S H A D O W
Spencer sat on her bed as she quietly stared at the letter she had written several times over. The woman she wrote to was someone she hadn't spoken too in some time. Her mother, the Clan Mother of the Singing Mountain - her home. Closing her eyes, Spencer finally felt the letter was finished and with that she pressed the send button.
Some time later, it arrived to Satara.
Attn.@[member="Satara Hawk"]
From: Spencer Jacobs
To my mother, I know I haven’t called or written home for some time now – years even. I just wanted to let you know I’m happy and I’m safe. I’ve seen the galaxy, I’ve been to places that were only in my dreams as a child, and all I’ve thought of was to make you proud. Aston is good, I can still feel him – he’s with the Jedi last I checked, I try not to pry into his private affairs – we’re a lot older now, we’re not kids anymore.
I miss home though, I miss it so much. I miss being with the Rancors, I miss seeing the traditions that made our people who they are. If I could, I would go back a thousand times, but most of all what I miss of home is you. So much has happened in my short life and I know so much more will happen, I just wish you were around to talk to me, to help me figure things out. I’d like to come home soon, I want you to formally meet my Mate. I know I was young when I met her, but everything just felt right…
You know of her already, she’s the reason why Ti’Cira banished me from Dathomir. @[member="Ashin Varanin"], I’ve stayed with her since I met her when I was a padawan of the Order, once I left the Order she gave me refuge and began to teach me – helping me with my unique abilities. She is an amazing teacher and mentor, everything I’ve learned since I left Dathomir can be attributed to her. I don’t know how or when it happened, but an evening everything in my mind registered how I felt about my teacher – she felt the same. From then, I’ve never left her side. We’ve conquered lands, saved people and provided refuge to those in need. We made a home on Annaj and she’s the Grand Admiral of the Fringe. My home is where ever Ashin is. She asked me to marry her soon after she had disappeared for so long. Mother I never felt so much sadness in my heart, my world doesn’t exist without her. Knowing that and when she proposed – I knew I couldn’t live without her.
We married and she became my Mate on her home world – I’ve never been happier, I wish you could have been there. It was our choice not only for safety, but for the spontaneous nature of the proposal – we eloped it just made more sense and I do apologize for not letting you know this sooner Mother. We’ve been married for a year now and I know we haven’t come by to receive your blessing – I just feel I can’t come home not yet. Soon I promise you, I want you to meet her – she makes me feel amazing.
Other things have happened of course, I can’t leave out my personal adventures. I did say so much has happened to me. One very distinct day that sticks out in my mind was after a fight on Mustafar. A woman threatened the safety of our hiding after the Empire removed Ashin as their leader. She was on the hunt for us and I was tired of hiding. I’m a Hawk I do not hide I take each challenge head on. I went looking for her and found her on the fire planet of Mustafar. We fought the battle was hard, she was strong, but I was stronger. My years of training with Ashin and the things I learned from Kamon and others that had contributed kept me alive. Though as prepared as I was – I did fall. She broke through my defenses and a piece of debris stabbed me in my torso. I couldn’t die there, my first thought was of you and my memories of home, then I thought about my life and how I wasn’t ready to die just yet. My strength and my heritage kept me going as I removed the debris and made sure I was going to take her with me. I was saved though by Ashin.
As much as my letter has conveyed my desire of home – I cannot come yet. Your fears of me falling to the Dark Side have somewhat come true. I continue to desire balance, but through my actions and my youth I have done things that have forced my hand, forced my change. I’m too young for the responsibilities that I have. I was foolish in thinking I had finished growing, that I had learned everything this Universe and the Force had to offer. My foolish desires to claim territory drove me into a battle that I was responsible for. I attacked someone, not for revenge, not for the greater good, but I attacked someone because I wanted what they had – I wanted to protect the Fringe from hurt and I saw the Atrisians as a threat. People died for my worry, for my desire and I don’t know if I could live with that. Frustrations came after Ashin worked out some sort of peace with the Emperor of the Galactic Empire. I had failed and saw the disappointment in everyone’s eyes. Thinking of the people that were lost because of me, I couldn’t take it and went into solitude. My anger manifested into storms that clouded the planet I was hiding on, only one brave enough to find me was Ashin. She pulled me back before the darkness could really take me. I’m working on returning to balance, finding Allya again. When that happens I’ll come home, I’ll bring Ashin.
I miss you, father and my family, I know I’ve been gone for so long and all my heart craves is to feel the ground of Dathomir under my feet. Until then, I have my dreams and my memories. I want you to know that I’m okay and I’m doing well for myself. I know it’s been 3 years since we’ve spoken, but you’re forever in my heart and on my mind.
