Ben Watts
I Am No One
Failure.
The word echoed in his head as he trudged through fog and mud up to his knees. He could barely see his hands in front of his face as he desperately tried to move thick vines that seemed heavier than normal out from his path. Ahead, there was a light, and he was not sure why but he knew he needed to get to that light in order to escape whatever hell he had found himself in. His head glanced behind looking for whatever was chasing him but he could not see anything, all he knew was he had to escape, so he kept moving forward. Each step seemed harder than the last and he felt himself running out of energy. How long had he been at this? He felt like he was moving no closer to the light with each step, in fact, it seemed to be moving further and further away from him.
FAILURE!
The ship shook as it made its final approach to Kashyyk and his eyes snapped open. It took a moment but he was able to ascertain that he was arriving at his destination as the people around him began to stir. A grey hood covered his face and the only thing others could make out was his thick grey beard, disheveled from no grooming, and occasionally his grey blue eyes as he glanced around. His hand went to his hip to feel for his lightsaber, the metal unfamiliar on his hip, it was still there. He was taken back years to when he was but a Padawan and he was constantly feeling for it to make sure it had not vanished or been stolen. This was different, though, this was more for proof than anything. He doubted anyone would know who he was and the only proof he had was with that weapon on his hip.
That is what it was. A weapon. A weapon he had used for many years to defend the innocent, those who could not defend themselves, or at least that is what he told himself at the time. When it all came crashing down on Coruscant, he left everyone behind, telling no one of his whereabouts. Living in secret, he hid himself from the galaxy, floating around and offering his expertise in order to save lives and not take them. Hospitals, poor planets, anywhere someone needed a guiding light he was there. Truth be told, it was all an excuse, a feeble old mans attempts at making amends for everything he had done. As the years wore on, however, the nagging feeling in the back of his head continued to attack his mind. He had to go back, he had to show himself, and he had to answer for all of his failures. He had to, at least at the end, make up for his shortcomings in letting the Sith take what he had worked so hard to build.
As he stood up, his bones ached, and his knees cracked. Ben Watts was not what he used to be. Once a proud and towering presence was now simply a worn down old man. People paid him no mind. They walked past him without a second thought and he did nothing to change their minds as they did so. He preferred it this way, to be no one, to be just another person in the galaxy surrounded by heroes and villains. However, even in his old age, he still walked with purpose. Never allowing his aching bones to slow him down. He stepped off of the ship and looked around. How long had it been since he had come to Kashyyk? He could not remember, all he knew was the Jedi were here, and he was going to present himself to them. However they wanted to deal with him was their own business and he would gladly accept whatever they wrought down upon him.
Silver Rest was where he found himself after a short travel. A beautiful Jedi sanctuary that filled him with a sense of hope. A hope that he once did not think was true. How vain and proud he had been to ever think that the Jedi needed him. He was but a man, a prideful and arrogant man, who others looked up to. He wished he could go back in time and tell all those who thought him more than what he was how foolish they were. If they knew how weak he truly was they would have never considered him anything worthwhile. That was his hope for today. To make up for his wrongdoings.
"My uh," He stammered as he spoke to one of the guards? Greeters? He was not exactly sure who they were but they seemed to be directing people around. "My name is Ben Watts and I am hoping to.... well to be honest I am not sure what I am hoping." He chuckled slightly as he spoke realizing how vastly unprepared he was for the occasion.
The word echoed in his head as he trudged through fog and mud up to his knees. He could barely see his hands in front of his face as he desperately tried to move thick vines that seemed heavier than normal out from his path. Ahead, there was a light, and he was not sure why but he knew he needed to get to that light in order to escape whatever hell he had found himself in. His head glanced behind looking for whatever was chasing him but he could not see anything, all he knew was he had to escape, so he kept moving forward. Each step seemed harder than the last and he felt himself running out of energy. How long had he been at this? He felt like he was moving no closer to the light with each step, in fact, it seemed to be moving further and further away from him.
FAILURE!
The ship shook as it made its final approach to Kashyyk and his eyes snapped open. It took a moment but he was able to ascertain that he was arriving at his destination as the people around him began to stir. A grey hood covered his face and the only thing others could make out was his thick grey beard, disheveled from no grooming, and occasionally his grey blue eyes as he glanced around. His hand went to his hip to feel for his lightsaber, the metal unfamiliar on his hip, it was still there. He was taken back years to when he was but a Padawan and he was constantly feeling for it to make sure it had not vanished or been stolen. This was different, though, this was more for proof than anything. He doubted anyone would know who he was and the only proof he had was with that weapon on his hip.
That is what it was. A weapon. A weapon he had used for many years to defend the innocent, those who could not defend themselves, or at least that is what he told himself at the time. When it all came crashing down on Coruscant, he left everyone behind, telling no one of his whereabouts. Living in secret, he hid himself from the galaxy, floating around and offering his expertise in order to save lives and not take them. Hospitals, poor planets, anywhere someone needed a guiding light he was there. Truth be told, it was all an excuse, a feeble old mans attempts at making amends for everything he had done. As the years wore on, however, the nagging feeling in the back of his head continued to attack his mind. He had to go back, he had to show himself, and he had to answer for all of his failures. He had to, at least at the end, make up for his shortcomings in letting the Sith take what he had worked so hard to build.
As he stood up, his bones ached, and his knees cracked. Ben Watts was not what he used to be. Once a proud and towering presence was now simply a worn down old man. People paid him no mind. They walked past him without a second thought and he did nothing to change their minds as they did so. He preferred it this way, to be no one, to be just another person in the galaxy surrounded by heroes and villains. However, even in his old age, he still walked with purpose. Never allowing his aching bones to slow him down. He stepped off of the ship and looked around. How long had it been since he had come to Kashyyk? He could not remember, all he knew was the Jedi were here, and he was going to present himself to them. However they wanted to deal with him was their own business and he would gladly accept whatever they wrought down upon him.
Silver Rest was where he found himself after a short travel. A beautiful Jedi sanctuary that filled him with a sense of hope. A hope that he once did not think was true. How vain and proud he had been to ever think that the Jedi needed him. He was but a man, a prideful and arrogant man, who others looked up to. He wished he could go back in time and tell all those who thought him more than what he was how foolish they were. If they knew how weak he truly was they would have never considered him anything worthwhile. That was his hope for today. To make up for his wrongdoings.
"My uh," He stammered as he spoke to one of the guards? Greeters? He was not exactly sure who they were but they seemed to be directing people around. "My name is Ben Watts and I am hoping to.... well to be honest I am not sure what I am hoping." He chuckled slightly as he spoke realizing how vastly unprepared he was for the occasion.