D’Aon Ghuth Amháin

[Jairdain]

She couldn't help but giggle a little when Alexandra called Daeda a pain in the rear. Wondering what it would be like to have a sentient animal as a friend and companion, Jairdain continued to pet him as she listened to what was said about the day they found each other.

"It sounds like his lived so that is a good thing. And it's very true there aren't often good days around any longer. A storm is coming that is going to rock this Galaxy. dark days are in store."

This was not the first time such a prophecy came to her. When they happened, she had no control over them. Accepting what she knew would happen to be fact, her visions and feelings of the future had yet to be wrong.

"This is not going to be the only time we meet, Alexandra."

Her movement drew her out of the vision state and back to reality. Hearing what was said and offered, she reached a hand out to touch the offered tail. The sense of touch was something heightened for Jairdain. Same for her hearing. Her hand passed through the fur of both tails and she gave a small playful tug at Alexandra's when she was done.

"Yours for sure. Daeda, your is too, but hers is much softer and longer."

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]

Alexandra had seen visions before and when Jair went into a very familiar state, Alexandra found herself interested. Not the last time they would see each other ehh? Well that would be one little vision and prophecy that Alexandra was ok with. After all the woman had seemed kind enough and with a stable head on her shoulder, so Alexandra had no issue seeing the woman again.

"I don't know about any of that..." She started with a voice that was somewhat heavy and tired from situations like that. "But, if you and I are going to see eachother again, I can trust that I will come out of it just fine and dandy. Whats the worst that could happen after all, a bullet to the brain? I think Ive had enough death and problems when it comes to my body for a few lifetimes." She grinned and laughed a bit, doubting things would get to that bad of a point again around this woman.

Then the petting of her tail came and Alexandra closed her eyes, relaxed and happy that the woman was enjoying the softness of the appendage. Honestly she could be very much so ok with this con- then the tug came and she looked at Jair with accusing eyes. It was small and playful, causing the woman to only stare for a moment before smiling and reaching out, not even pausing before she gave a quick tug on Jair's hair.

"Please don't tug on my tail... it feels weird..." She kind of looked away, not looking at Jair.

 

[Jairdain]

As quickly as it came, the vision passed and Jairdain wondered what it had meant. Besides the obvious of knowing they would meet again. Under what conditions though and what could it mean? Time would certainly clarify things.

Picking up on the fact Alexandra was enjoying her petting the tail, after she did the playful tug, got her own pulled lightly and the request for her not to do that again, she continued the petting. Both tails were very soft and she could imagine what it was like to have that fluff wrapped up like a blanket.

"I won't do that again on purpose, promise. However if it'll somehow save your life, I'm tugging with all my might."

That being said, there would be no further tugging on her tail and a bit of comfortable silence fell between them.

"What do you do here? I don't send any other people."

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]


"Sleep, eat, then sleep more... its not really much of an existence." She said with a heavy voice, her tone cutting into the range of sadness. She wished she could tell the woman something different but that was the turth and she had tried to make a habit of speaking the truth in recent years. Her hands started to shift in her lap and she sighed, thinking on the manner as her hand left Jairdain's hair. It was a sad existence and she was telling this woman about it, something she shouldn't be doing.

"As for tugging on my tail again, it doesn't actually hurt. Just I would prefer you not do that unless like you said, necessary. But I doubt there will be a time when you will need to do it so you really shouldn't even put it through your mind, especially considering how I live these days."

Her body leaned back and she looked at up the sky before grinning and bringing her hand to her lips. Daeda's head perked up but Alexandra was quicker, lifting the little guy into the air and holding him over the water as he actually made a barking noise, his version of shouting for her to stop even if they communicated by thought. "So... want to give the little guy a bath?" She smiled a bit now, mischievous in her intentions.

 

[Jairdain]

As Alexandra spoke, there would be clear aura of understanding emanate from Jairdain.

"I might be like half you age almost, Alexandra, but there was a time in my life when that was all I had."

More than once as she thought about it. Under the captivity of Krest, the time when her mind was shattered and she walked around almost an empty husk of a person. One that could barely think clearly on how to eat. Her recovery within the arms of the Jedi. It was a part of her life she rarely spoke of and some of it she had no clear memories of.

