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Cold water splashed onto facial flesh, sending a jolt of awareness through Zaavik's nerves. A silent inhale rushed into a tight chest, cringing inward from the chill. He splashed his face again, continuing until he stopped having any reaction to the temperature. Excess water dripping down his face expelled in a mist as he blew air. As his head raised, the blue eyes that stared back from beyond the mirror almost didn't register as his own. Dark circles, drooping eyelids, and a long, violet mane that was free from the tie he'd lost somewhere during the retreat, leaving strands draped in a veil over his face. Altogether he looked more like a specter from a ghost story than any living man.

Blood loss could do that to a person. It had gotten on just about everything, leaving red crusts and smears littered around the claustrophobic space of the ship's latrine. A mess that could have likely been avoided had he not insisted on locking himself in. Aradia had lugged him into the medbay, and administered just enough bacta to keep him away from the light in the tunnel. As soon as she'd gone to get the ship out of Imperial space, he slumped his way out of the medbay with first-aid and locked himself into the latrine. He wasn't about to let her doctor him for several reasons. He'd gotten past the trust barrier, and didn't have any notion that she'd put him down.

There were other reasons that kept him reserved from that kind of assistance. Stubbornness and self-destructive independence only being single bricks in the wall of refusal. The remainder would remain an enigma due to a refusal to explain himself. Consciousness faded in and out as he did his best to bandage himself. Aradia had come banging on the door not soon after they'd shot into hyperspace. "I'm fine!" he'd insist every time. She was persistent. She must have returned a dozen times, Zaavik refusing to budge each time. Was she worried? No, of course not. Why would she be?

Yet, continuance betrayed his notion that she wasn't.

Eventually, she came with a blade instead of a fist. Maybe she was angry after all. About all the blood? About the botched operation? Either way, Zaavik fired a warning shot with a backup blaster he'd taken along with the first aid. Stubborn as ever. Her lightsaber made and odd noise, blade disappearing from its impalement through the door. For a moment he worried, although he'd never own up to it, that he might have hit her instead of what he was aiming for. A few graveled curses and the sounds of movement beyond the door reassured him to the contrary. If he had hit her, no doubt she would have completed her cut into the latrine, and likely for a different reason altogether.

Reflection ended with a sharp jolt of pain in his chest. Since then he'd been in here for what must have been hours. Perhaps nearly a day had passed? He hadn't been keeping track between lapses in consciousness. He dug through the disheveled first-aid box and got ahold of the only bacta-hypo inside. He didn't hesitate. The needle plunged into his flesh, and the drug was injected intramuscularly beside the wound. He hissed, gritting his teeth and groaning closed-mouth as it expanded. He discarded it into the sink, plastic and metal clattering after he'd pulled the needle out.

A few moments of heavy breathing hunched over the sink preceded everything else. The faucet knob squeaked loudly as he shut the water off once his bearings had been more or less regained. As the bacta worked, the pain subsided, but not quite to a totally bearable level. He threw on a relatively fresh black longsleeve that he'd some way or another managed to keep clean in the mess the latrine had become. A hand slapped the latrine door panel, sending it sliding open with a laborious clicking. Persistent knocking, a lightsaber, and blaster bolt likely didn't do it any favors. He leaned against the wall for support and used his hand to pull his hair from beneath the collar of the shirt. The usually restrained locks now draping freely past his shoulders.

In his periphery, he caught a glance of a viewport. Space was still, stars glittering in the beyond. "Aradia!?" his shout had intent, but was aimless, stifled beneath his intended volume by pain. Staggering out of the crew quarters and through the ship, he remained against the wall. "Why aren't we in hyperspace!?" he inquired into the still, quiet cooridors of the ship.

"Where are we?"


 
The hall out was littered with trash-- a charred saber holt, blaster, bloody toilet paper, a nearly full water bottle. Her own blood dried in less concerning increments on the floor. She had spent time beyond the medbay door. A lot of time.

Perhaps he was just dead.

