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Private The Wolf and the Lion


Location: I am the idiot
Tags: Sibylla Abrantes Sibylla Abrantes | Cassian Abrantes Cassian Abrantes

Aurelian's breath hitched the moment her fingers wrapped around his wrist. The contact sent a jolt through him sharper than pain, grounding and arresting. His body tensed instinctively, ready to tear away, ready to guard what pride he had left. But she didn't release him. When Sibylla's hand seized the blade and wrenched it from his grasp, he didn't resist. The vibroknife hit the ground with a metallic crack that echoed through the rain like the closing of a door.

Then her hands found his face. It was enough to undo him.

Aurelian went still beneath her touch, trembling as her palms cupped his jaw. The pressure of her thumbs against his bruised skin, the warmth cutting through the cold rain, stripped him bare. He didn't flinch when she called him an idiot, didn't even smirk. His eye flicked down to hers, fractured amber against the storm. For the first time all night, he looked young, like a boy who'd been fighting ghosts since birth, not the dangerous Chancellor or the Veruna heir.

Her words burned through him, each one cutting too close: "You are more than your temper… more than your hate." He wanted to believe her, but the truth sat like iron in his chest. Thunder rolled above them, and the mask slipped further, just enough for the raw vulnerability underneath to break through.

"You saw me," he said quietly, words catching in his throat. "You saw what I am." His voice cracked, a low, bitter rasp. "The way you looked at me, like I was some monster that crawled out of the dirt."

He leaned into her touch without realizing it, the movement instinctive, desperate. Rain slicked through their joined hands, cold and hot all at once. "You were right to," he muttered. "Because I would've done it. I wanted to." His jaw clenched hard enough to draw fresh blood from his split lip.

"I don't know how to stop, Sibylla. Every time he speaks, every time he looks at me like I'm beneath him, I feel it. That rage. And to see you hurt and he couldn't care less..." He pulled back just enough for her to see the fear in his eyes, not defiance. "You tell me I can be better, but what if I can't? What if this is all I am?"

Aurelian's voice softened, hollow but trembling with something close to surrender. "Because I swear to Shiraya, if you're wrong about me… if you look at me like that again…" He trailed off, shaking his head, water dripping from his hair like tears. "I don't think I'll survive it."

The rain kept falling, relentless, washing away the blood between them but not the truth that clung beneath it.

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The medics worked in a blur around him—gloved hands, bacta sprays, compresses, and cauterizers moving with clinical precision. The tent buzzed with the hum of equipment, the faint hiss of the respirator keeping his breathing steady. Cassian sat propped against the angled cot, his uniform cut away to expose the mottled bruises that bloomed dark along his ribs. A bacta line ran from his arm to a small injector, the fluid glowing faintly blue under the sterile light.

Every breath was a fight. The pain carved through his chest with each inhalation, sharp and raw, but he refused the sedative twice. When one medic reached for it again, Cassian lifted a blood-stained hand and shook his head. "No," he rasped, voice low but certain. "Keep me awake. I was awake for the last one, I need to be now."

He needed to be present. Needed to feel every pulse of pain, every sting of disinfectant, every reminder that he was still alive. Pain meant movement. Pain meant purpose.

The lead medic a grizzled man from his own regiment paused, meeting Cassian's gaze for a moment before nodding. "Then at least let us tend to this wound, General. Please stay still." he muttered, the medic tending to the gash along his ribs with a slow, careful press. Cassian's jaw tightened, but his eyes never left the tent flap.

Outside, the noise of the camp rolled faintly through the canvas walls. Barked orders, the clatter of equipment, the murmur of soldiers who didn't yet know what to make of what had happened. He could almost picture their faces the disbelief, the whispers, the looks that would follow him when he emerged again.

And yet the image of the arena lingered....blood on the dust, soldiers frozen in shock, two men who should have been fighting side by side, were still at each others throats. He had seen it before. On beaches. In trenches. On a worlds where politics and pride had bled into the same soil.

One of the medics paused to check his pulse. "You're lucky to be alive, sir." he muttered, trying for levity. "Another inch and...."

Cassian's head lifted slowly, his expression still and unreadable. His jaw tightened against the pain, his eyes, those steady, green eyes, burned with a focus that made the young man fall silent.

"Luck." Cassian said softly, "Has never had much to do with it."

He refused to flinch.

The medics spoke softly among themselves, worried about blood loss, about concussion, about the lung they feared had partially collapsed. But Cassian's mind was elsewhere on the image of Aurelian sprawled on the ground, bloodied and unrepentant, still clinging to the illusion of control even as it slipped from his fingers.

"Sir, you should rest." one of the younger medics urged, moving to adjust the light. Cassian's hand caught her wrist before she could. It wasn't harsh, but it was steady. "No." he said again, his eyes hard, focused, unyielding. "There's no rest. Not yet."

He looked past her to the datapad sitting on the supply table, the glowing readout of tactical reports from the Kenari site. "Get me the situation update. We are going back into this mines." he ordered.

The medic hesitated, exchanging a look with her superior. "General, with all due respect, you need to—"

Cassian's voice cut through the hum of the machines like steel drawn from a scabbard. "Now."

The word landed with enough weight to silence them all. A beat passed before the datapad was brought to him. He took it with a grimace, blood still drying along the edges of his fingers, and began to scroll through the report. Every line of text blurred slightly before refocusing, but he read it all, one slow breath at a time.

His reflection shimmered faintly against the datapad's surface, pale, streaked with blood and sweat, his eyes hollow yet alight with something fierce. Determination. Willpower. Defiance.

Outside, thunder rolled faintly across the horizon. A storm was forming again over Kenari, the same as it had the night the mines had burned. Cassian glanced toward the flap of the tent, his jaw tightening, the muscle in his cheek ticking once.

"You'll have to hold still, sir." the medic said quietly, fitting the bacta patch across his side. "If you move too much, it'll tear the tissue again."

He turned his head slightly, wincing, watching the tent's thin walls ripple in the wind. Beyond them, he could still hear the soldiers moving, the low hum of engines, the faint, far-off voice of Sibylla shouting until he couldn't hear her anymore.

