He was quiet again.
Quinn could feel his mind churning, trying to understand the words she just spoke. Anyone else would have jumped at the chance. To be free of the things that seemed horrible to her. Dominic was the second to see her situation and seek to fix it. Sibylla hinted that maybe she did want the same as well. Quinn tried to understand, trying to figure out what was so tragic about her life at times.
The Sith, the Empire, it was all she knew. Her family was there, people who loved her. Would the Republic love her, too? Would they accept her as
easily knowing what vile thing beat instead of a heart?
Maybe?
She knew better, though. The moment she longed to reach for this lifeline, the heat from the flames of her past intensified. She could hear the modulated voice in the back of her head. It shouted, called her vile, demanded her death, screamed for the Sun's blessing… for Ashla to protect.
It wanted to cleanse…
She wanted it too…
He exhaled. Quinn could feel the chill of his breath crawling up the nape of her neck. She hated that reaction; she hated how that was how he chose to end his silence.
She didn't look at him; she kept her eyes glued to anything but his face. He spoke with an understanding, but really, a lack thereof. She knew it wasn't just about the Force, but it was the easiest scapegoat. Quinn was okay with this understanding; it could settle between them, and they could continue on with what they needed to. She wanted to change the subject to work — the equal playing field.
Instead…
He said her name.
Her eyes flickered to his. She saw the way he looked at her…
Don't look at me like that…
He said her name, familiarity…
Don't say my name like that…
He stepped closer…
Stay back…
Her eyes moved from his face to the rise of his arm, the reach towards her…
Don't touch me… Don't touch me…
The feel of calloused hands caressed along every stretch of her skin. She could feel them, fingertips pressing into her flesh, pulling at her. The touch, invasive, not his alone, but many others. The caress of her jaw, the tilt of her head, the ownership in the hold at her waist.
Please... Don't...
All of it blended into that one touch that was meant to comfort, but all it did was remind her of them, the ones that touched without permission, who wanted
everything from her.
Dominic was no longer there, he was no longer the senator, he was a noble, a councilor, a man wanting something that he could not have — but demanded it.
She froze like she did back then. The gentle melody of a song meant for celebration, eerily played in the back of her mind. Heavy breaths echoed against her ear and danced along her flesh. She could smell him again, the cedarwood and wealth, which filled all of her senses.
Quinn wanted to pull away, but she didn't. All she could do was look back at Dominic, her eyes betraying the sight that she saw.
Fear.
His voice cut in; the images faded as she quickly turned her head. Tears.
Tears welled in her eyes, but she refused to let them fall. She pleaded with the Force to let him assume all of this was something else; please let him think it was because of the chains that bound her to her own
existence.
It was easier that way.
Composure began to return to her after she exhaled deeply. The mask fell carefully into place once more, her mind doing its best to push back whatever had allowed those dark memories to surface.
She didn't pull away; she remained.
"You remind me of someone… She spoke pretty words too, eloquent ones that made me believe it was possible." She huffed lightly as she kept her gaze from him. Too afraid to see a face that wasn't his.
Quinn let her thoughts linger on the Mandalorians. His assumptions were
interesting.
"My mother has never treated me like a caged bird; in reality, she protected me from those who wanted to hurt me…" She mused over this. While she often did feel trapped, it wasn't because of the Sith, not because of her Mother, not anything, but because of what she was created with.
But she couldn't tell him that…
That secret was too precious…
Too dangerous…
"This cage you speak of is one not of my choice and not of hers, but of one created by those who do not understand anything beyond the tip of their nose. Because I grew up… a Sith Princess, the daughter of an Empress… I'm inherently evil, I'm meant to harm and to destroy…"
She shook her head lightly,
"Like I told Sibylla… I want to coexist… I want stability for all nations, I don't want us to be forced to pick a side, light or dark… it creates an impossible barrier that isn't fair…"
His touch continued to burn on her arm. She wanted to pull away, but felt it would ruin whatever they'd built. She needed someone to trust her; if Dominic could look past the legacy, maybe others could too.
"Your words are nice, Dominic Praxon, but what I am and the chains that bind me are far beyond the understanding of both of us… As much as I want to be free, these chains are my existence."
Her words were cryptic, but it was the best she could do to explain.
"Trust me, if there was even a choice… I'd rip them off as quickly for myself… and for—" She caught herself, she swallowed her words as she forced a tight smile.
"Frivolous dreams are just that, but how are you doing? You seem to be faring better now?"