It was hard to tell. Hard to think. The idiot had locked her out and she still couldn't utter a word. They had smashed her throat and face in. She laid half on the common room couch, unresponsive to his calls. Even a day of bacta had done little to remedy the superficial. A broken cheek bone, askew nose, and two eyes so swollen it was hard to tell if she could even open them. Her throat looked like blood-filled sausage. While the swelling had been decreased drastically by the miracle healing of bacta, she remained unrecognizable.

They had nearly died.

She stirred, her legs pulling onto the couch cushions. Blood shot eyes pried open. It was hard to read emotion on a features that no longer resembled a face.

She made a wheezing, strained noise and chucked the remote at him.

That would be anger, then.
 
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The remote stopped, snatched between metallic fingers. Still breathing heavily, Zaavik slowly placed the remote down onto a wall-protruding surface. Perhaps he deserved that. When he saw her state, he had to hide an expression of pity behind a wince. He thought he knew her well enough to understand she wouldn't appreciate pity. It'd only make her angrier.

Limping forward, he held out a hand pacifistically with palm flashed forward. With a few grunts and wheezes, he struggled his way into a lounge seat that faced the couch from across a coffee table. He panted for a moment, cringing until the pain subsided enough to leave his mind functional.

Silence.

"I'm sorry," he finally offered, frowning. For the botch? For locking himself away? For her condition? Maybe it was all of those things. Zaavik himself wasn't even certain, but remorse didn't heed answers.
 
Aradia watched every step, unmoving as he lowered himself across from her.

"I'm sorry,"

Her breath slipped through her nose, slow and intentional. The anger seemed to disperse then, her attention turning with annoyance to the supplies scattered across the table. She reached for another dose of bacta, noting with dim pleasure that her vision no longer doubled and the world no longer spun.

She would live then.

The concern for internal bleed outs fell to the wayside for them both, her body visibly slumping as the needle delivered pain relief into her system. She yanked it from her thigh and tossed it back across the table. The urge to say something was crushed by the state of her throat. Her eyes watered in pain at the mere memory of the trauma that had rendered her voiceless.


That could have gone much worse.

She reached for the holo pad and typed out one thing.

Stupid.

She handed it his way.
 
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Metal fingers scratched against the back of his neck, the other holding the holopad. A laborious lean forward and he'd slide it toward the table back to her. He might have rebuked about he saved her life, but for once was able to filter himself. She knew. She returned the favor. It was pointless to try to play the 'who's right' game when they had more or less both dug themselves into this hole. The nuance of who buried them was probably better left unexplored.

Then again, was it really either of their faults? How could they have expected some COMPNOR freak to come knocking? If anything, it was a foresight issue, something they both likely stood to learn from.

Asking how she felt would have probably been a stupid question. He almost did it anyway. Instead, he pointed to his own nose. "You gotta set that or it'll heal that way," he advised cautiously. Did she not know that? Or did she just not know how?
 
Aradia's hand flickered to her nose. She grimaced, realizing what he had meant at once. In all the chaos, she hadn't noticed. She noticed it now, her stomach secretly churning inside her core. How do you develop a thick skin? Exposure, she guessed

She bit back the wild panic and dread, grabbing the cartilage and giving it a solid yank before she could think twice. It cracked as it repositioned over bone, sitting more or less straight back over her face. She was silent for a solid moment, before the ice-cold shock melted off. She clutched at the couch, arching for a moment as animalistic noises caught over her healing cords.

It all passed as quickly as it occurred, the girl looking a little paler for all the colors she had on her face. Tear-filled vision met Zaavik's, unwavering and stubborn. It contained all the words she didn't bother typing.

She was scared off. She wasn't done. She was going to get them back for this.

Was he?
 
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He winced. Despite all he'd seen, that sound always evoked aversion. Even despite the potentially deadly hole in his chest, when he heard her reaction to pain, he didn't envy her condition over his.

Where her gaze was teary, stubborn, and determined- His were dry, soft, and crestfallen.

"Yeah, I know you will," he replied, reading her like a book.

Would he? Zaavik shook his head, not to convey a negative, but rather inflecting his disappointment. It quickly morphed into anger, his fist clenching tightly before it slammed down onto the arm of the chair. Pain flared through his chest, down his spine, and churned his stomach. He didn't care. A curse came off his lips. Gibberish to Aradia, but for him, it was the nastiest word his own language had ever constructed.