He closed his eyes briefly, exhaling through the pain, letting it steady him.

When he opened them again, his gaze was clear, sharp, focused, burning with a resolve that even blood loss couldn't dull. "Prepare transport." he said quietly. "As soon as I can stand, we're moving again."

The lead medic looked up, disbelief flickering across his face. "Sir, you can barely breathe."

Cassian leaned forward, forcing air into his battered lungs. "Then I'll breathe harder." His voice was quiet, but it carried the weight of command.

For a moment, the tent seemed to still. Even the machines seemed to hesitate, as if the world itself was listening. Cassian sat back, the corner of his mouth twitching upward into that same defiant half-smile, the one that refused surrender even as blood soaked through the bandages at his side. His eyes, dark and resolute, fixed on the storm outside.

He had nearly died on the beach once, and again tonight, but he was still here. Still breathing, fighting to live.

Because he had never learned how to stop.

 


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Location: Frustrated clarity
Cassian Abrantes Cassian Abrantes Aurelian Veruna Aurelian Veruna

The rain fell harder, drumming against the stone, against their skin, until it was all she could hear. The storm blurred the edges of everything, light, sound, breath, yet the weight of his words still cut through.

All the while Sibylla stood there, trembling from cold and fury and grief, her soaked clothing clinging to her like a second skin. Thumbs brushed over the swollen bruises on his face, and for a moment she was so frustrated with herself, with Aurelian, with Cassian, for all of this mess.

Yet, even hearing how his voice cracked and how raw and vulnerable he sounded made every confession hit like a blow.

You saw me. You saw what I am.

She felt her heart twist because he said it like a curse, not a truth.

"You think I don't know what it's like to hate yourself?" she shot back fiercely, "You think I haven't looked in the mirror and seen something I barely recognized?"

Her grip shifted into a firmer one, not as gentle, anchoring him to the here and now with her instead of the internal hells scape he was throwing himself in.

"You're not a monster, Aurelian," she said. "You're a man who's convinced himself that's all he can be."

The rain poured down between them, cool and unrelenting. Her hair clung to her face, and she blinked against the sting of water and tears she refused to shed.

"You think I looked at you like you crawled out of the dirt?" she said, rain running down her face. "No. I looked at you like a man I trusted to hold himself back when it mattered most -- and saw him choose fury instead. There's a difference."

Lightning flashed, silver and violent, but her voice softened only slightly as she went on.

"I'm not going to lie to you or make excuses for what you did. You nearly killed my brother. You wanted to....and you'll have to live with that. So will I."

Her chest rose and fell with every breath, drops of water trailing down over her cheeks and nose and spiking the dark fringe of her lashes. And when he said didn't know how to stop, she believed him and that frightened her more than anything.

"Then learn," she said simply. "Or find a way. Because I will not stand by and watch you destroy yourself just to prove you were right about your worst fears."

Shiraya's sake, how she wanted to shake sense into him!

"You're not beyond redemption, Aurelian. Not yet. But you're getting closer with every breath you spend trying to convince me otherwise."

The sight of him filled her with frustration, anger, and incredulity, but above all, she felt the ache of something far more dangerous.

It wasn't just care. It wasn't just duty.

Sibyla's heart twisted with the realization, sudden and terrible in its clarity. She was angry because she cared too much, furious because she had wanted him to be better, not for Naboo, not for their fragile alliance, but for him. Because somewhere between the speeches, the battles, and the quiet, impossible moments between them, she had begun to fall in love with him.

And it terrified her.

Her expression softened despite herself. She stepped closer, the rain tracing down her cheeks like tears she refused to let fall, and leaned in just enough for her voice to reach him through the storm.

"But if you truly believe this," she said quietly in a trembling voice, looking up at his eye with her own, "believe that this darkness is all you are, then you've already surrendered to it. And that's not the man I stood beside. That's not the man I fought for..."

It was then that Sibylla felt her breath hitch, and for the first time, the words came unbidden in an honest and unguarded confession.

"...and certainly not the man I'm falling in love with."

The admission hung between them, nearly lost to the storm, but its echo was louder than her heartbeat.

Sibylla exhaled, a soft sigh that carried both exhaustion and surrender.

The adrenaline that had fueled her began to ebb, leaving behind only the raw, aching truth. She didn't know what came next, or what he would do, but she knew this: whatever this was between them, it was already far too deep to undo.


 

Location: Pure Clarity
Tags: Sibylla Abrantes Sibylla Abrantes | Cassian Abrantes Cassian Abrantes

For a long moment, Aurelian could only stand there and listen. The rain beat against him like penance, cold and relentless. Every word Sibylla spoke cut through the roar of the storm and the chaos in his chest. Her voice trembled, not from fear but from a fierce, bright conviction that reached him where nothing else could. He wanted to turn from the mirror she held up before him, but he couldn't.

Each truth she spoke struck him with surgical precision. The words sank deep, past the armor of arrogance and charm he had worn all his life. He saw himself through her eyes: not the monster he had become, but the man she believed he could still be. The realization hurt, but beneath the pain, something fragile stirred. Her voice was sharp as she demanded he learn, refusing to let him drown in his own damnation. His breath trembled; the rain mingled with the salt of tears he hadn't allowed himself to shed in years.

Then came the final blow: "...and certainly not the man I'm falling in love with."

For a heartbeat, Aurelian forgot how to breathe. His gaze snapped to hers, eyes wide, amber catching the flicker of lightning. Disbelief warred with the sudden, raw surge of emotion that nearly brought him to his knees. He searched her face, wet with rain, finding no falsehood there. Only terrifying, unguarded truth.

In that moment, he understood. He could be better. He didn't need to chase or uphold a useless legacy. He didn't need to be their opinion of him. He wanted to change, to be better, wholly and completely, for her.

He stepped forward before thought could intervene. His hand found the back of her neck, threading through her wet hair as he drew her against his chest. He pulled her close, shielding her as best he could from the storm. The warmth of her was unbearable and necessary all at once. He pressed his forehead to hers, his breath trembling.

