Shan was at least grateful to see there was someone who actually believed his thought process made sense. Or at least, didn't disagree with it straight away. It actually brought a smile to his face. The idea of Self-Defense had slowly been growing as an option in his mind at the very least. He wasn't fully opposed to the idea of training against others as much as he used to...but it wasn't something he was comfortable with yet, as he had made evident earlier. That didn't stop him from thinking about it at the end of the day.
"I had spoken to another Padawan about my dislike of fighting, as I associate it with violence and pain, from my upbringing on Nar Shaddaa. They said I should be...more open-minded about the idea of fighting. That in various cultures they use it as a way of communication." He sighed after that, running a hand through his hair, tussling it slightly as his mind tried to figure out what words to use. "And whilst I can understand that...It is still something that I can't see myself enjoying or understanding. Words should just be as effective as actions." There was a small aspect of Shan that was afraid that he was being close-minded without realising it. Though he shook that thought off as well, looking around the Temple once more. "They also suggested I get a Master to help me with my...dislike of fighting. That it would help me in the long-run."
Leaving that topic there however, Shan tilted his head in thought as Valery suggested other ways he could stop threats without causing pain, his eyes seemingly lighting up at the thought of some of the options. Stunning an entire group with the Force...That was definitely a technique that intrigued him as the Mirialan thought about it all, before giving a short nod of confirmation, mostly to himself.
"I think that is something that would appeal to me. Yes. I've also been looking into lightsaber forms to see what might appeal most with my...philosophy." He felt ridiculous saying it like that. It wasn't a philosophy in his eyes. Part of him felt like it was just him not being willing to hurt people but he had always wanted to stick to his values, even if they appeared ridiculous to him. "Soresu and Niman have seemed the most...interesting to me. Soresu allows for me to focus on a defensive approach but would also require me to have intense training for my stamina to make sure I could outlast an opponent...whilst Niman allows me to focus on using the Force..."
Though realising he was about to start rambling about his research, Shan shook his head once more, breaking out into a bright smile. "I just want to focus on a more...defensive, or disarming approach. I believe everyone has a chance to do good, even if they're currently doing bad. If I went on a more offensive approach, and end up taking their life instead of disarming them, my opponent loses out on the chance to change. It goes back to what I think about pain causing more pain. Forgiveness and kindness can cause more forgiveness or kindness...Or perhaps I'm just naive in that belief" It wasn't necessary for him to explain more about his reasoning for his beliefs, but it was just something he wanted to explain.