"I should have done more, I shouldn't have-" restrained myself. He stopped his outburst before he admitted aloud regret for trying to keep a leash on dark inclinations that might have bolstered him. He wanted more, needed more, even if he knew it was wrong.

Why was he confiding in Aradia all of the sudden? A hand came over his face, hiding it and supporting it as he leaned on the armrest. "Sorry," he echoed.
 
It was frustrating to be rendered mute. For the first time in their partnership, she had things to say. She reached out for the holopad, settling for a few quick words to summarize it all.

I understand.

She held it up for him to see. A moment of silence past, the girl left to watch the boy seeth in frustrations she knew all too well. She guessed he never had to feel this way before. Up until this point, he had positioned himself on the winning side. What side did that make them on now?

The right one, she supposed.

She turned the pad around and started typing again.

We'll recover. We'll regroup. We'll do it again. Better. Every beat down makes us stronger.

A very sith thing to say. The mindset empowered her. She typed it for them both.
 
Zaavik read the holopad messages with a ghostly deadpan. What doesn't kill you, as the saying goes.

Although she would recover, he might not have been out of the woods just yet. Certainly didn't feel like he'd ever bounce back. Then again, every healer in the Jedi Temple thought he was done for after Foerost, yet he managed to come back from that. But he didn't do it alone. Ryv and Auteme had been his lifelines. He'd still be in a coma was it not for them. Never would have bounced back to his old self, either.

Who was going to be his lifeline this time? Would she? She lugged him back to the ship, gave him the first bacta-shot that he wouldn't have been able to do himself. So, maybe she already was. Why probably wasn't worth dwelling on right now. She wasn't in a place to easily defend herself if she thought the notion accusatory, anyway.

He looked over the medical supplies she'd strewn out across the table. If that was the case, he'd have to be hers too. For a moment, he sat quietly, struggling with some internal protest about trying to help in any capacity. It was always the hardest with these situations. Helping a stranger was nothing, but if he had even the smallest shred of stake in the person, a fear came with it. Old habits, maybe?

He didn't respond directly to either of her wordless sentiments, but a lack of any adverse reaction showed an agreement, or at the very least an acceptance.

"Bacta won't work either of us a miracle unless we soak in it." It went without saying that this ship wasn't fitted with a bacta tank. He stood, walked around the table, and cleared a space to sit directly across from her, intonating pain with his vocal folds the entire way. Once he'd sat, he started organizing everything beside him with labored movement.

Zaavik obviously wasn't a doctor in any measure, but the New Jedi were expected to have a functional level of field-medic training to qualify for demployment. It wasn't much, but it was definitely well beyond what the average person could do.

A look her way showed he didn't expect her to be pleased, but it implored her anyway. His genuine altruistic nature peeking through the hard shell and snark for once since they'd started all of this.

"Trust me," he implored. They'd saved each other's lives, right? That had to speak for something, but he wasn't going to force her.
 
Aradia grew tense, a wary edge to the look that followed him. What was he doing? It was obvious, but after a day of locking her out-- of killing her saber-- of leaving her solo--

"Trust me," he implored.


He was an impossible, nonsensical boy! Hypocritical, frustrating, yet...

he seems like an honest kid.


She gave him one look, one tired, stubborn gaze that said it all. Trust goes both ways. She held out for a moment more, the strain of her self imposed solitude wringing through her. She was dry. Baren. With nothing left to give. Not a single drop of strength could be wrung from her body, and yet she still stood.

Sustaining off will power alone.

She was so tired.

That ache in her core made itself known. She surrendered to it, slumping and gesturing for him to get on with it. The sith would have been stronger if they had worked together. Maybe this was a lesson she could overcome now.
 
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Zaavik dug through the supplies on the table, eventually pulling out a small blue vial with an aerosol cap. If it weren't for the lack of labeling, he would have been surprised she didn't use it. Stimufrost. "Chin up," he instructed. The white-blue mist sprayed from the top and coated her swollen, lump of a throat. On contact, it was ice cold, and it wouldn't cease to be that cold for quite a while. Better than any icepack could ever be.

