Novac always preferred night over day. less people, less sounds, less activity. best of all, no expectations to be doing something. have dishes in the sink? laundry to be done? other chorse need done? that daytime stuff, at night your not expected to do anything but get ready to sleep or be sleeping. lucky for novac thisspians only needed 3 to 4 hours of sleep. they did also need to take time to meditate and it was a different amount of time for everyone. for him it was only a hour so he just did it before bed. it helped him get to sleep faster as well, win win.
it was about 2 am now. he was at the jedi temple on chalacta now. novac was out on the balcony enjoying the quite, watching some of the nightlife. be it sentient or animal. just watching them go about their night, unsurprisingly there where a few drunks wandering the streets below. pretty sure there was some big party earlier that night. other then that and the few small animals it was quite. the city was beautiful even at night. there was a soft glow from the street lights and few lights in houses where people where still up. novac had never seen a city like it. he'd been to coruscant a couple times but it wasnt the same, to crowded, to much going on. the city here was big yes, but not to
"enjoying the view sir?" the sudden voice made novac jump and turn around in a instant.
"dude! how many times have i told you. you can't sneak up on my like that," novac said with a sigh. it was his hk-87 droid who managed to show up without a sound. novac swore that hk had teleportation and novac just didnt know, with how easily hk could just show up without making any sound whatsoever.
""but obviously i can sir.'" hk said plainly while staring at novac, arms behind his back.
"you know damn well that not what i meant, " novac said tiliting his head to the side slightly, "i know you'd be giving me some shit eating grin if you could." he said turning back around to lean on the railing.
"to answer your question though, yes i am. its nice isnt it. here come over here and look with me. tell me what you see." motioning hk over.
"hm. i see building. street lights. pests runnig around, a few in garbage bins. drunkards, some puking in alleys...i thought you said the view was nice sir. all i see thing you'd see in any city. whats the point?" hk said it coldly, colder then his usual speak. maybe novac shouldn't have given him such a good voice box. but he was looking around below, very unimpressed.
"'....why must you take the fun out of things? anyway know what i see? a city that took who knows how many years to build. wildlife, wildlife thats adapted to a city being built and other life inhabiting it. so can even thrive of it. the drunks tho...eh their more entertainment, they do weird dumb shit sometime. the puking is gross though. but it means they probably had fun, partying or whatever..you know its a weird feeling, to see someone and think "they have an entire life. family, friends. things they do everyday. living their life just like me, differently of course but still just going about their life," its not something you really think about much. well i know you do of course but you get my meaning" novac always did see a sort of beauty and wonder in the galaxy. so much going, so much life. life beginning and ending every second. people having the best day of their life, people having the worst day of their life. so much going on.
""well sir, thats definitely one way to look at it i guess. im not sure im the right one to talk to about this. you do remember im originally a assassin droid correct? not only can i not feel emotion. but even if i could i wouldnt feel the ones you feel." hk said turning back to novac. he ws a old assassin droid. novac found him in a junk yard years ago. he made sure to do some work on his "brain" to make sure all the killing program was much more subdued. he still needed him to be able to kill of course. his mqin job for most of his time being with novac was bodyguard. now hes mostly just a friend to novac. he will of course gladly participate in any combat.
"yea yea i know..but none of the other droids have as much personality as you. im not exactly close to anyone here, yet. besides its like 2 am their all asleep." nnovac did like the quite but at times it could be a tad lonely.
"what are you really think about sir?" tthe question surprised novac. he didnt expect hk to ask that. usually he never asked stuff like that, only surface level stuff.
"well honestly...thinking about chalacta, the temple, everyone here. do i really belong here? i mean yea im a jedi and yea everyone here has been nice to be but..i-i dont know how to explain it. i know all the other padawans are new here to of course but. ugh how do i explain it..i feel like a outsider here i guess? like not just because well look at me. im the biggest here and im only a padawan hehe.. speaking of which, ive been down in the city. havent been there much but i've already scared quite a few people. i probably should be use to it. there have been plenty of people that didn't want to be around me or who are afraid of me and i mean its not like i can blame them. at least the people here at the temple are ok with me..i think, i hope. i really need to try and talk to them more. thats what master cinia wanted anyway. "gotta go talk to people, make friends. stop talking to just droids and animals," dont know how many times i've heard her say that. but i mean how can i? i dont know how to interact with people, that like, the thing im worst at! but she expects me to come here and just befriend everyone and be super social. i just ugh. i dont know man. i see everyone here hanging out and talking like its nothing. why cant i be like that? why cant it be that easy for me? i could be like that but nooo i have to be so socially anxious i cant even casually go up and talk to people. i can only talk to droids because they wont think of me in bad ways, they wont hate me or want me to shut up. i talk to animals because they cant talk back and they dont care what i say, they cant really understand anyway. but people? they can hate me, think im weird, annoying, not want me around...so many others already think that of me, dont want me around... ... ... im so afraid of screwing up everything and people hating me for it." novac "crouched" down resting his head on his arms which were on the railing. "i mess up all the time already. back on butler's cove people always got annoyed with me because i screwed everything i do up. why would here be any different? maybe i should just stay in my room most of the time, or just away from everyone else. heard theres a big junkyard somewhere outside the city, could just be there all the time so i dont mess stuff up and make people mad. i just, i..i dont know what to do anymore hk, i really dont. i keep thinking of leaving so i dont bother everyone but then i'll just make master cinia mad so i cant really." novac always struggled with this kind of stuff, that and self worth. ever since he was young back on butlers cove so many people would dislike him or get annoyed by him because he make mistakes. master cinia was one of the few people other then his parents who didnt get annoyed with him.
