Gardens
Aurelian Veruna
"I know," Sibylla replied quietly, empathically, as her thumb brushed lightly against the fabric of his coat in an attempt at a small grounding motion to reassure him, ignoring for the moment that they were shadowed in the flower hedges of Alderaan's royal gardens.
"I know you have been trying hard." She repeated, shining him a soft smile of encouragement that was equally edged with steady certainty.
"I have seen it, Aurelian, every moment of it," she continued, taking a step closer so she had to tip her head back up to meet the amber of his eyes. It was there in how he did his best to rein in his temper, to take the moment to listen and really consider another's opinion or circumstance, to try and open himself up to be more than just what others had expected of him and more what
he wanted to be.
"And I am very proud of you." and while the words were gentle, they carried a truth she did not offer lightly. Her hand gave a soft, affectionate rub against his chest, the gesture simple and almost teasing in its familiarity but filled with quiet reassurance.
"...everyone has done things they regret," she continued at last, her tone shifting into a more thoughtful muse.
"Things that others might call unforgivable."
Sibylla's gaze drifted briefly, distant with the weight of history, as she thought back to what Cassian had revealed about Thessaly and how they had once been in love. How choices had set in motion a series of events that led to bitterness and anger.
They were still trying to locate him, and even now, Sibylla wasn't sure if his disappearance had something to do with Thessaly, with the Republic, or as an attack against House Abrantes itself.
"And perhaps more so for those of us born into Royal Houses. We know too well how bloody our histories have been… what it took to bring fractured worlds under a single crown."
She returned her attention to him, something gently knowing in her expression.
"I am not so naive as to believe you have never lied to me," she added, the faintest hint of dry amusement touching her voice. "
Or that you did not embellish a tale or two when we first met, acting in the only way you knew how."
Certainly, they had both watched each other not only with wary eyes but also with a facade of composed cordiality and inciting banter. Yet look at them now.
"But I also know this." Sibylla's hand shifted slightly, her fingers curling over the quickening thump of his heart.
"You took my offer of counsel seriously on Foundation Day. You make the effort to keep me involved. And when it is only the two of us…you let me in." she murmured in a quieter breath.
"Please do not mistake this as having to relay everything to me; I do not expect to know everything. That would be neither reasonable nor wise. But what is important, truly important, I seek to be involved in."
"So will our lives be perfect?" Sibylla asked, her tone lighter though no less sincere.
"Will every decision be neatly arranged so that no one is harmed?"
She shook her head slightly, the delicate jewels of her headdress lightly tickling the shell of her ear.
"No, I think we both know the galaxy is not so accommodating...and while things may very well not be settled in neat rows or lines, at least we may endeavor to do our best within it."
Now as for his claim that he had done unforgivable things... Sibylla's attention drifted back over the garden even as she considered why Aurelian would be so concerned over what he had done in the past. She thought back to what Aurelian had revealed to her on that secret cove along the coast of Parrlay, to the stories of his family, his childhood, his father, and his sister, and what it was like to live within those unforgiving stone walls.
He was a product of his upbringing, and he had no one to support him then. No one, until Tona, and even then, he stared stubbornly at the trials of his youth with a grit and determination to survive that she knew most would not be able to stomach. If she lived a sheltered life, Aurelian's was a gladiator's arena where he had to prove himself over and over again against the expectations of his father and family.
So her gaze softened again, and she swallowed hard, taking a deep breath before adding.
"I know growing up in your father's home was not easy," she said gently. "
You did what you had to do to survive, Aurelian. I will not fault you for that."
The need to touch him rose within her as much as the desire to reassure, her thumb brushing lightly once more over the fine fabric of his jacket.
"You had no one then. No one to stand beside you while you faced a man the galaxy already knew for what he was." She drew another quiet breath, then added,
"The past is the past. And it led you here."
To this moment. To me.
"It is different now," she said with a bit of wry sincerity, "
You are older, with a bit more experience, and although you are utterly, incredulously, maddening at times, you are wiser in your role as a man, as a Patriarch, as a King."
Then, with a soft draw of breath, she told him empathically:
"And you are no longer alone." and there was no hesitation when she added,
"You will never be alone again."
By then her gaze fully lifted to his once more, and there was no denying the way that unwavering determination settled into place.
"So hear me well, Aurelian Marcus Veruna," she said, her voice soft but certain. Her hand pressed just slightly more firmly against his chest.
"You are, whether you like it or not, quite thoroughly tethered to me." she told him in absolution with the faintest, fondest curve of her lips.
"And I do not intend to let you go."