"I'm so very sorry," he choked out against her ear. The words were rough, unpolished, stripped of his usual performance. His chest shook with the force of everything he couldn't yet say. He didn't know if she could forgive him, or if he could forgive himself, but he wanted desperately to try.

He held her until the tremor in his hands steadied. Then, still without a word, he wrapped his arm around her and led her through the rain. The camp's floodlights blurred through the downpour, casting a pale halo over the mud. Soldiers parted as they passed, silent and wide-eyed. Aurelian didn't speak until they reached the medical tent. The warmth inside hit like a thick wave, smelling of bacta and blood. He guided Sibylla inside, his hand steadying her back.

"Get her a blanket," he said quietly. "Please." His voice carried no command, only pure concern. When the medic hurried off, Aurelian crossed the floor to where Cassian sat propped against a cot, pale and rigid under the light. For a heartbeat, the old instinct flickered to life, the need to wield pride as armor. But it faded immediately.

He pulled up a chair beside the medics working and sat down. The movement drew startled looks. A medic started toward him, muttering about the cut along his temple and the bruises on his jaw, but Aurelian waved him off quietly. "See to him first," he instructed.

His gaze settled on Cassian, steadier than it had been in hours. For a long moment, neither man spoke. Aurelian traced the lines of exhaustion and defiance etched into the general's face, recognizing the same bone-deep weariness that lived in his own chest. He saw something in Cassian now, something deeper than opposition: a fierce, unyielding strength.

"The mines," Aurelian said finally, his voice low but certain. "I'll send my detachment. The job will be done." Cassian offered no reply, but their eyes met, and for once, there was no contempt. Only silence and understanding. Respect earned in blood.

Aurelian leaned back slightly, rain still dripping from his hair, his jaw set. The storm still raged outside the tent, but he felt an irreversible shift occur within him. For the first time in years, he wasn't thinking about control, or power, or legacy. Nothing about his next move. Just pure genuine concern for someone else.

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"How long is this going to take."

"Just relax general, this will get you fixed up quickly, however you will still need rest, your body needs time to heal. If you would allow us to numb."

"No, I need this, just continue."

The hiss of the respirator filled the air, steady and unnatural, keeping rhythm with the ragged pull of his own lungs. Every inhale scraped like fire. The medics' voices were a blur around him, two medics assisting Cassian. All he could feel was the sharp pressure of hands working beneath his ribs and the ache spreading through his chest.

A hand pressed down firmly on his shoulder as another medic adjusted the tube threaded between his ribs, siphoning the fluid from his punctured lung. The suction made a sickening sound, and Cassian clenched his jaw, his teeth tight together he refused to make a sound. Not here. Not in front of them.

"Steady, General." the medic said quietly. "You're doing fine."

The tent flap rustled, and cold air swept through, heavy with the scent of rain and iron. His head tilted instinctively toward the sound. Through the bright wash of light and movement, he saw Sibylla first hair disheveled, cloak drenched, and behind him Aurelian after her, hand at her back guiding her. He didn't say much, his gaze was on Aurelian, and then to his sister.

The air in the tent shifted, tightened. The medics went still for a moment, uncertain, before one of them stepped aside just enough to let him through. The Chancellor's uniform was half torn, his face a wreck of bruises and dried blood.

Cassian's eyes followed him, but he said nothing.

Aurelian didn't speak at first either. He stopped near the edge of the cot, rain dripping from his sleeves onto the floor. Cassian watched as his gaze lingered on him the bacta line, the stained bandages, the glint of tubing disappearing beneath his ribs. For a fleeting second, Cassian saw something real flicker across his face. Not pride. Not defiance. Something, human.

Cassian blinked, his expression unreadable. The word 'please' was a strange sound coming from him. He watched as Aurelian crossed the floor, ignoring the protests of the medical staff, and sat in the chair beside the cot.

The air between them was thick with everything unspoken, there could've been words, but instead there was only exhaustion. He met Aurelian's gaze through the haze of pain and, his breath getting steady, but still rough.

For a long moment, the world outside the tent ceased to exist, the storm, the soldiers, the blood-soaked dirt beyond the canvas. There was only the sound of rain, the faint hum of machines, and the steady rhythm of two men who had torn each other apart and somehow still found themselves breathing in the same space.

Cassian's breathing hitched again, a low wheeze escaping his throat as the medic removed the tube and then sealed the puncture wound with dermaseal. The pain was sharp enough to make him flinch, his vision flashing white for a heartbeat.

He forced his eyes open again, meeting Aurelian's steady gaze through the pain. He mentioned the mines and said he would send his detachment down.

Cassian let the silence stretch, his eyes studying the man opposite him, his rival, his equal, his mirror. Then, with effort, he gave a slow nod.

"Thank you." He spoke just above a whisper, not to mock, just genuine and true.

The medics moved around them, sealing wounds, setting drips, whispering orders, but Cassian barely heard them. He was still watching Aurelian. Still searching for meaning in the sudden, strange calm between them.

When the Chancellor leaned back slightly, The faint, unmistakable flicker of remorse in Aurelian's eyes. And somehow, despite everything, that was enough.

 


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The tent's warmth hit Sibylla like a wave, thick with the scent of bacta and metal and blood. The noise of it all, the clatter of trays, the low murmur of medics, the storm still raging beyond the canvas, faded into a dull hum as exhaustion crept through her. Every muscle ached and even breathing felt harder than the last.

She didn't resist when Aurelian guided her to get assistance; the gesture was quiet, careful, so unlike the man who had stood in the rain minutes ago, blood and chaos dripping from his body. He moved as if afraid to shatter what fragile peace lingered between them.

When the medic returned, pressing a soft towel into her hands, she muttered a quiet thanks and began to blot at her soaked skin. Her fingers trembled, though she told herself it was from the cold. Water streaked down from her hair and gathered beneath her chin, and the towel did little to chase the chill from her bones. Still, she said nothing. She couldn't. The words had all burned out of her somewhere between the thunder and the confession.