Next, he brought up an inhaler and handed it over. "Xyathone. It's gonna taste like chit, but two inhales and you'll forget your throat could ever feel pain at all." That and the taste wouldn't go away for an hour. He didn't mention that part. Next, a cap-sized cup with a colorless liquid. "Drink this." Myocaine, a relaxant for pain and swelling.

He froze with gauze in his hand. A strange, pained look on his face with eyes reluctant. Even if there was cloth between- It was still laying a hand on-. Teeth gritted together. He nearly began to tremble. Come on, Zaavik, this is nothing you've done worse. From the outside, the struggle he was having inside was bound to look sudden and strange. A deep breath, throat cleared, a hard blink, and he forced himself to get over it.

Making a face of half-hidden anguish the entire way, he cleaned around swollen eyes. Any excess fluids and crusts wiped away by a damp medical cloth. At some point he'd needed to put his other hand on the side of her head for support too. Inside he had a fit about it, outside he was showing teeth with a grimace.

Maybe, if he was lucky, she'd just assume he was making focused faces. But probably not.

Around the time the stimufrost would have begun to lose temperature, he flicked out a small packet and began to shake it. It grew larger slowly, heated up like a hot compress. He pressed it lightly against her throat. "Hold this," came another instruction.

Fingers writhed and clenched with dread as he prepared himself to dip into the Anodyne. No cloth to save him this time. Fingers scooped a dollop of the compound, and with hand actually trembling this time, he rubbed it across the swollen portions of her face. That part was for the swelling more than anything, any mild pain relief would be a bonus.

An exhale of loud relief came when he didn't have to make any more contact. He shivered briefly and leaned backward, clutching his chest. His free hand held up a packet of melt-on-tongue strips. "This is Triptophagea. It's for fever, but if the pain keeps you awake it can put you out." After explaining, he tossed it to her.

If his efforts were worth anything, she might start to look human again sooner or later.
 
One by one she received the treatments, self administering what she could and watching with an unwavering gaze for what she couldn't. There was no space for questions, no room for comments. The space around them built with the unsaid-- her curiosity. His terror. She sat still through it all, giving him no quick movements.

And watching the stress for signs of a betrayal.

If he wasn't using her own supplies, she might expect poison.

"Am I r-reeally that-that repulsive?" She managed to croak, every sound causing pain to spike through the warm haze of medicine. She almost felt human for a moment. Functioning. It was good to know she could still make noise, even if it was nothing more than a whisper.

The tongue thing bounced off her. She ignored it, those blood shot eyes not leaving him.
 
Zaavik frowned. So that's what she got from the visual evidence of his phobia. "You're very beat up-" he expressed honestly. "-but no, that's- No."

He leaned down and picked up the Triptophagea and tossed it onto her lap instead. "You aren't," he asserted again. For some reason or another, he felt a need to be reassuring. A finger went over his lips as an indication of silence as he spoke, "Don't strain yourself. Just keep that pack on your throat."

Trying to keep away from the inquiry, lest he is expected to explain, he scooped up the supplies and threw them back into the receptacle she'd gotten them from. A hand clutched over his chest as he stood, intent to return to his seat.
 
Her bros furrowed, but the weight of her curiosity wasn't as heavy as the discomfort of asking, nor the wisdom in his advice. It fell to the wayside when he stood. The hand that clutched his chest brought it all flooding back to her. Visions of him being impaled flashed before her eyes.

The gurgling echoed in her ears.

She grabbed at his wrist, stopping him from brushing past. "Do you-.."Surely he didn't need her help, but she dropped her gaze to the blood stains and then the receptacle. Trust went both ways, but she knew there was little normal about their dynamic. She had never intended to let him bleed out after an attack like that. Not on her ship, not while they were ... a team.

She dared to hope, if just for a moment, that his current approach meant they could start to act like one. They both knew that had been yesterday's first mistake.
 
Nerves sounded a mental alarm when he felt the pressure around his wrist. A jolt of disgust originated from that point and quickly became a flinch. The hand in question retreated quickly, ripping from her grasp and into the 'safety of his other hand. Turning toward her, he winced at the pain in his chest and hunched slightly.

