AMCO
I'm Sorry Dave
Sever one's connection to the force. Now that was quite the request. It was temporary, of course. A mere illusion of true severance. And yet... and yet he wasn't sure he knew how. He wasn't sure if he even wanted to. The force was such a fundamental part of who he was, who he had been, and who he was going to be. In truth, he didn't know how long he had been using the force. He knew how long he had been actively using it, of course. But passively? He had no idea. Even now, as a Sith, he didn't fully know when he was using the Force subconsciously. He had gotten so used to it, so used to having it at his disposal, that being without it seemed just as bad, and probably worse, than being blind. Or deaf. Or both.
But there was some promise to Tevro's idea. There were things out there that could take away his beloved Force, at least temporarily. Knowing his own limits without it could prove highly useful, should that worst-case scenario become reality. Yes, he ought to do his best to learn his own limits. He would try, though he still wasn't sure how he would accomplish this. He followed the Zabrak's instructions and leaned forward, then attempted to let go. The conscious effects were easy. His senses were curtailed. His aura stifled. And yet... And yet he still felt the connection. He was confident he was still using the force, in some small capacity. For some subconscious reason. He wondered if Tevro knew how to do such a thing. How to isolate himself completely, curtail his abilities fully.
"Hmm. I don't think I know how to stop using the Force. I've gotten so used to it, to use it without even thinking about it, that I have all but forgotten how it is to be without it. To do so feels almost like willing oneself to stop thinking. For every thought one forces down, three more takes it place. I know it is possible, and yet I don't know how. In truth, I believe I used the force without even knowing it for the longest time. Before I even discovered my own force sensitivity. At this point, I honestly don't know how to distinguish my force-based perception from my regular perception, or even if they are distinguishable at all."
An Ysalamirir would do the trick, of course, but those things were horrid. Absolutely horrid. He had not even encountered one, and yet he already wanted them all purged from existence. The mere thought of being rendered defenceless by one of those little monsters was one of his greatest fears. Not a chain, like they had talked about earlier, but a threat. A horrible, horrible, threat. No, that is not something he would willingly subject himself to, no matter how curious he was.
[member="Tevro"]
But there was some promise to Tevro's idea. There were things out there that could take away his beloved Force, at least temporarily. Knowing his own limits without it could prove highly useful, should that worst-case scenario become reality. Yes, he ought to do his best to learn his own limits. He would try, though he still wasn't sure how he would accomplish this. He followed the Zabrak's instructions and leaned forward, then attempted to let go. The conscious effects were easy. His senses were curtailed. His aura stifled. And yet... And yet he still felt the connection. He was confident he was still using the force, in some small capacity. For some subconscious reason. He wondered if Tevro knew how to do such a thing. How to isolate himself completely, curtail his abilities fully.
"Hmm. I don't think I know how to stop using the Force. I've gotten so used to it, to use it without even thinking about it, that I have all but forgotten how it is to be without it. To do so feels almost like willing oneself to stop thinking. For every thought one forces down, three more takes it place. I know it is possible, and yet I don't know how. In truth, I believe I used the force without even knowing it for the longest time. Before I even discovered my own force sensitivity. At this point, I honestly don't know how to distinguish my force-based perception from my regular perception, or even if they are distinguishable at all."
An Ysalamirir would do the trick, of course, but those things were horrid. Absolutely horrid. He had not even encountered one, and yet he already wanted them all purged from existence. The mere thought of being rendered defenceless by one of those little monsters was one of his greatest fears. Not a chain, like they had talked about earlier, but a threat. A horrible, horrible, threat. No, that is not something he would willingly subject himself to, no matter how curious he was.
[member="Tevro"]