Her gaze lifted instinctively when she realized he wasn't beside her anymore. Aurelian had crossed the tent to where Cassian lay propped on a cot, halfconscious beneath the harsh white lights. For a fleeting moment, she felt the old flicker of worry surge in her chest. The sight of them within arm's reach, one her blood, the other her heart, stirring something in her in concern.

But as she watched, the tension didn't rise. Aurelian didn't speak right away. He simply pulled a chair beside the cot and sat, still dripping, his posture subdued, shoulders heavy but no longer defiant. The medics gave him wary glances, uncertain whether to send him away, but he only gestured quietly for them to continue tending Cassian.

It was in that silence that Sibylla saw it, the change.

No anger now. No simmering pride. Something softer had taken root, something that dulled the edge in his eyes. She couldn't name it, but it made the sharp worry in her chest ease, if only a little.

Cassian said little, his voice lowand rough when it came. But even from across the tent, Sibylla could feel the shift. The quiet between them wasn't hostility. It was something truer. Something earned.

Her heart clenched at the sight.

Then as if sensing her eyes on him, Cassian looked up, green meeting hazel even through the haze of pain. The stare that passed between them was silent, but it spoke of things that would need to be said, hard, necessary things. She could see the same thoughts in his eyes, the rebuke he deserved, the guilt she would not let herself show.

Not now.

They both needed rest, treatment and time to stop shaking from the storm that still raged in their veins.

Her medic approached then, the same one she'd evaded earlier already clicking and whirring softly as he gestured toward the far cot. She wanted to protest, to say she was fine, but her body betrayed her with a sharp ache in her ribs.

She shot one last look toward the two men, flicking from Cassian to Aurelian, knowing both were overbearingly stubborn when it came to getting the medical care and rest they needed.

"Ensure you receive the medical attention you need," she said firmly, her tone leaving no room for argument.

"And rest -- the both of you," she added, before letting the droid lead her away, the flap of the tent closing behind her, muting the sound of the rain.


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Aboard Shiraya's Grace
Enroute to Naboo

The hum of the shuttle filled the room while outside the viewport, the stars stretched into long, silver lines as they cut through hyperspace. The chaos of the battlefield had been replaced by the cool sterility of polished durasteel and muted lights.

Sibylla sat alone at the conference array, the soft glow of holo-dockets reflecting against her face. Her bruises had begun to fade, the deep purples and reds now dulled to olive and yellow beneath the bacta's touch. The thick waves of chestnut hair were pulled back into a simple braid, and the simplicity of no artifice adorning her face did little to mask the exhaustion behind her eyes.

Corde's likeness shimmered faintly on one of the feeds, addressing the Royal Council from Theed, maintaining the illusion that the Queen was still planet-side. Sibylla monitored each transmission carefully, mind half-present in the flow of logistics and reports.

But even so, her gaze kept drifting toward the corridor beyond the conference room, toward the sealed door that led to Aurelian's and Cassian's suites. They were both resting, the medics had assured her. And while she was apt to not believe it for her brother, she hoped it was. Especially for Aurelian, because perhaps it would be the first real rest he'd allowed himself in days. The thought brought an unexpected sense of calm.

She had nearly lost both of them.

Her focus shifted back to the holo display, scrolling through reports from the Assembly. Work was predictable, far easier to work through the responsibility of duty and governance than the emotional hovercoster she went through earlier.

Then the soft hiss of the door broke her concentration.

Cassian stood there, the blasted fool. A little paler, but standing upright, with on hand braced against the frame for balance. His bandages were visible beneath the collar of his uniform, his steps slower than usual, but he was standing -- likely fueled by pure stubbornness and Abrantes determination.

Sibylla's eyes narrowed then her voice cut through the din over the steaming cup of caf she drank.

"You should be resting," she said plainly, no venom in her words, just fatigue, the sort of determined care that only siblings could exchange, "Go back to bed."

 


Cassian's head tilted slightly at the sound of her voice, the faintest flicker of a smile ghosting across his face. The night had been long sleep refusing to take him, no matter how many times he'd tried to let the quiet settle. The pain wasn't what kept him awake. It was the noise behind his ribs, the weight of too much thought and too little peace.

He straightened slowly, shifting his hand from the frame to his side. "I could say the same to you." he murmured, voice low, rough from disuse. The light caught in his eyes not the sharp glint of command, but something softer, frayed at the edges. "Didn't think I'd see you up at this hour."

His gaze lingered on her for a moment the familiar curl of her hair, the way she cradled her caf like it was armor. Something in the sight steadied him.

"Couldn't sleep." he admitted finally, his tone carrying that unguarded honesty reserved only for her. "Too quiet. Feels wrong, somehow." A faint, chuckle escaped him as he gestured vaguely toward his cot. "Besides, the bed and I are not on speaking terms tonight."

He paused, studying her across the room. "Are you okay?" Cassian asked. "And Aurelian?" Cassian spoke, not mocking, but genuine and true.


 


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Aboard Shiraya's Grace
Enroute to Naboo
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Sibylla took another slow sip of her caf, the steam curling against her face, the warmth leveling her just enough to keep her temper from resurfacing.

"The Crown does not sleep,"
she said simply, eyes still fixed on the reports flickering in front of her. Then, without looking up, she added, "But I didn't have a vibroknife shoved into my ribs, so I'm excused from sleeping." While her tone was flat there was an edge beneath it was unmistakable.

When Sibylla finally lifted her gaze, her eyes found his, studying him in silence for a few seconds longer than necessary. He looked tired, worn, but alive, and that alone was enough to make the knot in her chest loosen slightly.

"Too quiet?" she repeated, one brow arching. "Well, I can certainly make it louder if you need the white noise to go to sleep." and while her voie softened there was still a trace of dry irritation lingered there. The kind that only siblings could share after too many spats, too much worry, and not nearly enough rest.

She took another sip of her caf before continuing a bit more quietly.

"He's fine. Asleep. Medic said he'll likely sleep for almost the rest of the flight."

Yet those hazel eyes flicked toward him in pointed deliberation.

"The medic also said the same of you, but perhaps he didn't take into consideration your stubbornness."