A brow raised, albeit laboriously through the pain. "Do I what?" he asked, despite the fact he'd just advised her not to speak. He indicated for the holopad, wordlessly reminding her as to the state of her condition. Not that she needed it, but she was stubborn.
 
A flicker of brow movement was all that betrayed her response. Was that shock? Or indifference? It was impossible to tell. Her throat bobbed under the laborious attempt at a swallow. She winced and looked away, the tension dissolving as she reached for the holopad instead. He was allowed his reclaimed distance, but she stared at the pad for a long moment before typing two words.

Need Help?

Help. He shot out her saber to avoid that from her. She wasn't even looking at him. If her eyes could roll, she would. She shoved it all away, the pad, the tongue strips, the table, buying herself space from the sudden smothering emotions that had gripped her.

Frustrated rejection.
 
A craned neck peeked over enough to read as she typed. When she began to shove things around, all he managed was to look on with a slight frown. A nebulous sense of empathy sprouted. Even with no overtly clear reason for her small outburst, he felt her anyway.

He came down through pain and stiff muscle. The holopad and medicine returned from the floor to the table. Coming up, he grunted against the phantom sensation of impalement and stumbled back with a controlled descent onto the couch. He planted on the far side, the next cushion over, and slowly leaned himself back with one arm gripping the armrest.

Zaavik resigned himself to where injury had landed him, letting his head fall onto the back of the couch while wincing. "I'm fine," he assured stubbornly after a moment to compose himself, finally responding to the message that she may not have intended to get across. Even after what he'd done for her, it seemed he wasn't keen on having the favor returned.

What could she even do? Their kit was probably far beyond his wound aside from the bacta and dressings. Even if she could think of something, the exposure and contact required were less than ideal. That fact had contributed to his locking himself away, along with self-destructive independence and an childhood ingrained aversion for showing weakness.

"Really," he assured even though she hadn't yet fought him on it. "I've had worse."
 
The Academies had done a poor job at breaking her down. Where many acolytes had learned the hard lesson of focusing on yourself, Aradia hadn't been able to let that go. It had been to her detriment more than once. Maybe Kaalia was to blame. Maybe if the woman had been harder with her. Crueler. Cared less about the person Aradia was to become and more about the cold hard skills that would help her survive in this world.

It was pertinent not to care. Putting anyone before yourself was a waste of energy and a toxic position. The Academies hadn't been able to teach her that, but that wars had.


Fine then. If that's what he wanted.

She stood up, leaving him the length of the couch to spread out on. The medicine had kicked in. She felt better-- capable and itching to get back to it. She took the rush of energy and she turned, leaving him to recoup as he saw fit.

Not dying had been the first step. Now she had to get them out and stocked on supplies. Safely.


She moved for the cockpit allowing MR. F I N E to recoup privately.
 
His eyes opened when he felt the seat shift. They followed her for a moment before realizing what she was doing. "Hey!" he shouted with half-vigor. The hand not clutched over his chest raised, reconsidered reaching for an arm, and instead closed into a fist as it aimed toward the cockpit door. With a metallic thud, the door closed at his extended will.

"Don't," he implored softly
. Pushing against the armrest with his forearm he crept upward to stand. Limping, he put himself in front of the door. Though not so much as to block entirely, still allowing plenty of space to go around. Even in physical expression, his disdain of forcefully compelling people to do anything showed. That didn't mean he wouldn't make his case, however.

"Look-" He stood close, looking down with an empathetic face. Eyes drifted, as he mulled over the words, tongue pressing around in a contorted mouth. "I know you're eager to bite back. I get it." He gestured to his head and neck with a wide sweep. "But you gotta take it easy, and not strain yourself. We're alive, we have time."
 
Aradia stopped short, feeling something akin to a flair of frustration and a flash of darkness. She looked to the boy that had stopped her path, her usual energy that much heavier today. It had taken every ounce of power she had to get them here-- alive and free. The cost of it was growing tangible.

Or perhaps it was just her time of the month.

She nearly force-knocked him upside the head. She glared at him instead, the small space between them rippling with her dark frustrations. A thousand comebacks boiled down to one, lame, struggling retort. "What... do... you... care?"

He wouldn't even deal with his wound in front of her.

She had thought he was dead. A dead jedi locked in her bathroom.
 

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