DeadpoolMLP
Too many characters, I have
So, the short version is:
I'm moving. To another country. Out of my parents house for the first time. There's a lot to adjust to.
The long version is:
So, about 6 months ago, I dropped out of my local film program to apply for a different program in Vancouver due to my local program falling into a LOT of drama and hot water. Next friday, I'll be flying from Atlanta, to Denver, then finally to Vancouver. I'll be moving out of my parent's place for the first time in my life, and will be full time at my new school. That's a lot to adjust to already, but that's not the real reason I'm calling it quits for the time being.
The reality is, Chaos isn't the same place I came to back in 2023.
I couldn't really tell you when things shifted, but my home in the GA is a lot less secure nowadays. I spent the last 2 years writing there, building my characters up in that faction, and over the last 3 weeks, all of that seems to have gone out the window due to a massive shift in the faction's writing base.
I don't feel like people know my story anymore. That sucks, and it's completely killed my muse within the GA.
Was it a mistake to tie myself so heavily to a single faction? Yeah, probably. But the GA was everything I could have wanted for Jonyna and my other characters, and I was ride or die for the longest time for those writers. For that faction. For that story.
Now it feels like the people I was loyal to are all gone. Off doing their own little stories. And all things considered? Good for them. I hope they find success in that.
But I'm sort of at a crossroads right now. Jonyna has been my main for 2 years now, and I'm at a point where if I do have any more story to tell with her, it's either as the leader of her own faction, or as a vagabond.
So I tried to make a faction work. And someday, I'd love to try again.
But it's becomes clear to me over the last few weeks that there's little interest in a new faction when Invasion Season is keeping everyone's attention.
And all things considered? I have no interest in invasion season. I have no interest in invasions period, at this point. I think they're a flawed system. But it's a flawed system that people other than me seem to enjoy, and it's a system that's been in place long before I came here. No point in me trying to throw a wrench in that. No point in me trying to fix a system that people don't think is broken.
So I'm taking my leave, for the most part.
I'm done with faction stories, I'm done with invasions, I'm done with the map game.
I still wanted to stick around as GA creative, and I still wanna do private stuff, and occasionally pop into a faction story when it strikes my muse, but it's clear to me that Jonyna's place as a member of the NJO council no longer holds the weight it used to, it's clear to me that her place as the head of the Wild Space Rebellion isn't inspiring people to make that project a success, and it's clear that my attempt to make a character that would be seen as memorable or lasting has fallen apart under the weight of a faction that has gone through several status quo shifts in the last few weeks.
Will I ever come back as I have?
I dunno, maybe.
But for now, I'm sticking to whatever I can manage with my new life. Maybe that means I disappear off the face of the planet for a year, maybe that means I keep up with a few private threads. I can't say that yet.
At the very least, I can say this.
Cheers to the Future, Chaos.
~ DeadpoolMLP
I'm moving. To another country. Out of my parents house for the first time. There's a lot to adjust to.
The long version is:
So, about 6 months ago, I dropped out of my local film program to apply for a different program in Vancouver due to my local program falling into a LOT of drama and hot water. Next friday, I'll be flying from Atlanta, to Denver, then finally to Vancouver. I'll be moving out of my parent's place for the first time in my life, and will be full time at my new school. That's a lot to adjust to already, but that's not the real reason I'm calling it quits for the time being.
The reality is, Chaos isn't the same place I came to back in 2023.
I couldn't really tell you when things shifted, but my home in the GA is a lot less secure nowadays. I spent the last 2 years writing there, building my characters up in that faction, and over the last 3 weeks, all of that seems to have gone out the window due to a massive shift in the faction's writing base.
I don't feel like people know my story anymore. That sucks, and it's completely killed my muse within the GA.
Was it a mistake to tie myself so heavily to a single faction? Yeah, probably. But the GA was everything I could have wanted for Jonyna and my other characters, and I was ride or die for the longest time for those writers. For that faction. For that story.
Now it feels like the people I was loyal to are all gone. Off doing their own little stories. And all things considered? Good for them. I hope they find success in that.
But I'm sort of at a crossroads right now. Jonyna has been my main for 2 years now, and I'm at a point where if I do have any more story to tell with her, it's either as the leader of her own faction, or as a vagabond.
So I tried to make a faction work. And someday, I'd love to try again.
But it's becomes clear to me over the last few weeks that there's little interest in a new faction when Invasion Season is keeping everyone's attention.
And all things considered? I have no interest in invasion season. I have no interest in invasions period, at this point. I think they're a flawed system. But it's a flawed system that people other than me seem to enjoy, and it's a system that's been in place long before I came here. No point in me trying to throw a wrench in that. No point in me trying to fix a system that people don't think is broken.
So I'm taking my leave, for the most part.
I'm done with faction stories, I'm done with invasions, I'm done with the map game.
I still wanted to stick around as GA creative, and I still wanna do private stuff, and occasionally pop into a faction story when it strikes my muse, but it's clear to me that Jonyna's place as a member of the NJO council no longer holds the weight it used to, it's clear to me that her place as the head of the Wild Space Rebellion isn't inspiring people to make that project a success, and it's clear that my attempt to make a character that would be seen as memorable or lasting has fallen apart under the weight of a faction that has gone through several status quo shifts in the last few weeks.
Will I ever come back as I have?
I dunno, maybe.
But for now, I'm sticking to whatever I can manage with my new life. Maybe that means I disappear off the face of the planet for a year, maybe that means I keep up with a few private threads. I can't say that yet.
At the very least, I can say this.
Cheers to the Future, Chaos.
~ DeadpoolMLP
