"'Is it right?' Perhaps…not for you. I have no issue with executing slavers or criminals and other scum."
Elise... had no issues with the execution of the wicked either. So why did this unsettle her? Criminals and slavers who had crossed the lines,showed no signs of changing, only needed to be wiped out, to protect the innocent. So why was this sort of forging process so... sickening to her?
"I could use innocents or children or truly defenseless people, but I don't. I wouldn't anyway…that is not something - even as a Sith - that I find comfort in. It is no secret that you despise the Sith, Elise. We have done things that have bathed the galaxy in blood and fire for thousands of years. You've slowly come to understand that not all of us are the same, but there are still some very deep grievances that you hold against our ilk. And I don't blame you; believe me, there are things that the Sith have done and still do that sicken me, that...enrage me."
Then... why
was
Revna
a
Sith herself? When they had done so much wrong? Elise had been unable to reconcile the sins and xenophobia of Mandalorian culture, and she had abandoned it. What was it with people like Malum and Revna joining the very group responsible for so much death and suffering? The ground that housed Darth Carnifex? The group the entire galaxy scorned for being the source of evil? How could Malum and Revna reconcile and justify joining this abominable faction?
But her thoughts suddenly turned to
Siyarr Ahan-Mitharran
and
Yorunarr Ahan-Yan'Sharlim
. When they were in the New Imperial Order, surrounded by Tarkinists, had they struggled with similar thoughts concerning imperials? How did
they reconcile and justify being with the
Empire?
"But let me ask you this...would you consider a slaver who takes the freedom away from children, rips families apart for money, and tortures people to break their spirits and make them into obedient little pets, to be a defenseless person who shouldn't be held accountable for their sins, their crimes? How about a Sith from the Kainite, if we should capture one for this purpose? I did warn you…that there would be a price to pay for this."
In deep thought, Elise looked away. Revna was making so many good points. She remembered being briefly enslaved by the hutts for gladiator sports, and the rage she felt being treated like an animal in the pits. She remembered her tears, and the audience that took joy in them. And her questioning,
why were people so cruel? It made her burn inside, as she felt such a yearning for them to pay for what they did.
Even if they were captured, they were not defenseless, were they? She had to admit, she would pay every credit in her account to watch that hurt suffer.
"The real question is, are you willing to pay that price, to make this weapon so that you may achieve all that you desire to do with it?"
Elise's desire was to see the galaxy become a better place. Elise's desire was to eradicate war and suffering. Elise's desire was to crush evil, and to make the galaxy safe for the civilians and good people of the galaxy. Her desire was to create a paradise she and
Darth Malum of House Marr
could raise a family in, have children in... So far, it was impossible for her. But what was she willing to do to seize the power to make it happen? She already had defected from her own family and friends, multiple times, in protest of the wrongdoings of her family's culture. She had suffered through agonizing tolerance building of Mother's Root. She had isolated herself from the galaxy, left her sister behind at home while she grieved their father, to gain the abilities of the Novanian Shamans. To make a difference. And now, so much of it did not feel worth it to her. But... was she really considering just giving up now?
It all had to be for something.
The Ancient Ones clearly believed in her. They still put faith in their rogueish follower. What did they see in her? And was it the same thing making her consider the bloody ritual before her?
"If you wish to find another way, then we can try. But it will be stepping outside of what I know, what I've trained with, and I cannot guarantee the quality of the work or its stability. If you need time to think about this, then please do so. I hold myself to a level of honor and respect, and I won't force you into anything you don't want to do. I'm not that cruel. At least…not towards those who are a part of my new family…"
Elise grimaced at the word "family." Her mother, her father, her sister... her Novanian mentor and father figure, her Sith lover...
Mia Monroe
, who was like a mother,
Liorra
, another little sister,
Ordo
, her biological grandfather and Mia's brother... Family.
Family, that at every turn, Elise had let down.
Not wanting to think about
family, Elise looked away and immediately responded.
"You're far from cruel, I know that. Malum wouldn't trust someone like that. I don't need time."
Elise stood up, clenching her fists.
"Melarran preserve me, I need to get stronger. To save everyone. I'll do it, I'll do the ritual."
She looked down at Revna, eyes burning with righteous fury and remorseful tears,
"You can take care of permissions after we figure out what we're crafting this blade with. Just... do me a favor."
Kestri and Mandalore flickered in her mind. And memories of her mother working the forge.
"Not an ounce of beskar will go into this sword. I'm not Mandalorian anymore, and that sacred metal belongs to them."