"Never know, but one can hope the need wouldn't be there. Just getting out of bed is dangerous though, but I think that was already said. As for how you live...well it's better than not."

Ending with nod​, she pulled her hand away when Daeda and Alex moved. She picked her friend up who let out some barks of surprise. Through the Force it was clear to Jairdain even if she couldn't fully understand the little wolf.

"I would love to."

Grinning at Alex, she waited to hear the in plop and sound of him hitting the water below him.

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]

Alexandra smiled and removed her robes so that she was in her trousers and tunic once more. Only then did she drop down into the water and hold Daeda up, even though the little guy could swim. She was smiling and rubbed the little guys head as she relaxed there in the river with her friend, looking up towards Jair and talking to the woman while she relaxed in the river.

"True, there is danger everywhere but rather than avoid it, try to meet it head on. Things like that are impossible to avoid, like trying to escape death's grip, you will always eventually meet danger just as you will meet death. If anyone is understanding of that, I can promise you it is I, someone who has seen such a place more than once, and come back from its grasps as many times." She looked down at her now soaked friend as he looked up at her from the water's surface with a glare.

"And it would seem I might have brought danger to my door from one so terrifying that he strikes fear into my very heart. Would you not agree Jairdain?" She grinned at the woman once more, her eyes a bit brighter as she waited for an answer from the woman.

 

[Jairdain]

Being blind, Jairdain was not one to pay attention to physical characteristics of people usually. The tail on Alexandra was an exception, that had needed to be asked about. So when Alexandra took her robe off before going into the river, Jairdain stripped totally. She folded her clothes on the log they had just been sitting on and took a brave leap into the water.

Luckily this was not the first time swimming for her, but it was not a great strength of hers. Shivering slightly at the sudden chill on her skin, her head poked up out of the surface so she could breathe.

Getting the water out of her ears to hear Alex speaking, she nodded.

"Who do you fear so much?"

In her own way, she had faced death a few times and even wanted to die at one point. Pieces and parts of her past came into her mind as the memories crossed it.

"I don't have much to fear any more I do not think."

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

"Just this little guy here, he can be quite threatening and terrifying Jair, certainly someone that you would not to meet in a dark alleyway." She held up the little guy and petted his head before setting him back on the shore and sighing, the river being a drop off made it so that someone actually had to pull themselves out of the water, rather than walk out. Which mean she could rest her arms and her chin on the shore, floating in the water as she watched Daeda shake himself free of water as best he could.

She listened to Jair's second set of words and thought to herself on the matter. Who did she fear, in truth who was it that sparked fear and worry in her mind and the answer was far easier and clearer than she needed. Her eyes drew away from her friend and looked down at the water to stare at it as she floated there in her shirt and trousers, both soaked by this point as she remained in the water.

"Who do I fear... Myself, Vulpesen, Darth Carnifax, Krest, Death, Family, and the idea of training the next generation to take over for when I die. I fear my children and I fear it happening again, knowing that I would likely lose them if it did and then lose those that would come along to give me another chance. I fear alot of things Jair, and to deny that fear would only make me a fool and someone who does not understand the way the universe and the force works against those blessed with its gift."

 

[Jairdain]

"A very terrifying indeed. I mean he can easily take a finger or a toe if you're not careful. Luckily I think he loves you very much and maybe likes me a little. He let me pet him and didn't bite, so that's a good sign."

Treading the water, the current was slight and didn't tug at her to float down stream very hard. In time though, it would, but Jairdain didn't think they would be in the water long enough for that to happen. She listened to the more serious answer provided though and giggled slightly at Daeda as he shook himself off. The feeling of being offended came off him, but he wasn't mad.

"Why do you fear yourself and your family? I know of Carnifax and Krest, of course and understand the fear of them. Krest though, I have no fear of."

When she had brought him​ back to life, she had ensured he would be under her control at times. Jairdain could bring him to his knees and she held that a close secret. Only they knew of it.

"The other person I don't know so can't speak of why there is a fear of Vulpesen."

