♪ M É L A W E N ♪
//: Moving to Courtyard //:
//: Open //:
Conversation began to drone around Quinn. Her attention waned as the others interacted. She already didn't want to be here; her mood had dipped even after the announcement of her appointment. While others had their accomplishments and clear reasons for being chosen, Quinn found herself lacking in both. She knew she wasn't someone to dismiss, but she couldn't shake the question: was she here because of her lineage or because of the connections she'd made?//: Open //:
Her thoughts eroded what confidence she had left. Turning away from the small gathering, she watched the pairs dancing below. Grace and elegance paraded across the floor as people celebrated and reveled in the Empire's prosperity. Quinn felt she was the only one not sharing the sentiment. Too much weighed on her mind, especially the whispers she imagined — the ones attributing her position to nepotism.
The thought grated her.
As her amber eyes traced the dancers' movements, a chill gripped her spine. Her hands tightened around the balcony rail as she watched one of her beloved paramours dancing with her mother. (
Their body language told her enough, but it was the expression on Mercy's face that broke something fragile inside her. Doubt surged, cruel and familiar.
Was Mercy's interest in her nothing more than a means to get closer to someone with real power? Her chest ached as another crack formed in her already splintered heart. Why wasn't
Turning back to the small group, Quinn forced a polite smile and lifted a hand. "Excuse me, I'm going to get some air."
She bowed her head respectfully and slipped away.
Logically, she knew her doubts were tangled in hurt feelings. But seeing it unfold before her — alongside her own insecurities — made the emotions immediate and painful. She moved through the crowd, ignoring greetings, ignoring the hands reaching to stop her. She needed to be outside. She needed air. She needed something to cut through the spiral forming in her mind.
She finally reached the courtyard. The cold air struck her face, the temperature shift scattering her thoughts. Usually, she would warm herself with the Force, but instead, she let her body shiver and feel the threat of the Jutrand winter.
It was cold…
But Quinn could breathe again.
Finally.