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From a teacher to a friend..... (Matsu Ike)

[member="Matsu Ike"]

It was then despite the fact he could no less feel the rage built up within ever so slowly as inert darkness seem to take hold. As for whatever reason, his frustration with the guardian answers but none the less hold it all in. As he glances to the side note Master Ike with a slid nod to him to which end giving a slight nod he spoke to the Guardian.

"Very well... if I may be excused then."

After which he then walks out and off to the side the temple hope if anything finds himself out of the Master site. Before if anything the darkness takes hold like it did once. As slowly but surely it seems the memories came back unraveling the faint images of the cloak figure. Its words ring true....that whatever he did there was no escape the past.
 
Emberlene's Daughter, The Jedi Generalist
[member="Ronin Wendigo"]

The jedi master was watching him, she was watching dangerous emotions coming around within the jedi himself. Before she looked over to see him going and stopped herself from just roaming over there to him and stopping him. She looked back at the holocron to see what it might say but she was looking at everything they might be able to have here. She deactivated it, she secured it within the small pack she had so Ronin could access it whenever he wanted to before she was moving quickly outside of the room they were in. She was looking around the area within the temple as she came out of it and the eye here was producing somethign for them to se. "Hopefully he will be okay."
 
[member="Matsu Ike"]

It was then it was at that time that as looming mist of vile poison of hate coexisted with the dark memories. Of what seems been a once forgotten past ...or so it seems on the surface. For beneath the surface of banter that crosses between him and the guardian which however subtle it seemed benign. Lay something of which drew and dug deep into his very soul....something which seems need not be spoken for it carry the heavy weighted burden that it had. For in its simplicity lay the foundation of a truth he dare not or would not accept to a point that it had become. More of the chains that bound him as much it created the Myst for which hid the demons that lurked to exact its own form of what it deems justice.

At which point mid-stride he pauses and glances back once hope if anything that the benevolent and wise Master. Of whom he held in high regards as he'd hope .... stop him or the very least try before he fears the madness settled in, But then again she did not and so with his mind haunted with both confussuon and fear. He felt compeled if not for anything else to depart from there and seek out sanctuary far away from all. with both confusion and fear. He felt compelled if not for anything else to depart from there and seek out sanctuary far away from all.

For in his conflicted heart lay the conundrum.....of wanting so hard unlock the truth that lay hidden deep at the same time fear the undeniable possibility of where such truth lead. That he might not like the answers to which the truth held... for if anything could learn from the old text as his old Master once said. Sinner or saint.....Hero or villains....the truth never lies for it was in the eye of the beholder to which if anything reality or truth lay.
 
Emberlene's Daughter, The Jedi Generalist
[member="Ronin Wendigo"]

Matsu was looking at it and walked along the crooked path. A way that the jedi used to contemplate and focus their minds. It would force her to think about anything and everythign that was happening. Ronin had discovered something few others might really be able to learn. She could fel his mind was in turmoil... feel the ideas or thoughts. Where they all moved around until she clasped her hands behind her back. "He'll be fine." Perhaps... he was complicated in many ways where they could go around. THe jedi master stopping at one fot he gates where she would be able to meditate seeing in the distance the steps of the temple for the eye.
 
[member="Matsu Ike"]

It was then that as much he'd hope the distance would somehow help quell the rage growing within him. As it seems had before which was the reasoning he had for his somewhat erratic and slowly infrequent returns to the temple. Where in it seem his long absence had not either been missed or dismissed. As one would or even most perhaps surmised as just the nature of the beast and its trapping. Given that for the most part as much anyone knew he'd been more likely just been assign to scouting mission or such. As the growing influence of the darkside seems to loom over much if not for the greater part of the galaxy. Which could be debatable to most but not certainly in his point of view? For the deeper, he ventured into the darkness that it seems the faint glow of the light began to wane. Seem all but no less than a speckle rather than a shining beacon as it should. To which end it no less contributed to blurring the fine line of control he had within him.

As more and more it seems the rage threaten to take control and by some seem a faint miracle still resist. That he'd been able to hold out this long and not seem to raise any of the other Master suspicions. Or so he assumed at which case once in his mind. Speaking with the ancient holo-recording of the long departed Master. That was housed within the Holocron they just discovered. Did little to deter but seem to encourage in his mind a slow deterioration of the mental wall. That seems separated a part of memory in his past that all but. Brought a deep sense of dread or fear within him and yet like a moth to a fire. He could not or would not be able to seem to look away but instead be drawn deeper into it.