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]

"I worry alot... and Vulpesen is my family. Or atleast he was... he probably doesn't consider me anything of the sort anymore. I was stupid and thought that I would hurt them if I remained there. If I had stayed there they could have gotten hurt and I would have been consumed by that queen in my head. It only took me a few months to deal with her, but at that point I knew I had sealed my fate. Vulpesen won't forgive me, I know her wont. I am nothing more than a piece of scum in his eyes most likely." She sighed out and suddenly dropped her arms from the short, going under the water quickly and coming back up, hoping that would be enough of an explanation for the tears that had appeared while she was talking, having already tried to not look at Jairdain as she was talking before.

"I just..." She started, her head barely above the water as she rested there and though on the matter. "I don't know what to do anymore."

Her hands moved and rubbed at her face, getting the hair out of her eyes and looking at Jair with a bit of weakness. She was lost and didn't know what to say or do, what to even think to be honest and things only seemed to get worse as days went by. Other than this moment, most days were her alone and with no one there to listen or help her find out what to do.

"I wish I could turn back time and fix everything... I wish there was something I could do." Her eyes closed as she rested in the water, almost wanting to let go and float down it forever.

 

[Jairdain]

"I don't have any family, Alexandra. They're all dead. One thing I learned while they were alive was not all family gets along, but they are still blood. So there is a chance of reconsiliation. Not having met him, but knowing something of you, it'll happen. You're stubborn like me. Don't give up."

It might sound funny coming from somebody that was about half her age, but words of advice can come from any age. Depending on how the other woman took them, Alex might yet be able to achieve what she wanted.

She may have attempted to hide her tears by washing them off by going under, Alex couldn't hide the emotions from Jairdain.

"There isn't anything to turn back time and fix things, but you can fix the present. A time will come when you will be with him again."

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]

"Give up, you obviously took the wrong idea there. That fool isn't getting away, even it takes the rest of my life to fix things." She looked at Jairdain, still trying to hide the tears as she stared up at the woman who spoke. She was likely twice this woman's age, and here she was getting a lecture about things like this. Alexandra at the end of the day was horribly naive about this sort of thing, never having had the chance to grow up and experience an actual familiar relation or how to read her own emotions correctly.

And then the comment about her being with him again and for a moment Alexandra stared at Jairdain, wanting to say something against that but at the same time wanting to stay quiet, hoping that such a thing could come to pass. She eventually just sighed as she pulled herself out of the water too and dropped onto her back her feet still hanging from the ledge and resting in the water as she laid there.

"Pretty sure I should be the one giving out advice Jair..."

 

[Jairdain]

Up to her neck in the water, Jairdain still attempted to get a nod out and ended up going under the water for a moment before coming up to wipe the water away from her face.

"Good."

With a sense of stubbornness, she had started to make it her goal to get these two back together. If in the end it didn't work out, it wasn't going to be because she did not try. When Alex said she thought she would be the one giving out advice, she just laughed slightly.

"Maybe, maybe not. Depends on what a person has been through to gain the knowledge to give such advice I suppose. The death of a lover, break up of another long term relationship, never mind any childhood crushes I might have had...I finally found the man for me. And I realized I don't have a way to dry off."

So she stayed in the water for a while longer and hoped she wasn't blushing too much.

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]

"A fair point there, I am a novice at this whole thing compared to someone like yourself. But that is how the world works out for people, you having a more normal life while I was stuck in a hole for almost the entirety of my childhood and growth into an adult. Then when I finally had left that hole, I was taken up by the Sith which did not help me understand how normal people are suppose to act... I swear being strange and creepy is hardwired into the Sith, almost like it is a prerequisite." She sighed.

Then there was something that made Alexandra smiled as she turned onto her stomach and looked back down into the water, staring at Jairdain's face with a wide grin. The woman could be just as mischievous as the next person and she laughed a bit when she noticed the trace marking of her blushing, making Alexandra laugh as she looked at Jairdain.

"Well this certainly is true, it would appear that you did not think this out now did you? It would seem you have to trust that my home is as secluded as I had said it was, and don your clothing once more if you are that worried. The air is cool and warm, so they should dry out soon enough after you do." Alexandra knew no one would be able to get close to see the woman, just as she had not been worried in leaving. The forest was more or less connected to Alexandra, and she knew when something was different.

 

[Jairdain]

As she treaded the water, Jairdain listened to what Alex said about herself.

"I'd say I see, but well that's not possible really. Understand what you mean though I can."

