Yasha Cadera
Mom'alor
I've been calling on [member="Lucien Cordel"] a lot lately, it seems. Maybe it's my imagination but the man's become a dearly trusted friend. As far as you can trust a Sith Lord who has survived many a regime. But I do trust Lucien. I trust him to be who he is and since [member="Mikhail Shorn"] took my bed I've had quaking visions of a dark sweep of sky with dwindling stars. Feeling the deaths of slavers on Chalcedon cracked the last bit of my veneer.
I don't have Jared to protect me anymore. Although his protective net hasn't left me completely devoid I feel the days of fervour, where I would prepare to enter a battle with my troops, and wake up in our Annaj loft surrounded by an honour guard for 'my own protection' are over.
And it freaks me right out.
It's a sobering realization that my lover had watched over me so completely in ways in which I was vastly unaware. Brings the universe into a finer light, and in that fine light I realize what Sargon said was true: I'm afraid of winning, I'm afraid of my innate abilities and I'm afraid of the fight.
So it is I've asked Lucien to teach me how to duel. Bucket's leaning against a side wall humming a tune and my EMBU's Tyr and Tus are sparring each other with their electroswords. Looks like fun, when they do it.
"Bucket, when does Lord Cor-"
"Seven minutes, thirty seven seconds. Thirty four. Do some jumping jacks if you're nervous."
"I'm not nervous!"
"Bah humbug you're nervous."
"Okay, I'm nervous, shut up Bucket."
"Was that an order? It didn't feel like an order."
"Feel, huh?"
"Your voice undulates weird when you order me around."
"You rock, Bucket."
"I know it. Six minutes, fifty five seconds."
Why did I get here twenty minutes early?
I don't have Jared to protect me anymore. Although his protective net hasn't left me completely devoid I feel the days of fervour, where I would prepare to enter a battle with my troops, and wake up in our Annaj loft surrounded by an honour guard for 'my own protection' are over.
And it freaks me right out.
It's a sobering realization that my lover had watched over me so completely in ways in which I was vastly unaware. Brings the universe into a finer light, and in that fine light I realize what Sargon said was true: I'm afraid of winning, I'm afraid of my innate abilities and I'm afraid of the fight.
So it is I've asked Lucien to teach me how to duel. Bucket's leaning against a side wall humming a tune and my EMBU's Tyr and Tus are sparring each other with their electroswords. Looks like fun, when they do it.
"Bucket, when does Lord Cor-"
"Seven minutes, thirty seven seconds. Thirty four. Do some jumping jacks if you're nervous."
"I'm not nervous!"
"Bah humbug you're nervous."
"Okay, I'm nervous, shut up Bucket."
"Was that an order? It didn't feel like an order."
"Feel, huh?"
"Your voice undulates weird when you order me around."
"You rock, Bucket."
"I know it. Six minutes, fifty five seconds."
Why did I get here twenty minutes early?