 


Cassian's lips curved faintly, the kind of expression that wasn't quite a smile but hinted at one if you knew where to look. He leaned heavier against the frame, pretending it was casual, though the tremor in his hand betrayed otherwise.

His eyes swept the room the soft glow of holo-screens, the hum of the ship beneath them, the faint clink as she set her cup down. It was all maddeningly familiar. Too familiar. He'd been confined to beds before; he remembered how the walls seemed to close in if you stayed still too long.

"I've spent enough time lying down lately." he said after a beat, gaze flicking toward her reports. "Figured I'd rather see what keeps the Crown from sleeping."

The corner of his mouth twitched again that half-teasing, half-deflecting humor he always used when the truth edged too close. He adjusted slightly, slow, deliberate, careful not to wince. The low light caught the paleness of his skin, the stark lines of exhaustion that no posture could disguise.

"Good to know he's stable." His gaze found hers again, steady this time.

For a long while, Cassian said nothing. The silence between them stretched, filled only by the quiet hum of the ship and the faint hiss of recycled air. He shifted his weight, wincing slightly as he straightened up a bit. When he finally spoke, his voice was softer than she was used to the kind of tone he rarely allowed himself, stripped of command, stripped of deflection.

"Sib....."

"I'm sorry, Sibylla."
he said quietly, the sincerity raw beneath his measured calm. "For worrying you. For making you carry more than you should have to."

 


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Aboard Shiraya's Grace
Enroute to Naboo
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Sibylla's grip tightened around her caf mug, the heat biting into her palms. Cassian's apology should have eased her, but it didn't. It only twisted something deeper.

Truth be told, he looked pale and worn, and the tremor in his hand betrayed how he was still feeling the ramifications of the fight. And the more he spoke the more it was difficult to not purse her lips.

"It is more than just worrying me, Cassian," she said quietly, the edge in her tone unmistakable. "You know that."

Setting the mug down, she leaned forward, elbows on her knees. "And while I admit you're right, I've kept things from you in my duties, the way this escalated between you and Aurelian was unacceptable."

The words came out harder than she meant, but she didn't take them back. The memory of that courtyard still clawed at her -- hearing the taunting shouts, the blast of a blaster, seeing all the blood, a knife at Cassians ribs, and Aurelian's own bloody swollen face streaked in rain and rage, one dislocated shoulder and a broken nose.

"What was the point of that fight? What even happened?"
she asked again with incredulity in her voice.

Cassian's silence only made the tension thicken. Sibylla exhaled, long and tired.

"You nearly died, Cassian. Again. And for what? Pride? Some house feud? Some sense of honor or arrogance?"

For a moment, her anger faltered, replaced by something rawer.

"You have no idea what it was like to watch that," she murmured. "I thought I'd lost you. Both of you."

She reached for her mug again, needing something to hold, her hands and fingers wrapping over the warmth of the caf's mug.

"Sit," she said at last, nodding to the chair across from her. "If you insist on staying awake, then tell me everything. All of it."

And while her tone softened slightly, there was no mistaking the firm yet tired edge that coated it; it was the kind of love only a sister could carry through anger.

 

He didn't sit, at least not yet. He was tired of this. Cassian shook his head briefly, before letting out a small sigh. "He was upset with you, or maybe himself I don't know. And I was there, and he saw his opportunity...."
Cassian remained where he was silent, unmoving, as though her words had struck a nerve deeper than any blade could reach. The steady hum of the ship filled the void between them, a quiet metronome to the weight that hung in the air.

Finally, he stepped forward, slow and unsteady, lowering himself into the chair opposite her. The movement alone drew a faint hiss of pain from between his teeth, but he didn't comment on it. He simply sat, elbows braced on his knees, eyes fixed on the floor between them.

"You're right." he said after a moment, his voice low, roughened by exhaustion and something heavier shame, maybe. "It was unacceptable. All of it."

"But what else would you have had me do, Sibylla. Please, tell me."
Cassian looked to her, not anger, just pure desperation. "Please...." That word, he breathed life into it, as if he invented it himself. "What else would you have had me do. If you have the answers please tell me. I have done everything you have asked since that day. Yes Sir, No Sir, Yes Chancellor, No Chancellor, Yes your grace, No your grace." He took a deep breath as he shook his head once again.

"I don't know what else you want me to do. If it's disappear I'll do it, if it means you will have no issues left from me because of this so be it, please tell me. What....must....I..... do. Because I have done everything I can."


 


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The flat stare Sibylla leveled at Cassian had the same cold reserve their mother had mastered. The only difference was the flash of their grandmother in the way Sibylla's eyes said she would not listen to any nonsense.

"I was there and he saw his opportunity," she echoed back, the dark arch of her brows lifting as if the reason were absurd on its face.

No, no, she told herself, she should at least admit that what had first sparked Aurelian's fury was him seeing the damage the Gen'dai's backhand had left across her face. So Cassian was not wrong that Aurelian had been angry with her first. She inhaled once to calm herself and then admitted it before he could protest.

"Forgive me, you are right. He was furious after he found me."

She took another slow sip of caf and forced her hands to unclench around the porcelain. Getting angrier would not fix anything. Still, when Cassian started throwing out increasingly ridiculous plans, her patience frayed.

"Do not be ridiculous, Cassian," she snapped, setting the cup down.

"Disappear? Please stop speaking in ultimatums. It astonishes me, for the life of me, that the most intelligent men I know can at once be the most utterly foolish."
She rubbed her forehead and let her hand fall, running through in her mind what she had learned from guards and witnesses while she tried to keep the matter from spilling into scandal.

"Frankly, Aurelian was beyond reason in that moment. He believed you had seen how badly I was hurt and did not care, and I believe that only infuriated him more. He was already furious that I had put myself in danger...."


The tight line at her mouth betrayed the strain of the memory.

"You are not going anywhere," she told Cassian firmly. "You are certainly not vanishing off to who knows where. You are not permitted to do that, or I swear by Shiraya, Thessaly Veruna Thessaly Veruna will be the last woman you should be concerned about."

