Location: Jutrand Academy [Training Yard]
Tag:
Darth Carnifex
[Haru]
Ilvezhmin…My little moon.
Haru remembered. Even after so many years…He remembered. Did he really know? Lunaria didn't speak right away, while an unfamiliar tightness in her throat made it feel too small to talk. Eyes of silver dollars searched that of the Butcher King as he knelt before her, and although her hand did not move from his tunic, her grasp slackened ever so slightly. It was not a word that she had heard in half a decade or perhaps a little longer and yet it rang in her head as if it had been yesterday.
It was a name once whispered in the dark to soothe a youngling who couldn't understand why her life, why her family, was so different than what she saw on the HoloNet. Lunaria had intuitively always known that she and her twin were not like the others. Not like anyone, regardless, of their physical similarities to Echani kin across the galaxy. They both had a star inside.
Not the pretty, twinkling lights, that filled a velvet sky…It was the opposite. It was up close, personal, and blazed with a fire so cold it burned. The moniker still meant something to her, something she deeply suspected, Haru also knew. It quieted the storm in her chest and her cheek sank into his hand as if it were second nature. Most would find this King of Kings horrifying. They would shake in his presence and fall to their knees because his mere presence would bend their spines without trying.
Luna knew it differently. He was…Haru. He was safety, even, if he acted against her. He was home.
"I want to forgive you…But I also want to be cross with you.", she offered softly, a little distant because those weren't the only emotions she held at bay. Uncharacteristically, she also wanted to hurt him. To make him understand the void that his absence had caused in her existence but at the same time…She couldn't bear it. Her hand lifted from his tunic and she reached to toy with the ends of ebony hair.
He looked the same. He even smelled the same.
"You missed everything, Haru. You missed my first kill."
The edges of her voice, melodic and refined, offered a voice like glass that had been smoothed to perfection by years of erosion. She spoke with the diction of a diplomat but the certainty, the clarity, of a little royal. "The first real one. Not a simulation…The instructors pretended that it was a test, but I know it wasn't. The body stayed there for hours before someone moved it. They wanted to see how we might react…"
A pause. Mercurial eyes flickered toward the umbral, fire-filled eyes of the King, and her lips formed an indistinctly sweet smile. It was refined. Saddened…But solidified with merciless resolve. It was vaguely disturbing to see one so young express so much while doing so little. "I didn't flinch."
He might have been proud. Luna regretted that opportunity to prove herself to Haru. It was a duel that had left her bloody and broken but the sheer fact that she had won made it all worth it. It had been a fight to the death, no way out, no pulling punches. "I was hurt for days…Sol and I…We decided not to tell anyone. Not you. Not Naneth. We decided that we didn't need saving."
Her jaw clenched and her cheek moved just a little while her free hand moved to catch the back of his to hold it closer. As if she couldn't be sure he wasn't a hallucination. A trick of the twilight, while she softly, gently confessed the sins of her youth. "You missed my sixteenth birthday. I spent it getting beaten into the ground by one of the higher cohorts because I passed them. It wasn't fair. But…Naneth said, fights are never fair. They…Had an accident. I made it fair."
The tutors had grilled her for hours and even sent her to the Sepulchral for interrogation to discover how one apprentice could cause that much destruction. More than that, how an entire cohort could have been removed from the face of Jutrand without so much as a single scream. Not a peep, not a sound. "I stopped waiting for you after that…We teased when I was small that I was your ghost…But I had to become a ghost without you. I had to survive here, without you. No more training sessions with you and Nana. No more stories of faraway places. No more…"
Her voice trailed off, but it would be apparent where her mind had gone. She breathed in deeply before her shoulders sagged a little when she exhaled. "I'm not angry anymore."
"I just wish…I still didn't hope you'd come. Every day. That's the part…"
That was the part she felt foolish for. The part that hurt. He was still taller than she was when he kneeled, and he dwarfed her. Lunaria nodded her head slowly and when her eyes opened once more, he would see much of her mother in her. Eyes that were beautiful, perfect, but with a confident edge that could be…So cruel. It was cutting in a way that had no name.
"I will always be your Ilvezh'lin, Haru."
"But…Don't ask for forgiveness as if time were a thread to be stitched back together. If you want to be at my side….Walk with me. Be with me. Don't disappear again."