When she said being strange and creepy were a natural part of being sith, she wanted to disagree, but couldn't fully.

"I grew up on a world that is now destroyed. At least all the life there is. I never returned. My upbringing was odd. Not quite normal in ideals and my people were compared to a cult. Of course, I don't think that was the case though."

She found herself liking the other woman greatly. Harley was right to provide the name for her and Jairdain was pleased to have gone to the trouble of tracking her down. Trust was something hard to come by, but so far Alex had been dependable and she took her word for it when she said this temple and woods were secluded. Nobody else was around to see her climb out of the water.

So after only a few additional moments, she climbed out of the water and started the process of air drying before putting her clothing back on.

"You grew up in a hole, were taken in by the Sith and I grew up outside of this galaxy on a world nobody's heard of to be taken in by the Silver's and kidnapped by the Sith. What lives we have lead huh?"

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]

"Ya... what lives."

Alexandra smiled and turned on her back, looking up at the sky before closing her eyes. Soon a steady pattern a breathing greeted the woman and she was focused on thinking of the past again. Her head turned in the opposite direction as Jairdain and she just smiled to herself while water continued to drain from her face, clearing out of the pockets they had been trapped in.

"I need to thank you though Jairdain, you helped alot today. I needed this talk, these moments. It was long overdue and I am certain I would not have had it were you someone else." She nodded to herself, verifying the statement to herself. She was not certain as to alot of things lately, but that much she was.

Her thoughts crossed back to her current place in life now. Serving the Jedi, fighting for the light and having a relation with Hel that is finally under control and completely in her hands. She did not think this day would honestly come but with exception to a few things that still weighed heavy on her heart and mind, she was finally free. It was funny, because in a way, she did not achieve stuff by following a code of light, but the sith code still.

"Odd..." She said under her breath.

 

[Jairdain]

Before long, Jairdain had everything on and in its place. Sitting comfortable on the ground near Alex, she listened to what she said. What had started out as a meeting between strangers had turned into the starting of a friendship.

"You're welcome. Sometimes that need is there, but with no way to let it out...well a trigger comes along and it gets pulled. I'm glad it happened. What are you going to do now?"

The under breath comment was made and Jairdain heard it.

"What is odd?"

Many things she could t​hink of, but she wanted to know what Alex thought was strange.

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

"Hmm?" Her eyes looked up from the water, her hand reaching down and messing with the surface, creating breaks in the flow of the water.

"Oh... nothing is odd, just musing on something that had gone through my head. I think you would much prefer an answer to your question, not my own thoughts." She looked over and thought about it for a few moments, gathering her throughts.

"What am I going to do now you asked? Well, I think I will try out this Jedi thing, for as long as I can. The Jedi could be fun for some time and I could learn some more about the light with them, than I would anywhere else. How about you, any plans for the future?"

 

[Jairdain]

For a few seconds Alex seemed like in her musings. In reality it was something Jairdain understood perfectly. Times in her life spent secluded on a desert world had given her pleanty of time to think. As she thought about it, it seemed she and Alex shared some of the same traits and almost made her smile.

"My gods know I've done that many times. Go on though."

Jairdain was aware of se​veral branches of Jedi. Not one could fully agree on ideals, so they were separate, but still united in a fight against the Sith.

"There's a storm coming and I will be at the heart of it. Helping, defending...whatever is needed. For now though, I'm going to enjoy the nice weather and pleasant company."

[member="Alexandra Feanor"]

 

[Alexandra Feanor]

[member="Jairdain"]


"Whatever is needed, that is a phrase I haven't heard in a long time." She laughed for a moment, thinking on that little matter before shaking her head.

"Too much effort for me these days. I spent most of my life doing whatever was needed, and I certainly won't be doing that again. No I much prefer the more diplomatic approaches to things... almost." She muttered the last bit and stretched, closing her eyes and grinning a bit more as she took the last bit into her mind.

"As for the nice weather and pleasant company, It would appear your eyes are quite lame, I am the furthest thing from such. Ask the forest animals, darn things run at the sight of me and cower in their beds, as if I were some kind of bedtime monster." She held a clearly comedic tone in her voice, letting Jairdain know she was joking since the woman would likely be unable to know for certain without the exaggerated tone.