 


Cassian blinked once, slow as if her words had physically struck him harder than any blow Aurelian had landed. For a moment, he didn't speak. He just sat there, hands clasped loosely in front of him, staring at the floor like he was searching for the right thread to pull from a snarl he himself had tied.

When he finally looked up, the faint humor in his expression was not mockery but an attempt at keeping something else from breaking through. "Maker, Sybilla…" he murmured, voice low, steady but frayed. "You make it sound as if I were halfway to charting my disappearance already."

He believed you had seen how badly I was hurt and did not care, and I believe that only infuriated him more. He was already furious that I had put myself in danger...."

"Then he should've asked." Cassian couldn't help but chuckle but it reached a point of pain as he took a deep breath.

He looked up to Sibylla, still waiting for the answer that she hadn't given him yet.

"And you still haven't answered me, what else would you have me do? Because if you can't give me a solid answer. Then I better not hear another word from you, when I am forced to defend myself again. Do you understand that?"



 


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Sibylla blinked, the incredulous look plain on her face as she set her caf down. She tipped her head, the faintest curl of an eyebrow lifted in that look her mother used to give when nonsense was spoken.

Then, with no hesitation she simply said, "Shoot him with a stun bolt."

"Knock him out. The easiest, fastest way to end the fight without killing anyone. Goodness, he had the guards point their blasters at you, Cassian."


When she heard that bit of information, she'd been livid.

She softened in the next instant because she was his sister, and the part of her that loved him refused to be merciless.

"I do not pretend Aurelian is blameless. I've told him already that he has to live with his decisions and that I expected better from him. However, I don't want a situation like this to occur again. If you both must be insistent on decking one another like hot-blooded freshmen looking to prove something in the academy, then let it be one where deadly force is not part of the equation… certainly not vibroshivs or blaster bolts!"

 


Her solution was so practical it could have been carved from stone shoot him with a stun bolt, knock him out, end the fight cleanly, neatly, without bloodshed. Cassian heard the logic in it, that cold, efficient clarity that Sibylla was so good at wielding. For a heartbeat, he even admired it that she could take the chaos and pain of the yard and turn it into a simple equation of if–then statements. But when he looked at her, really looked, he saw what lay beneath that composure. The rigid set of her jaw when she spoke of guards and blasters. The faint, fraying exhaustion behind her eyes. The light in them that still burned protective, fierce, and utterly blind to what had really taken place.

She wasn't seeing the same thing he had.

Cassian used to believe he could make people see. He'd thought that if he explained himself clearly enough laid out the maps, the risks, the bruised egos and fraying tempers others would follow reason to its conclusion. But that was before the ache set in. Before he understood that not every heart wanted the same truth, or could stand to look at it when it arrived. Some people needed their illusions more than their peace.

He wasn't sure what fate was awaiting Aurelian and him by the time this was all over. He truly had no idea, but he hoped it was something worth it, before the very end.

"Fair enough. I think we are done here."

Cassian stood up and made his way to the small cot, taking a seat, not to sleep. Sleep would not find him, not right now.


 


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"Are we?" Sibylla returned, her tone quiet but edged with that pointed curiosity that always meant she knew he was holding something back. That tawny gaze lingered on him with the slightest narrowing of her eyes, the faint lift of her brow daring him to deny it.

"If we are already here, and you insist on refusing rest,"
she took a deep breath, before continuing in a wry tone that still carried an edge of practiced civility her governess and their mother had instilled in her, "then you might as well say what else is on your mind, Cassian. As you have already made it quite clear, we both seem to have abandoned our typical honesty when it comes to speaking what truly weighs upon our minds."


 


Cassian's gaze lifted slowly, meeting hers that familiar mix of sharpness and warmth she'd inherited straight from their mother, tempered by something distinctly her own. For a heartbeat, he said nothing. Then, with the faintest exhale, his posture eased, the mask of composure slipping just enough to show the truth beneath it.

"You're right," he said quietly, a dry edge in his tone that couldn't quite conceal fatigue. "I am holding something back."

He leaned back, eyes trailing over the dim light of the room, the faint hum of the ship filling the pause before his words returned. "It isn't just the fight, Sibylla. It's what it means." His hand gestured loosely a vague circle that encompassed far more than the confines of the cabin. "Every time one of us stumbles, it isn't just a mistake. It's a statement. People watch the Abrantes name like a hawk over carrion waiting to see if we bleed, and how."

His eyes found hers again, the weariness in them heavy but lucid. "Aurelian's anger wasn't only about you, or me. It was about what we've become what we've been made into. Symbols to be judged and prodded and paraded until we can't tell if we're living for ourselves or for them."

He gave a short, bitter laugh. "And I'm starting to understand him."

The confession seemed to take something from him. He rubbed at the bridge of his nose, exhaling through his teeth. "I keep thinking about Father. How he used to talk about legacy as though it were a light we carried forward. But lately it feels more like a chain. And every time I try to set it down, I end up here again, bleeding, fighting, arguing over these trivial matters. There was a moment. A time before I ever actually knew Aurelian, I heard everything about what he was, what our family had spoke of him as others did. And when I first met him for a fleeting second I thought we could stand side by side together, but at the end of the day. We are, who we are. Are we so destined to continue to destroy each other, because if so....that's not the person I want to be. But if he continues this....what else can I do?"

Did he continue to stun him over, and over again. How many more knives in the body would Cassian have to endure, until the right one finally made its mark and ended him completely.

His tone softened then, losing the edge, leaving only honesty. "That's what's on my mind, Sybilla. That somewhere along the way, I stopped knowing whether I'm protecting our name or I'm just waiting for whatever lies beyond this life.."

He let the words linger, heavy but unguarded, then added quietly, "And you? You've been holding back longer than I have. So tell me — what aren't you saying?"


 


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Sibylla took a slow, steady breath as Cassian spoke, her hazel eyes watching the fatigue that carved into the line of his shoulders, the faint tremor in his hands, and once again that familiar ache rose in her chest. It was only more pronounced due to the extent of his injuries, and as he finally laid out everything that had been on his mind, the more weight was added to Sibylla's shoulders as she realized just the amount of pressure and the extent he had been concerned regarding Aurelian, their position, their House, and how that was reflected to the rest of Naboo.

