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SKIPPING LEG DAY
Location: Bastion, Unknown Medical Facility
There was a faint sting in her arm from the tug of the IVs, but the sensation was hardly a thought to the Warden at the moment. For the first time in a long time, she felt arms encompass her, the sensation of the embrace was alien to her at first, but she recalled it's feeling from years prior. Before the time of the Sith, before she had been broken down into the apprentice of Dath Levos. Numb as she was, she could feel the warmth of her friend, and know that she wasn't entirely alone. Fingers found the back of her head, slowly encompassing it and pulling her closer, Lilanna's forehead came to rest on her shoulder. She let the weight of her decisions drop onto her, indeed they were crushing. But she could lay them down here, for just a moment at least.
It wouldn't last.
Just as she was becoming accustomed to this sensation, it withdrew from her, and the Warden quickly stumbled over herself withdrawing the ocean of emotion that nearly spilled forth. The expression of the Warden looked to her friend, seeing she was just as distraught about the past encounter as herself.
Corin spoke, apologies that to the Warden didn't feel on point, rather laced with guilt and regret. It...wasn't like Corin. It wasn't like the woman she had gotten to know. Lilanna attempted to sit up, wincing as the IV tugged once more on her arm, and with the faintest exertion of what strength she could muster, she pulled the line out of her arm, bringing out a small bubbling of blood and angering the IV pump; it's angry beeping was silenced with a faint command from the Warden, though even that was a strain on her. With this dealt with, she moved to face the Ultranaut. "The truth is, I messed up. I lost control, and I-" The words became lodged in her throat once more, Lilanna's hands gripping the fabric of the sheet, before she would attempt to grab the woman's shoulder. "You were the only one who made the right call." She would manage to say, flashes of her mistake still played out in the back of her mind.
The pain of losing a limb it...was something to live with, learn by, that sort of affair. Or at least, she would learn to live with it. Though right now, the idea of doing that was...too much to factor. Corin pulled away, and with it, Lilanna's hand was left hanging in the air, before she slowly withdrew it.
There was a weakness in her voice, a tremble in her shoulders. Something had broken in her friend. Something beyond what Lilanna had done. Yet, this was the Wardens fault, as her lose of control had lead to this outcome. As Corin came back, face concealed by her hair, the Warden's arm taking the Ultranaut, and trying to embrace her; though she hadn't a clue as to how. "You did what you were supposed to Corin. I'm sorry I-" The reality of her folly struck her, and the final words concluded her thought. "I failed you."
She managed to choke out, her eyes still welling with tears she was trying to hold back. She didn't deserve to shed them, not after what she had done.
What she had caused.
Corin should have killed her, and they both knew that.