Corvus Raaf
Adieu...
I never thought this day would come. Or this post to be more accurate.
I’ll not say it all again, but last night I reflected on some facts. Why I joined CHAOS in the first place. How I nearly left after a couple of weeks because of a really bad experience. Being an FA two months after joining. My time as FL.
Fifteen months of my life…and every moment a Pubbie.
I know I complained about the tone of certain posts recently. How I postured that I’d leave if it remained as toxic. It was the sort of thing a parent says to a child in the hope of shocking them into a change in behaviour. Did I want to leave the GR? Think back to my last post as FL. I said I’d stay as long as you wanted me — and then a bit longer. And I’d keep out of the politics and allows the new FA team to make decisions and voice opinion without me interfering. And I kept to my word.
And last night I reflected that tough times have never been an issue. I’ve managed rigged votes, OOC plans to ’s***w over’ the GR, the withdrawal of all of our ships and much more besides. I carried on because I love the Republic. I love the Jedi Order.
And when I wrote that final FL weekly news, I never imagined the GR wouldn’t want me. Until last night. I had a few conversations on Skype.
There is general disapproval with who I RP with. There is a specific amount of vitriol about one writer in particular. This is, to me, unacceptable.
I was told, “People are losing faith in you as GM.” “They think you aren't really interested anymore.” That I should have tried ‘harder’ in Invasions. I was criticised for being ‘non-vocal.’
I was told to show people my heart, to, “restore the confidence the Jedi players had in you.”
And above all I was told this was all being openly discussed on Skype and that I had to demonstrate to everyone that I ‘care.’
There is an old saying that people ought to be careful what they wish for.
There is no place for me in a Faction that thinks I don’t care. That wants to dictate who I do or do not RP with. That decides for me how I enjoy myself. So this is an OOC notice that I’m leaving the GR. Maybe the boards in time? I can’t operate as a lone wolf (my other characters prove that) and so only time will tell.
I’ll RP this out IC over the coming weeks. Despite not caring I post most in Dominions. Despite not caring, I have the most Padawans, and so need to manage this process for them too. Remain and choose a new Master? Stay as Corvus’ Apprentice and remain in the GR? It’ll be for every Padawan to decide. And I’ll start the process for a new GM soon too. All I have to do is find an IC reason for Corvus to leave — which is the real challenge…
I’ll not say it all again, but last night I reflected on some facts. Why I joined CHAOS in the first place. How I nearly left after a couple of weeks because of a really bad experience. Being an FA two months after joining. My time as FL.
Fifteen months of my life…and every moment a Pubbie.
I know I complained about the tone of certain posts recently. How I postured that I’d leave if it remained as toxic. It was the sort of thing a parent says to a child in the hope of shocking them into a change in behaviour. Did I want to leave the GR? Think back to my last post as FL. I said I’d stay as long as you wanted me — and then a bit longer. And I’d keep out of the politics and allows the new FA team to make decisions and voice opinion without me interfering. And I kept to my word.
And last night I reflected that tough times have never been an issue. I’ve managed rigged votes, OOC plans to ’s***w over’ the GR, the withdrawal of all of our ships and much more besides. I carried on because I love the Republic. I love the Jedi Order.
And when I wrote that final FL weekly news, I never imagined the GR wouldn’t want me. Until last night. I had a few conversations on Skype.
There is general disapproval with who I RP with. There is a specific amount of vitriol about one writer in particular. This is, to me, unacceptable.
I was told, “People are losing faith in you as GM.” “They think you aren't really interested anymore.” That I should have tried ‘harder’ in Invasions. I was criticised for being ‘non-vocal.’
I was told to show people my heart, to, “restore the confidence the Jedi players had in you.”
And above all I was told this was all being openly discussed on Skype and that I had to demonstrate to everyone that I ‘care.’
There is an old saying that people ought to be careful what they wish for.
There is no place for me in a Faction that thinks I don’t care. That wants to dictate who I do or do not RP with. That decides for me how I enjoy myself. So this is an OOC notice that I’m leaving the GR. Maybe the boards in time? I can’t operate as a lone wolf (my other characters prove that) and so only time will tell.
I’ll RP this out IC over the coming weeks. Despite not caring I post most in Dominions. Despite not caring, I have the most Padawans, and so need to manage this process for them too. Remain and choose a new Master? Stay as Corvus’ Apprentice and remain in the GR? It’ll be for every Padawan to decide. And I’ll start the process for a new GM soon too. All I have to do is find an IC reason for Corvus to leave — which is the real challenge…