She swallowed hard, her lids lowering down to her steaming cup of caf, her forefinger starting a gentle quiet tap that belied the racing of her thoughts.

He wasn't wrong, and placing it all out in the open put into the spotlight the Reek in the room.

Another deep breath and then a slow exhale fell from her full lips, before she began in a quiet tone, "You are right about how Naboo watches us. Every mistep, every breath, every whispered rumor becomes a tale for others to feast upon -- trust me when I say, I am more than aware of ramifications regarding reputation not just upon our House but as individuals as well. I've lived each day for the past decade, ensuring I was the perfect Abrantes Daughter to the point where it was difficult to even tell if the reflection I saw in the mirror was truly me or just what I was expected to become."

She gave another sigh, and her hand came up to run through the loose tendrils of her braid, pushing them back away from her face, the yellowing bruises became a bit more stark against her pale skin.

"But Cassian... you and I know very well that we were born into privilege and with that comes certain responsibilities and expectations... and it is frustrating.. trust me, just as frustrating to me as well." her head swung to the right, staring out into the cerulean lines of hyperspace outside the viewport.

Slowly, she came to her feet, moving over towards the expansive Solariam Glassteel port, crossing her arms over her chest. Another exhale escaped her.

"This feud between our Houses has spanned centuries. You and I are well aware how our forefathers handled the situation with the Verunas -- and while we kept our honor and name above par, there is no hiding the fact that they were also in part responsible for its continuance one way or another."

She gave a slight shake of her head.

"And it has to stop. This has to stop." The frustration and irritation of it all cut through her voice again, making it crack as Sibylla swallowed hard again.

"It is unbearable to lose you, Cassian. When I think back to all the blood... it is why Aurelian's loss of control cut so deeply, and why, for me, it was nearly unbearable to stand there believing I might lose you both in the same hour..." her voice cracked and she had to take a deep breath. Her lower lip trembled, and the corners of her mouth twitched in a hollow smirk that waned, thinking back to standing in front of Aurelian in the rain, how she had told him that she didn't forgive him and wouldn't excuse his actions, that he needed to learn or at least do something to prevent anything of the sort from happening again. That she wouldn't stand to see him prove to himself that he was the monster he had convinced herself to be. And that if he truly believed himself to be so wicked, so lost to whatever creature he was determined to set himself as, then he wasn't the man she believed he could be, the man she'd stood and supported, the man that...

Her eyes swiveled and caught her reflection in the viewport, the faint ghost of a visage. It reminded her of the speeder ride to Rainspire so long ago, when she had declared her intent for the crown, only for Aurelian to cast his own name to the lot after turning in his father for the attempt at her life.

Pearly white teeth bit at her lower lip, gnawing at the tender flesh and she cast her eyes down.

"Aurelian's anger is inexcusable, and I will see him held to account..." she turned to look at Cassian then, hazel locking into emerald as she lifted her chin in the sort of manner that said she was struggling with a maelstrom of emotions and trying to hold them at bay.

"The suggestion of a stun bolt earlier was no spoken in jest. It was simple practicality. If he lunges, disable him. Do not try to outmatch him in fury or in strength. Call for help, call for the guards, call for me. You are my brother, a General, not a martyr..."

Her voice trailed off as she noticed his expression, and after a moment, she let out another sigh. He had asked what she had been holding back, and for a heartbeat, she hesitated. Then, as if deciding to finally stop sparing him, Sibylla took a deep breath and exhaled.

"And yes, there is a reason why this continued feud infuriates me so. And while it began as a necessity due to my position and seeing him beyond what he displays at court, it became something more. Something I only just realized myself," she admitted quietly.

"And certainly it wasn't intended to decieve, but because in saying it aloud was once again, making it real not only to myself but to what it would risk and do... to you, to him, to all of us..." her voice trembled for just a moment before she paused, eyes rolling up to the ceiling as she mentally braced herself for whatever Cassian would say to this.

It was then that a wobbly, rueful smile and a half-shrug of uncertainty painted Sibylla's face with the kind of anxious revelation that a teenager experiences when realizing her feelings are not just a crush, but something deeper.

"I am falling in love with him, Cassian." she uncrossed her arms, helpless and a little amused at her own confession, the kind that relayed she was still processing that full awareness now, taking in the months that Aurelian and she had been getting closer. How his very presence seemed to make her gravitate towards him. How her thoughts were filled by the random bursts of his maddening smirk, and how her heart seemed to skip a beat and flutter whenever he drew close. And Shiraya, when she kissed him...

The masquerade had been a turning point. She recognized that now. Her choice. Her decision. And she didn't regret it. Not one bit.

"...And no, not a crush, not some passing fancy, not merely for his rakish good looks -- though he never lets me forget those," the half burst of incredulous nervous laughter came only to abruptly stop, starting to pace, "But because I've come to know him. The real him. I know his flaws, I know he isn't perfect. I am fully aware of his arrogance, impatience, his near pathological insistence regarding his ambitions, legacy, and how others perceive him, the extent of his ruthlessness in and out of court...." she began ticking them with her fingers as if counting down a list in frustrated, incredulous amusement.

"All of that wrapped up in that infuriating mask he wears, a mask no different than the one of composure I wear and the one of honor you don." Another breath, and she added, "But I have seen the man beneath his. He truly means well. He loves Naboo and her people. He can be a man of his word when he commits himself. I have watched him rein himself in, admit error, and ask for help. Seen him look past his prejudice and pride with the Mandalorians and ask to learn their language, their way of defending themselves and mean it. I have seen his brilliance, and I know how much better he might be."

Her hands fell to her side as fatigue softened the edge of her words. "I am well aware that his infamy as the Prince of Parrley has him painted as one of many vices, and while some may hold truth, it is not the whole of him. His masks are as much a survival as anyone's....so, please... do not take this as something similar to Lysander, because this time, I'm fully aware of the man my heart is giving itself to."