the two of them stood there in silence for a minute or two, just listening to the sounds of the city below them. novac didnt want to say anything, he'd already embarrassed himself by saying all this to hk.
"well sir. i may not be good with these things but, i belive you should stay. at the very least wait and see what happens. what is it you jedi say "the force guided you here"? there are many many jedi temples or sanctuarys you could have gone to. but for some unknown reason you are here. maybe that force you all talk so much about lead you to this temple in particular. one where you will be accepted as you are. i believe you should at the very least stay around to see how everyone treats you. from what i've seen them seem nice enough, i haven't seen much but theres a 84.9% chance at minimum that they will treat you well." novac could only stare at the assassin droid next to him. this isnt his hk droid, it couldnt be. the hk he knew would never say this kind of stuff. perhaps hk got damaged or something novac jokingly thought
"huh, really didn't expect that from you, that-that means a lot hk, thank you. also not going to ask how you got that percentage but ok hehe. maybe your right, maybe i should stay here at least for a while longer. still am going to that junkyard of course, no way im not going to you know that."
novac lifted his head and stood back up a little. the others here are pretty nice to novac, more then most. he definitely wouldnt mind actually having some friends for once. he'd already have a few pleasant experiences with different members here, not many but he was still new. the old hk droid is right though, he should at the very least wakt a little will longer. that percentage, however he got it, did give novac some hope and boy did he need it right now.
taking one last look at the city novac turned and motioned for hk to follow "come on hk, lets head back to my room. i also had some ideas for 3d models i wanted to make, but i couldnt think about 'em much cuz all that other stuff i was talking about. now i can though, i think its partly because i verbalized it and also partly because of what you said. but now the new problem is i have model ideas i need to get out of my head." he'd been taking up 3d modelling lately, mostly just making creatures and monsters. he was pretty new to it but was already loving it and was spending a good amount of his free time doing it.
"iis that a better problem to have sir?" hk asked while following novac inside.
"absolutely"
it was about 2 am now. he was at the jedi temple on chalacta now. novac was out on the balcony enjoying the quite, watching some of the nightlife. be it sentient or animal. just watching them go about their night, unsurprisingly there where a few drunks wandering the streets below. pretty sure there was some big party earlier that night. other then that and the few small animals it was quite. the city was beautiful even at night. there was a soft glow from the street lights and few lights in houses where people where still up. novac had never seen a city like it. he'd been to coruscant a couple times but it wasnt the same, to crowded, to much going on. the city here was big yes, but not to
"enjoying the view sir?" the sudden voice made novac jump and turn around in a instant.
"dude! how many times have i told you. you can't sneak up on my like that," novac said with a sigh. it was his hk-87 droid who managed to show up without a sound. novac swore that hk had teleportation and novac just didnt know, with how easily hk could just show up without making any sound whatsoever.
""but obviously i can sir.'" hk said plainly while staring at novac, arms behind his back.
"you know damn well that not what i meant, " novac said tiliting his head to the side slightly, "i know you'd be giving me some shit eating grin if you could." he said turning back around to lean on the railing.
"to answer your question though, yes i am. its nice isnt it. here come over here and look with me. tell me what you see." motioning hk over.
"hm. i see building. street lights. pests runnig around, a few in garbage bins. drunkards, some puking in alleys...i thought you said the view was nice sir. all i see thing you'd see in any city. whats the point?" hk said it coldly, colder then his usual speak. maybe novac shouldn't have given him such a good voice box. but he was looking around below, very unimpressed.
"'....why must you take the fun out of things? anyway know what i see? a city that took who knows how many years to build. wildlife, wildlife thats adapted to a city being built and other life inhabiting it. so can even thrive of it. the drunks tho...eh their more entertainment, they do weird dumb shit sometime. the puking is gross though. but it means they probably had fun, partying or whatever..you know its a weird feeling, to see someone and think "they have an entire life. family, friends. things they do everyday. living their life just like me, differently of course but still just going about their life," its not something you really think about much. well i know you do of course but you get my meaning" novac always did see a sort of beauty and wonder in the galaxy. so much going, so much life. life beginning and ending every second. people having the best day of their life, people having the worst day of their life. so much going on.