I love you.
Spencer
Some time later, it arrived to Satara.
Attn.@[member="Satara Hawk"]
From: Spencer Jacobs
To my mother, I know I haven’t called or written home for some time now – years even. I just wanted to let you know I’m happy and I’m safe. I’ve seen the galaxy, I’ve been to places that were only in my dreams as a child, and all I’ve thought of was to make you proud. Aston is good, I can still feel him – he’s with the Jedi last I checked, I try not to pry into his private affairs – we’re a lot older now, we’re not kids anymore.
I miss home though, I miss it so much. I miss being with the Rancors, I miss seeing the traditions that made our people who they are. If I could, I would go back a thousand times, but most of all what I miss of home is you. So much has happened in my short life and I know so much more will happen, I just wish you were around to talk to me, to help me figure things out. I’d like to come home soon, I want you to formally meet my Mate. I know I was young when I met her, but everything just felt right…
You know of her already, she’s the reason why Ti’Cira banished me from Dathomir. @[member="Ashin Varanin"], I’ve stayed with her since I met her when I was a padawan of the Order, once I left the Order she gave me refuge and began to teach me – helping me with my unique abilities. She is an amazing teacher and mentor, everything I’ve learned since I left Dathomir can be attributed to her. I don’t know how or when it happened, but an evening everything in my mind registered how I felt about my teacher – she felt the same. From then, I’ve never left her side. We’ve conquered lands, saved people and provided refuge to those in need. We made a home on Annaj and she’s the Grand Admiral of the Fringe. My home is where ever Ashin is. She asked me to marry her soon after she had disappeared for so long. Mother I never felt so much sadness in my heart, my world doesn’t exist without her. Knowing that and when she proposed – I knew I couldn’t live without her.
We married and she became my Mate on her home world – I’ve never been happier, I wish you could have been there. It was our choice not only for safety, but for the spontaneous nature of the proposal – we eloped it just made more sense and I do apologize for not letting you know this sooner Mother. We’ve been married for a year now and I know we haven’t come by to receive your blessing – I just feel I can’t come home not yet. Soon I promise you, I want you to meet her – she makes me feel amazing.
Other things have happened of course, I can’t leave out my personal adventures. I did say so much has happened to me. One very distinct day that sticks out in my mind was after a fight on Mustafar. A woman threatened the safety of our hiding after the Empire removed Ashin as their leader. She was on the hunt for us and I was tired of hiding. I’m a Hawk I do not hide I take each challenge head on. I went looking for her and found her on the fire planet of Mustafar. We fought the battle was hard, she was strong, but I was stronger. My years of training with Ashin and the things I learned from Kamon and others that had contributed kept me alive. Though as prepared as I was – I did fall. She broke through my defenses and a piece of debris stabbed me in my torso. I couldn’t die there, my first thought was of you and my memories of home, then I thought about my life and how I wasn’t ready to die just yet. My strength and my heritage kept me going as I removed the debris and made sure I was going to take her with me. I was saved though by Ashin.
As much as my letter has conveyed my desire of home – I cannot come yet. Your fears of me falling to the Dark Side have somewhat come true. I continue to desire balance, but through my actions and my youth I have done things that have forced my hand, forced my change. I’m too young for the responsibilities that I have. I was foolish in thinking I had finished growing, that I had learned everything this Universe and the Force had to offer. My foolish desires to claim territory drove me into a battle that I was responsible for. I attacked someone, not for revenge, not for the greater good, but I attacked someone because I wanted what they had – I wanted to protect the Fringe from hurt and I saw the Atrisians as a threat. People died for my worry, for my desire and I don’t know if I could live with that. Frustrations came after Ashin worked out some sort of peace with the Emperor of the Galactic Empire. I had failed and saw the disappointment in everyone’s eyes. Thinking of the people that were lost because of me, I couldn’t take it and went into solitude. My anger manifested into storms that clouded the planet I was hiding on, only one brave enough to find me was Ashin. She pulled me back before the darkness could really take me. I’m working on returning to balance, finding Allya again. When that happens I’ll come home, I’ll bring Ashin.
I miss you, father and my family, I know I’ve been gone for so long and all my heart craves is to feel the ground of Dathomir under my feet. Until then, I have my dreams and my memories. I want you to know that I’m okay and I’m doing well for myself. I know it’s been 3 years since we’ve spoken, but you’re forever in my heart and on my mind.
I love you.
Spencer