 


Cassian drew in a slow breath, the ship's hum shrinking to a distant thing as if the world had narrowed to the two of them and the sharp truth between them. He let the silence settle for a heartbeat, then reached out careful, deliberate and covered her hand with his bandaged one. The contact was small, almost clumsy, but meant.

"You're right." he said quietly, each word measured. "This feud our stubborn pride, everyone's need to keep score it isn't some private quarrel we can dress up as honor. It's a slow furnace eating both our Houses from the inside. If it keeps going the way it has, it won't be an argument written in the papers; it'll be ruin. Not just for us, but for our family and for Naboo."

He swallowed, the admission leaving his voice rougher than usual. "I've been selfish about what I think I can bear. I've let my temper, my guilt, my refusal to admit that I can be wrong, make decisions for me. That ends now..... I don't want your life or this family burned because I couldn't be better."

Cassian lifted his chin, meeting Sibylla's eyes with a steadiness that felt like a promise. "You say it, and I will do it, from here on out." He let the sentence hang between them, and then, softer, vulnerable where it counted, "But don't think I'll do it half-heartedly. Hold me to it. If I waver, call me out. If I let pride pull me forward, drag me back. I will stand down when you say we stand down, for you and for our family."

"And yes, there is a reason why this continued feud infuriates me so. And while it began as a necessity due to my position and seeing him beyond what he displays at court, it became something more. Something I only just realized myself,"
"And certainly it wasn't intended to decieve, but because in saying it aloud was once again, making it real not only to myself but to what it would risk and do... to you, to him, to all of us..."
"I am falling in love with him, Cassian."

When she said the words, Cassian felt the room shift as if something inside him had finally unclenched. He had been raised to weigh futures and reputations the way courtiers weighed crystal precise, cold, efficient and for a beat the old reflex wanted to scold her for risking so much. If someone had asked him a year ago, he would have called her a fool for falling for a man wrapped in so many masks.

Cassian was not that same man though. He too had grown, good, calculated and foolishly. He had grown and seen Sibylla's and Aurelians capacity for courage and strength.

Watching Sibylla smile there that honest, unarmored smile he hadn't seen in so long unmade the neat arguments he kept in reserve. He found himself leaning forward, not with strategy but with something softer: affection, relief, a fierce, quiet tenderness.

He thought of them in the yard, of blood and dirt and the way a blade had found him. His ribs still burned with the memory, a stubborn ache that made him aware of his own limits. He thought of Sibylla standing in that storm, brittle with fury and fiercer still in her care. And he thought, gingerly, of Aurelian not the rumor-tinted caricature he'd been ready to despise, but a man exposed in small, unexpected ways over the last hours: flashes of shame, a temper that could flare and cool, moments that hinted at something steadier beneath the swagger. Respect had grown where suspicion once stood, slow and reluctant, but real.

So Cassian set aside the old certainties. It would have been easy, to barricade her heart with warnings about scandal and consequence to argue for caution until caution became cruelty. Instead he closed his mouth and opened his hands. Who was he to take the thing that made her light up? To banish the smile she'd been denying herself for too long?

Cassian stood up slowly, grimacing slightly as he slowly walked over to her, the look on his, pure and honest. Just like that day in the piano room, that seemed almost a lifetime ago. "Do you remember what I told you? A long time ago in the study of our home, when you were playing piano." Cassian chuckled lightly as that seemed like a lifetime ago.

"It's a fine line, its easy for me. You guys, and my duty are all I have. If it came down to it, regardless of what it was. I would choose my family over my duty every day. Duty's can change, family is absolute."

Cassian let out a sigh as he closed his eyes for a brief moment. "If you truly believe in your heart that something is right, or that something is wrong. There is nothing wrong with you defying, as long as you can justify it to yourself. Is it truly worth the risk, if it is.......do it."

He reached across with both hands, as if to place them on her shoulders. He hesitated at first, as if she was fragile and would break at the first sign of touch. He saw the look in her eyes, and how much this was breaking her to admit, not for herself. But for how others would react, how he would react. "You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for, you are stronger than I could ever hope to be." he said, voice low and faltered at one point. "I will not be the one to fence your heart with fear, or doubt. If you're seeing what I couldn't, if there's truly something worth saving in him, then you're the only one who could reach it. You always were the one who saw past armor and arrogance. I don't hate him, despite what he's done. I should. But I don't. Maybe because I've been where he stands too proud to admit I'm afraid of losing what little control I have left."

His gaze softened then, the edge easing as something gentler broke through. "If you love him, then you'll do what you always do you'll make him better, whether he realizes it or not. Just…" His hands slid down from her shoulders as he took her hands, with nothing but love in his heart for his sister, and truest friend. "As long as you are happy, that's all that matters to me."

A pause, a faint laugh, tired but genuine. "And Maker help him if he hurts you. Because next time, it won't be me kneeling in the ground."

"Just don't ask me not to worry. That's one tradition I don't plan on breaking."


He held her hands a beat longer before he pulled her into a hug, pain and all be damned, anchoring himself to the small human truth of the moment: her happiness mattered more than any ledger of consequence, and protecting that was, for him, the truest kind of honor.


 


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Sibylla was quiet as she took in everything Cassian said, the warmth of his hand, and the reassuring calm of his voice, which reminded her yet again that, despite everything, he was still here for her, supporting her just as fiercely as she had always supported him. Those words wrapped around her like a reassuring balm, reminding her that despite everything, it was still okay to feel.

It wouldn't fix everything; there was still so much to do, to figure out, and to address in the midst of it all. Still, as Cassian's arms wrapped around her, drawing her into the strength and reassurance of his embrace, as the scent of bacta and that which was uniquely his was breathed in with her shuddering breath, Sibylla was reminded again of the extent of Cassian's love.

The sting in her eyes came before she could fight it. Her shoulders began to shake, her lip quivered, and then all her composure broke apart at once. She pressed her face into the broad line of his chest, the rhythm of his heartbeat reassuring her as it always had since she was a child.

This time, when she cried, she did so in the place that had always offered comfort and refuge ever since she was a little girl.

In her big brother's arms, Sibylla cried. She cried until the ache of it all, the hot mess, and the stress of everything was finally gone.


 

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