Joshua couldn't help but laugh in response. "I know you're joking, but I could have seen it. In times of our era, anyway.... Our era has passed, you and I both know that" He spoke, his tone growing sad at that thought. "Ah, those days... When the Jedi knew how to be Jedi. But once they got a taste of that Selena Halcyon juice, they decided to be soldiers and killers instead of peacekeepers. Such fools..." He spoke, closing his eyes and letting out a sigh.
"Yes.... Funny, that those ones who had me impeached were Sith themselves. But it doesn't matter, I would have left eventually" He added, opening his eyes again, his eyes more fierce now at Ferus's last statement.
".... No. I should have been there" He spoke flatly. "Do you think I care about my own safety? My own personal troubles? I singlehandedly went at the Fringe diplomatically while our so called Supreme Chancellor did nothing but make snide remarks in the back to try and make things worse. I negotiated a peace in a war that our so called Grandmaster started, so that the Jedi would not have to continue to be what Selena wanted, which was soldiers and killers. I went to heavy personal risk and made myself a target to do so. I care about the Jedi, and had I not been so soft, I would have been there, and the Sith traitors in our ranks would have been dead. So if I had been there still, no, I wouldn't have minded. That's what loyalty is, and responsibility" He remarked.
He shook his head at the thought of it. "That was the problem... The Jedi, not just the Sith ones... Had become too aggressive, too war-loving... And I was too soft. I didn't have a merciless or ruthless bone in my body. I wanted peace. I wanted the galaxy, and the Jedi to prosper. And while my morals weren't wrong, it's what a Jedi should be... It was the fact I was soft that made me let them walk all over me. Imagine, now... If I'd put my foot down and made the common sense decree that only the council could impeach me? If not for Carn Dista immediately using the opportunity to put himself at the head, I'd have returned as soon as I was informed of the rule, but if I'd known... And if I wasn't as soft as I'd been, what would have been? What COULD have been? Those Sith in our midst... I have common sense enough to have found them, as arrogant as that might sound. It was around that time that we were finding Sith in the Senate, remember? It made sense to comb our own Order as well. But.... Part of it all was my fault for not dismissing the vote and putting the conspirators under an investigation like I should have. I let them walk all over me... And that's not a mistake I'll make again"
Joshua cracked his neck. "There is a balance that must be had... And while the damage has been done, I will no longer allow myself to be walked over like I did in that room that day. Wanting to please everybody.... That was my fatal flaw. And if a day comes where I can redeem myself, take back my position, and fix what's been broken... I'll do it. I don't care if it makes me a target, or puts me at risk. The Jedi saved my life, and I'll risk it to save theirs from this path of self destruction they have set themselves on"
He smiled faintly. "But I doubt you want to hear any of this... You're a Sith now, after all. Even if the subject pertains to that tragedy we both bore witness to.. This probably all sounds like a bunch of hunky dory to you. So let's talk about something that you might find more exciting" He remarked. "Did your Dark Lord send you flowers for all the people you've killed as a Sith yet?" He would joke, a cheeky grin suddenly crossing his lips. Oh that scoundrel, right back to the humor after all that.
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