To which in a way he knew all too well a choice had been made....leave or run away as he had always done in the past. Or stay stand his ground and face the unknown for once. Place his faith that is such that things go south or worse. He could depend on Master Ike to assist in contain it.....however, or wherever it may lead. Even if it meant ill for him....as if nothing else. To be finally free or be done with the torment that silently or secretly plagued him since his return. Felt more of a relief and desirable conclusion if it ever came to that.

And so once he'd gone as far he could that his legs ached from the strain of walking such a distance aimlessly thru the unfamiliar rough terrain. That he finally fell to his knees as the throbbing pain in his head seems to intensify. That he could have sworn it felt as it would burst any moment.

But then at that time, a faint sound of rustling footsteps made him glance up and saw the silhouette. Faint as it was at first before slowly come ever closer to him. Speak not a word its face shrouded by the shadow of the darken cloak. It extended a pale hand out its fold towards him. Make him shudder a bit away but eventually, it came close enough. That it stroke his head, brush its cold fingers from the top his head and stop midway. Pause to cup one ear as without hearing a sound spoken he could have sworn to somehow hear. One short sentence is utter.....

'Remeber......resistance is futile as there no denying the truth.....set yourself free....let go.'

And it seems at that time that from his point view that pressure seems to feel the greatest that while he held back as best he could. He felt just couldn't to a point that as much he held it in that his very soul or every fiber within him fought for some release from pressure bear down on him. That all could do was let out a painful scream as he then with his hand barely let go from cup his ear that he fell down on all four. Wincing as much he seemed wail in pain as before his eyes thru the very depth his mind the images came to slip thru. Where standing over what seem been the burnt out wreckage of some sort crash ship and with it something else....something as if however strange it would seem....that he was there....actually there....that it felt and seem so real to him to a point....with the air seems heavy with the burnt smell of mix inorganic and organic scent. That he hears a crackling voice that intermittently came thru between gasp for air and fits of choke cough.

'...and they thought me mad....well.... it does not matter now.... for I do not as a failure ....for soon they would all know....that I was right all along...'

And with that, he feels whatever it was he was experiencing shifted as such that he could clearly see a form lay sprawled at his feet. As old and feeble the being was with its face cover beneath the shadow of chard cloak hood that it seems felt all too familiar. That it was not so much a dream or a nightmare....but something else of a different kind. That by then feel a hard lump form within his troats as dry and parched as it was that it felt so strange or oddly surreal. That despite how bad the landscape around him was that he did not feel pain....remoarse nor seem anything else. Other than seem just being there at that moment at that point in time. When from hindsight he felt before see it....the cloak hooded fiend that seem have haunted his dreams and every bit of his wake hour. Standing there as if seem oblivious of his presence before the drop down on one knee beside the broken figure who's cloak hood slowly began falling back. To reveal a face....one which seems rock him to his core. For although he didn't know it then he could have sworn to have seen his face before. But then before he could utter nor wrack his brain to try to remember that he saw it.

The kneeling figure draws back his hand towards his waist where draw out a small metallic object. Which no sooner as it came to rest by the fallen chest. That the figure spoke....voice seem all incoherent at first that it seems like was speak in a strange tongue he did not recognize up until the very last second. That voice began to change and slow seems came to understand what was being said. Along with the fact that the fallen was none other than the Master whom he was said been with the day that he'd disappeared. For reason unknown or for what mission so few knew as the record had been at first said been sealed or said be non-existent.

'.....yes you were right.....the darkness never rest.....never sleeps....never can be trusted....like a plague ...a disease...one can never argue nor reason with it....and all one can do is to make sure snuff it out without a second thought..with resolve.'

And with that, the dark figure hunched over to ignite the saber as it then dug deep into the fallen chest. Snuff out his life just like that then turn its head that he saw its eyes. Stare back at him as if both longing as much it was famillar.....as it soon hit him like a ton of bricks all at once. As the eye staring back at him was his own....which left him so confused and broken that it all hit him all at once. That this was no mere vision but was simply a glimpse of a passing memory which either given to the strong bond or affinity the force had to this place... its history or something else. That it made all to easy for pass bleed into the present...


Cause his mind to seem to be so overwhelming that before he knew it Ronin fell. Slump over to the side feels so drain as much as he was torn by what he'd witness. That he felt frozen and unable to will himself to even stand....as he lay there alone lost in his mind if but for a moment. As seem his whole being tried its eagerness to recover from the unexpected events of that day.
 
Emberlene's Daughter, The Jedi Generalist
[member="Ronin Wendigo"]

She remained there sitting down and meditating at one of the clarity gates as she felt it. Ronin's mind was like a beacon when he went through something. "Interesting." She had said she would help with his mind and moved quickly away from the gate where she hadn't spent her time to pass but she was going backwards with her feet moving quietly on the stone work. She could feel him more though as she got closer stopping just enough to look herself over and straighten out her hair and robes. "Jedi Wendigo is everything alright?" She asked it while she was standing there looking over at him. Hand coming out to sense and feel what she could.
 
