Ah Feth Were the thoughts of Twitch as Xan pried ever more invasively, she could feel the figurative sword hanging above her head threatening to fall down. She spoke too much, to many odd comments and now she seemed to nether-bent on finding out.
This could only go one way.
She followed Xan to the mess room taking seat on a stool by the table. Resting her arms down she use them to prop her head up as her upper torso just sank down to the table's face. Forbidden, illusive knowledge and dark pasts rested in the young woman's head. Thoughts turned to the possibility of lying ran in her head but frantically trying to stitch together a believable pitch grew ever fainter in her head as mounting pressure seemed to build within her. Besides she was already too awkward to ask for a drink let alone tell sweet little lies. There was only one certainty:
Fear.
Pop went the sound of the cider bottle and in her periphery it slid towards her but at the moment her vision was but a blur. Yet came the questions, friendly was the tone yet horrifying was the prospect. Everything felt linked and there was no way to hide all of it. Possibilities ran wild or repercussions and worse of all the thought of
them appearing back in her life. Yet there just seemed to lessening options and as Xan took the mask off, there seemed to be an openness to the gesture even if it was just to have drink. Besides there was another fact. Everything she went through was too much to for one person to hold in.
Twitch reached for the cider, taking one long gulp. The sweet, acidic taste was barely noticed as her mind was more concerned with wolfing a considerable amount of liquid in one go. Finishing she placed the bottle down and prepared to face the
music.
"Nothing I say here goes beyond the two of us. Nothing." Twitch almost whispered her tone grim as she laid down the condition one she was deadly serious about. She pauses as she tries to gather her words together into something bearing coherence.
"I used to be a sith..."
The words hanged ominously in the air as Twitch felt like her soul was being slashed with a whip of pure shame.
"Grew up on Muunilinst, originally was just gonna be another legionnaire, thought that was all good and right for my life. Showed promise apparently. There was talk that my marksmanship was good enough to land me a spot as a sniper or purge trooper." A little bit of bittersweet happiness could be heard at the tail end of each word, thoughts turning to a much simpler what-could-have-beens where thinking wouldn't have been needed. Simplicity, order, direction. Though that was just fantasy and daydreams now.
"Then they found out I was 'gifted'." Twitch's eyes scanned around the mess room locking onto a hydrospanner that had been lying around. Raising one of her hands with an open palm she commanded the force to deliver the spanner as it now traveled through the air before gently caressing the open palm.
"They started grilling me to see what I could do, pushing me till I was tired and bloody. In all of that they discovered I had an affinity for Mechu-Deru. Twitch twirled the hydrospanner in her hands before balancing it on the tip of her index finger setting it perfectly at it's center of mass.
"See the Force is in every single thing. That's not just some nonsense Jedi say, it's the truth. Especially with how it works with technology. Someone like me can connect to that and understand devices intrinsically. Like this hydrospanner, never took it apart but I can tell you already it has 8 moving parts and is rated up to a torque spec of two hundred newton meters." She muttered before she switched up her grip deliberately holding the the hydrospanner to show to Xan that she didn't have a single finger on the controls.
"Mechu-Deru though isn't just good for making me be a walking blueprint generator. See the force gets weird with devices. They can have 'wills' in a sense. Every machine talks and communicates, it's not actual talking, this hydrospanner can't say a word, but I can get a feel for and tap into the subtle little cues and energies they give off. It's a unique form of communication, hard to explain because for me I just... know for lack of a better description. The short of it is this: I can get a feel for things. Know if something is about to fall apart, when it gives trouble, it's weird quirks, what makes something jam... everything."
Twitch then shut her eyes took in a deep breath and opened her eyes again her second sight taking over.
"When combined with force sight I can see the flow of electricity coursing through the ship, the little signals and communications everything gives off, the reverberations of vibrating parts, I can even see that rebreather implant you have. It's beautiful but overwhelming too." Twitch took a deep breath though as she realized she was stalling around the real problem.
"But what the Sith most care about and taught me? It's that I can use it to overwrite my will on top of a device and make it do things as I command." It was with that she focus her mind for a second and the hydrospanner whirred to life spinning it's socket counter clockwise before stopping to spin in the other direction before dying down again.
"You're probably already thinking of all the uses that has... It also has much darker implications. If you had enough skill and force of will you can modify technology directly, twist cybernetics into inhuman fixtures instead of limbs.. link tech and flesh in ways that would make it impossible to tell where one ended and the other began..."
"That's what my master wanted me to do. He was grooming me to to... to make 'creations' he called it. Monsters more like. I couldn't handle the screaming and the..." Twitch trailed off before staring down at the table. She reaches once again for the bottle of cider her hands shaking minutely. She takes another sip.
"I escaped. Ended up on Denon from a tip that I could remake my life here. Then you found me in that alleyway. There seemed to be an air of acceptance that came from Twitch as she looked up to meet Xan eye to eye.
"I just want to be able to sleep at night without worrying I'll be captured overnight by inquisitors or hunted." With that said all she could do was take another drink.
Xan Deesa