Braze carefully slipped the straw into the small mound of sweet whipped cream, pressing it slowly into the pale fluff as he listened to Zee try and articulate his desires. A faint, smirking smile played at the corner of Braze's lips, an expression that suggested he appreciated the effort, even if it amused him.
"I'm admittedly unfamiliar with intimate scenarios," he offered gently, picking up his cup and guiding the straw to his lips. He took a brief, tentative sip before lowering it again, having sampled just enough of the sugary concoction.
"That said, I wouldn't mind a little physical contact with you. Maybe we could make a game of it, if you like to spar~" His voice stayed light, though his gaze held a more direct curiosity.
"I'm guessing from all this sweet flirtation that you're single. Tell me… what do you expect from a relationship? It can mean many different things, to many different people."
The young Jedi had been on several dates before, but most had been harmless affairs, full of small talk and innocent affection, rooted more in the idea of puppy love than in anything deeper. Love itself was an elusive subject to Braze, one he had studied much like he studied combat: intellectually, carefully... but often from a distance. There were a small handful of individuals who came to mind when Braze considered the question of love.
Aliris Tremiru
was one of them. The blonde had once been the object of a suffocating crush, an affection he'd never truly acted on. With time, that longing had softened into something more familial, a quiet, protective kind of love. He still cared for her deeply, but not in the way he once had.
Then there was
Loomi
.
There was no doubt in his mind that what he felt for her was real, deeply rooted, and intimate. Loomi was his best friend, his
truest confidant, and the one person he trusted without reservation. What they shared defied an easy definition. It wasn't romantic in the typical sense, nor was it something he could reduce to simple words. Braze wanted her happiness more than anything.
To him, she seemed fragile in ways the world often overlooked, and he felt fiercely protective of that vulnerability. She deserved someone kind, someone gentle, someone
better than he believed himself to be.
The others that came to mind were little more than passing fancies of those quiet, unspoken crushes he'd never acted on, or the kind of innocuous love he held for family and close friends. Admiration, warmth, and affection… but nothing that set his soul alight or kept him awake at night wondering
what if. It was affection, yes, but never the kind that made him ache to be understood intimately, or yearn to hold someone close just to know they were real.
But Zee was different... There was something about him... something in the way he looked at Braze with unguarded curiosity, in the way he flirted without fear or calculation that stirred a more immediate, visceral response. It wasn't just the sweetness of admiration, or the distant fondness he reserved for others. This was somewhat... sharper.
With Alirs, it had been a quiet ache, one easily buried beneath duty and time. With Loomi, it was comfort and devotion, deep and safe. But Zee? Zee
unsettled him in a way he hadn't expected. Something tobe cautious about, something
exhillerating.
He found himself watching Zee quite intently, be it the curve of his mouth when he smiled, the subtle shifts in his tone, the moments when his confidence cracked just enough to reveal something vulnerable underneath. It fascinated Braze drawing him in. And more than once, he'd had to check himself, caught mid-thought wondering what it might feel like to let Zee closer.
Really closer...
This wasn't like the innocent curiosity of puppy love. Nor was it like the noble, selfless affection he held for Loomi.
What he felt now was the beginning of something else entirely... something
dangerous and
thrilling. A pull that suggested he wanted more than to simply protect or admire. He wanted to
touch, to
learn, and to
know; He wanted all of that, and so much more.
That's what set Zee apart in some manner. He didn't just make Braze feel affection... He made him
want, and sparked a sentiment more rooted in passion.
And that desire came with a question Braze rarely let himself ask.
"As for worship, I believe in respecting the Force and all its mysteries. But I tend to think worship should be about connection and understanding, not fear or seeking favors. If we're talking about ancient practices, maybe there's wisdom there to be learned; but not necessarily to be worshipped. After all, to worship something is to give it power over you, and power should be met with eyes wide open, not blind reverence. If I were to devote myself to someone or something, it would be out of deep respect and admiration—someone I'd willingly endure hardship for, even to the point of sacrificing my life. So, in short, no, I wouldn't just worship any deity or god, especially not one I consider false. That kind of commitment is reserved for something truly special, something or someone that profoundly resonates with me, intimately."
Alirs and Loomi, in their own ways, had each brushed against that threshold. People he would bleed for without hesitation. People whose names he held quite close in the quiet spaces of his heart.
But Zee…
Was he worthy of that kind of devotion? Braze didn't know yet....But the fact that he was even asking... perhaps
that said enough.
He shifted slightly and stretched one leg forward, the tip of his boot brushing gently against Zee's knee beneath the table in a soft, almost petting motion.
"I may not be well-versed in the finer intricacies of passion," he admitted, his tone softening,
"but I believe good communication and mutual understanding are the foundations of anything lasting. Expectations, needs… those are things I'd like to hear from your pretty lips."
To Braze, love meant many things: duty, affection, connection, sometimes even sacrifice. But what stirred between him and Zee now wasn't love, at least not yet. This felt more like infatuation, a spark of chemistry and curiosity. And that, he acknowledged inwardly, was one part of the greater whole.
"You don't need to thank me for what I did," he added gently.
"You owe me no debts." He took another languid sip of his drink, eyes never quite leaving Zee's.
"But I would like to know your intentions with me, and what it is you're really seeking."