[member="Matsu Ike"]

It was then as it hit him all at once....the realization....break of the wall that he himself had seemingly built partially...along with a million other emotion all at once....betrayal.....shame.....anger...pain....relief... As in a sense, he somehow came face to face with that which sought. As from all side, he felt a feeling of falling down an invisible bottomless pit that left him both breathless yet so alive. Yet so drain he was at first that he didn't even come realize or such when Master Ike came. Drawn close as she was speaking while she stood there to hand out while giving him a once look over. At the same time seem extended here sense around him as if in an attempt try sense or feel for an explanation or reason for his condition as she'd found him.

But then perhaps due to him still in a daze caught in the moment or whatnot his hand reach out. To then come to grasp hers as he slowly tried to break free of the hold of whatever it triggered the vision in his mind. Which was seen as raw it was unshielded that anyone strong will enough could easily peek in or influence to either twist or help with the situation.

As he then gasps being pulled back in while loos his grip to escape given the choice of a fight of the flight he seems chose the latter. That the vision continued with point view shifting ever so slightly between first person to hovering view of the landscape. All but drenched in snow the bitter cold slowly came to seep deep into his very bones. Yet it seems not faze him feeling the warmth of life drawn from the cloak corps before him into him, As with eyes hue shifting from shade of green to an ebony hue. As all around voice came to taunt him.....

'..see there no escape it....you are a child of the shadow and defender of the light... that be your destiny. To seek out darkness and see its ruin ....destruction not the lie they feed your mind.....peace? What is peace if not an illusion if for not one commit themselves to snuff out the dark so as make sure light prevail. They knew this....your Master sense this in you and would made well have finished your training if they'd not intervien...'

And with that, his hand shot up to grab a handful of her robe garment in what seems to be a fit of delusion caused by the images. That then intermittently flashed before his mind which although fragmented was no less affecting him to spasm slightly. For between the battle seem fought by both his mind and body due to mental attack that came his way. Unprepared he slightly unable act out in a fit of feeling himself tense up as he felt caught.....between the basic instinct of fight or flight his mind seem apparently loss.
 
Emberlene's Daughter, The Jedi Generalist
[member="Ronin Wendigo"]

She gasped in surprise looking at Ronin.. Matsu was unsure of what to do or what might be able to hapen. THe jedi moved her hands to grasp him while steeling herself she just needed to hold him in place. "It is okay, just listen to me." She said it whem she was moving around though before she directed them towards the side. Her senses expanding over him, focusing on the force around them and to really see into the jedi or try and break through for him to realize it was her and not someone else. "Ronin you need to come back to me, use my voice and allow your mind to sort itself out." Matsu breathed outwards and let all of the calming energies that she could get go around them.
 
[member="Matsu Ike"]

It was then at that moment that between the ebbing tide of dark phantoms and lucid reality he soon found himself in. That for as much dare stand strong to its provocation wherein caught between the rage and fear. Was the small sliver of ground that he held on to as such seem lost in ist momentary grasp that part of him instinctively reach out. Not so much as dare to do harm but rather not to.... as lost he was in that moment. That only hope he could sough seek was find something aid in ground him into the present....reality rather than past mirages that came. Drowning as he was that seem from afar a voice...

"It is okay, just listen to me."

To which with her touch aim to try to hold him from moving much that all he could do was just that. Listen ....heeding her words as he felt her sense reach out to him. Help to in a way draw him out enough to calm his mind as much one would a youth for which he could not help me draw feel be at that time. As images in his mind flash just as she somehow slowly broke thru.....just enough that she could briefly peer into his mind. Partake thought ins glimpse or stages into seeing....that from the moment of his early foray into discovering his ability within the force. That either side came to seem to draw him in....for as much part his wish to stay in the light so did the seed of darkness implanted within him from the time he had all been torn away from his home threaten it. As it was from the time of the fall his first Master... to the fail attempt of the rogue shadow Jedi that stole him away ....dying at his hands in the process...had become the very dagger that tore and scar him so that the shadow Jedi etherial presence haunted him as much his own guilt at what he'd done. But then slowly but surely able break free of its dark spell over him that her voice came thru to him yet again.

"Ronin you need to come back to me, use my voice and allow your mind to sort itself out."

And with it the seem soothing calming energy encompassing them that somehow his mind relented. As such much like a trusting youth, he did just that....following his voice he slowly was able to come back out of it. As a faint tear came to his eyes as he faintly utter in seem soulful guilt.

" I didn't mean to....but i did....was my fault they're gone......."
 

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