of the Dark Side grew more and more intense, boring down like a looming god.
Nwul stepped out of a glassy surface to Carnifex's left and slashed out at him, rebuffed again, but this time he accepted the pressure, the fear, the emotion, the delight at fighting such a powerful foe, and more importantly. The opportunity. His furious expression shifting to one of sorrow as he faced his sadness, the depths of his grief and the grief of millions as he rapidly consumed them, the cloud shrinking in his chest, the distortion that hid the core of his being becoming a bit smaller. He returned to the mirror world and returned again behind Carnifex, another slash, rebuffed again by Carnifex' might, his tear filled eyes now ones of joy, a smile on his face, contentment in his heart even as he attempted to skewer the other sith.
Again, the cloud began to shrink.
Over a million lifetimes all of them compressed slowly as he re appeared again and again, lashing out with his lightsaber, firing a bolt of black-gold lightning, shrieking with power, striking with shadowy tendrils, blasting with pure concentrated bursts of emotion. Each seemingly desperate disjointed attack was naught but Nwul throwing himself against a whetstone, the pressure building inside of him, the emotions crushed further and further and further, the cloud compressing until it began to take solid shape. This was experience. Processing the aeons of experience and making it his own, dominating it, consuming it, digesting it, and throwing himself against the unflappable, unbreakable wall that was Carnifex. The cloud continued to shrink until that boiling star that he had revealed to
Madrona A’Mia
was finally unveiled within his spirit.
The wound in the force in his abdomen recoiled from the heat before easing around it even as the pressure built on the cloud that had shrunk to the size of a fist rather than a titanic storm. No longer a cloud of particulate matter, no longer a disjointed mass of confused emotions and broken wisdom. No longer something that did not belong to him. A gemstone of pure feeling now rest at his center, honed, controlled, focused, purified as it sank into the star that served as the crucible for his power.
There was no choice. Either he rose to the challenge now, took the power for his own, or he would die at Carnifex's hands. There were only two outcomes today. Either become the Equal of a true Dark Lord or Perish.
Nwul stepped out of the mirror realm for the upteenth time, but this time he did not move to attack right away. The thin blade of his lightsaber glowed at his side, his golden eyes were fixed on Carnifex.
"I apologize for the delay, my Dark Lord. I seem to have been struggling with my digestion," Nwul said with a smile, canting his head to the right. His eyes were no longer plagued by the many twisting threads of madness. Insanity no longer plagued him, burdened by the legion of minds and hearts. He bore his teeth and his fingers curled, power building around his fingertips. His unmatched love for all beings in the cosmos exploded within him. His unbridled fury at the galaxy and all beings that he loathed crackled beneath his skin, his golden gaze fixed on Carnifex with the same intensity as the unknowable being that clung to the ceiling above them. He drew a deep breath and raised his weapon in a salute to the Sith before him,
"I will never forget the lesson I learned today." He rasped,
"So I will say it only once, Mighty Dark Lord, thank you, from the bottom of my heart."
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