""well sir, thats definitely one way to look at it i guess. im not sure im the right one to talk to about this. you do remember im originally a assassin droid correct? not only can i not feel emotion. but even if i could i wouldnt feel the ones you feel." hk said turning back to novac. he ws a old assassin droid. novac found him in a junk yard years ago. he made sure to do some work on his "brain" to make sure all the killing program was much more subdued. he still needed him to be able to kill of course. his mqin job for most of his time being with novac was bodyguard. now hes mostly just a friend to novac. he will of course gladly participate in any combat.
"yea yea i know..but none of the other droids have as much personality as you. im not exactly close to anyone here, yet. besides its like 2 am their all asleep." nnovac did like the quite but at times it could be a tad lonely.
"what are you really think about sir?" tthe question surprised novac. he didnt expect hk to ask that. usually he never asked stuff like that, only surface level stuff.
"well honestly...thinking about chalacta, the temple, everyone here. do i really belong here? i mean yea im a jedi and yea everyone here has been nice to be but..i-i dont know how to explain it. i know all the other padawans are new here to of course but. ugh how do i explain it..i feel like a outsider here i guess? like not just because well look at me. im the biggest here and im only a padawan hehe.. speaking of which, ive been down in the city. havent been there much but i've already scared quite a few people. i probably should be use to it. there have been plenty of people that didn't want to be around me or who are afraid of me and i mean its not like i can blame them. at least the people here at the temple are ok with me..i think, i hope. i really need to try and talk to them more. thats what master cinia wanted anyway. "gotta go talk to people, make friends. stop talking to just droids and animals," dont know how many times i've heard her say that. but i mean how can i? i dont know how to interact with people, that like, the thing im worst at! but she expects me to come here and just befriend everyone and be super social. i just ugh. i dont know man. i see everyone here hanging out and talking like its nothing. why cant i be like that? why cant it be that easy for me? i could be like that but nooo i have to be so socially anxious i cant even casually go up and talk to people. i can only talk to droids because they wont think of me in bad ways, they wont hate me or want me to shut up. i talk to animals because they cant talk back and they dont care what i say, they cant really understand anyway. but people? they can hate me, think im weird, annoying, not want me around...so many others already think that of me, dont want me around... ... ... im so afraid of screwing up everything and people hating me for it." novac "crouched" down resting his head on his arms which were on the railing. "i mess up all the time already. back on butler's cove people always got annoyed with me because i screwed everything i do up. why would here be any different? maybe i should just stay in my room most of the time, or just away from everyone else. heard theres a big junkyard somewhere outside the city, could just be there all the time so i dont mess stuff up and make people mad. i just, i..i dont know what to do anymore hk, i really dont. i keep thinking of leaving so i dont bother everyone but then i'll just make master cinia mad so i cant really." novac always struggled with this kind of stuff, that and self worth. ever since he was young back on butlers cove so many people would dislike him or get annoyed by him because he make mistakes. master cinia was one of the few people other then his parents who didnt get annoyed with him.
the two of them stood there in silence for a minute or two, just listening to the sounds of the city below them. novac didnt want to say anything, he'd already embarrassed himself by saying all this to hk.
"well sir. i may not be good with these things but, i belive you should stay. at the very least wait and see what happens. what is it you jedi say "the force guided you here"? there are many many jedi temples or sanctuarys you could have gone to. but for some unknown reason you are here. maybe that force you all talk so much about lead you to this temple in particular. one where you will be accepted as you are. i believe you should at the very least stay around to see how everyone treats you. from what i've seen them seem nice enough, i haven't seen much but theres a 84.9% chance at minimum that they will treat you well." novac could only stare at the assassin droid next to him. this isnt his hk droid, it couldnt be. the hk he knew would never say this kind of stuff. perhaps hk got damaged or something novac jokingly thought
"huh, really didn't expect that from you, that-that means a lot hk, thank you. also not going to ask how you got that percentage but ok hehe. maybe your right, maybe i should stay here at least for a while longer. still am going to that junkyard of course, no way im not going to you know that."
novac lifted his head and stood back up a little. the others here are pretty nice to novac, more then most. he definitely wouldnt mind actually having some friends for once. he'd already have a few pleasant experiences with different members here, not many but he was still new. the old hk droid is right though, he should at the very least wakt a little will longer. that percentage, however he got it, did give novac some hope and boy did he need it right now.
taking one last look at the city novac turned and motioned for hk to follow "come on hk, lets head back to my room. i also had some ideas for 3d models i wanted to make, but i couldnt think about 'em much cuz all that other stuff i was talking about. now i can though, i think its partly because i verbalized it and also partly because of what you said. but now the new problem is i have model ideas i need to get out of my head." he'd been taking up 3d modelling lately, mostly just making creatures and monsters. he was pretty new to it but was already loving it and was spending a good amount of his free time doing it.
"iis that a better problem to have sir?" hk asked while following novac inside.
"absolutely"
