The Corellian Patient

[Allyson Locke]

The warm sensation of a force heals coursed through Allyson’s body. She could feel the pain slowly making its way out of her body. Her mouth moved, forming the outlines of curse words as she struggled to try and fight it. Tears welled up in her eyes as she looked at the doctor. If only the doctor was the girl she had been hoping to wake up to, if only the doctor knew how to get her memories back, and if only the doctor could just let her go. Allyson listened the best she could, but her mind was in such a terrible state she didn’t know what to think.

There was nothing left for her, if this girl in her mind was gone – then there was nothing to live for. What would she do now, go on and continue to fight? What would there be to fight for? Maybe the girl wasn’t alive anymore and maybe this doctor was supposed to be someone important to her. Still Allyson didn’t understand why the woman was so hell bent on keeping her alive. Hands wrapped around [member="Hazel Zanteres"]‘ wrists, Allyson attempted to pull them from her face, attempting to stop the healing process before it finished and brought her back to square one.

Her body ached with weakness as she couldn’t budge the doctor. It was either the woman had an iron will to keep healing or Allyson’s body was still completely weak from the coma and the trauma she had endured. The words of the woman echoed in her mind as Allyson could feel herself losing this battle. Tears streamed down her face, clinging and pooling around Hazel’s hands. What more could she do? If this Doctor was so determined to make sure she lived, there was no fighting it. An overwhelming surge of emotions washed over the Corellian agent, the face that stared at her blinded her and her weak and fragmented memories began to twist her reality.

The face she would fall asleep to, suddenly appeared to her. A look of calm and serenity washed over Allyson’s face. Suddenly and without any warning, the agent’s hands grasped at the doctor’s lab coat and pulled her closer. Eyes closed Allyson felt her lips desperately touch the Doctor’s – maybe something would spark a memory, maybe this would be the key that unlocked more of her memories of the woman she dreamed of. If neither occurred, at least it would probably distract the woman from healing her.

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

There was empathy in the Hapan's eyes as she stared into Allyson's tearful ones. Being so up close, Hazel could practically read the Corellian's lips as she tried to summon the strength to curse at her. The every swirling confusion remained in her expression, an argument without any vocals. All in the mind, but readable in the woman's face.

Hazel didn't relent however, even as Allyson's hands wrapped around her wrists. It was clear to her, that the Corellian wouldn't stop at trying to end her life, that trying to talk reason - on professional level wasn't working. The words she had spoken before; trying to claw something into Allyson's memories of the woman she was engaged to, had seemingly sunk in for a moment before they inevitably washed away in the emotional turmoil.

In reality it was a combination of both. Allyson was still far too weak to budge her, and Hazel was most definitely determined to not alllow her patient to just give up. The tears that Allyson shed felt like little weights against the Hapan's hands, reminding Hazel that the further she went with this the more it was causing this. But she didn't stop, in part to her stubbornness and it wasn't just on a professional basis either.

She saw the shift in expression before Allyson acted, though despite that Hazel was surprised all the same when she was pulled into the kiss. Hazel's hands slipped slightly, after all the Hapan had literally been moved closer to the woman. But the healing hadn't halted, and she simply relocated her hands to keep it going. Although she did pause in the moment, wondering what she should do. Her thoughts going back to hours ago when Allyson had first awoken. Hazel had chosen to not continue the lie that had been laid out before her, as she thought and knew it was the wrong thing to do. But now she was wondering if that had been the best idea, especially given Allyson's actions since then.

It would've made the situation a lot less frustrating, maybe Allyson wouldn't have tried ripping out her IVs or somehow shut down the machines that were keeping the pain away. There was ultimately no way of knowing if that would've happened, but Hazel made a decision nonetheless. Despite knowing it and feeling it was wrong.

She returned the kiss.

With the healing coming to an end; dealing with the damage Allyson had done as a result of Mechu-deru, one of Hazel's hands slid up to the Corellian's hair. The Hapan's fingers weaving into a caress.

[member="Allyson Locke"]​

 

[Allyson Locke]

It would be an outright lie if Allyson denied the fact that the Doctor was a good kisser. As much as she wanted this kiss to feel right and to somehow resurface any memories she had locked away, Allyson knew that the doctor once and for all wasn’t the woman in her dreams. The kiss remained desperate and sad, she seemed to want to pull something from it searching for more and desiring some sort of sign. Nothing came, even after the warmth spread through her weak frame after the doctor proceeded with the caress.

The kiss lasted a few minutes longer. Allyson pulled away and rested her forehead against the other woman’s and hiccuped a sob back. She not only felt completely lost, but now she felt pathetic and helpless. There was nothing left here and the doctor couldn’t fill the void that was left by the lack of memories. Allyson wanted something or someone to walk through the doors just to make some sort of sense with what was going on with her. All she had though in this moment was the doctor and the desperation in her kiss.

It took her a moment, but she fought back the tears and reached out. Arms frantically wrapped around [member="Hazel Zanteres"]. Gripping tightly at the fabric of the lab coat, Allyson buried her face into the softness of the Doctor’s upper body. Muffled yet utterly painful sobs came from the Corellian. Part of her wanted this all to be some terrible nightmare and that she would be waking up very soon to the life that she dreamed about, but she knew deep down that this was her reality. It was a reality she didn’t want any part of and she didn’t quite understand the need for the doctor to keep her alive or even bring her back to life.

Dying a hero would have been good, it would have been a fitting end – but no this doctor was too stubborn. Looking up and wiping away any tears that stained her now slightly red and puffy face. Allyson decided to just give the doctor a gentle kiss on the corner of her lips without the desperation and helplessness the former had. Hopefully when and if the doctor recalled this moment, she would remember the latter of the two kisses. “I’m sorry.” Unknown to the pair, just outside the open door - [member="Kaili Talith"] would be standing either entering or catching a glimpse of what was happening.

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]​

​

Eyes peered with disdain at the man and his warnings. To him she might have been acting like a child, but in the end Kaili was merely acting like a woman whose fiancé was being held against her will when she had the resources and skills to take her back, and while she would admit that there was nothing to be gained if she stepped into the room looking just like Allyson once had, there also was no time to head all the way back to the ship and get changed. She had come so far now, seen and experienced everything from having believed Allyson dead to finding out that she was not. She had experienced the most tumultuous few days of her life and here she was now at the end of the road looking to find what she had sought after from the second she had known it was there.

A deep breath tried to steady her nerves but it didn’t work. Eyes closed as she approached the door as a second deep breath filled her lungs with even more air. Yet again it did not work and there was no real peace to be found. Eyes opened and slowly drifted from the ceiling to the hospital bed, but what she saw was not just Allyson. The look of hope that had been evident in Kaili’s expression quickly turned into a pained stare of disbelief and horror.

Because there it was; her prize, tongue-deep in someone else, sharing a kiss that felt like it went on for longer than it actually did. Her eyes widened in surprise and began to water in pain as a sharp, aching sensation spread in her chest to pierce her heart like a knife through a piece of paper. What her eyes saw had already said more than words could ever had said. Mister Trohn had warned her about the amnesia, but she had not expected this. In an instant, just like that, Kaili began to regret everything she had done up to this point. The pain in her chest tripled as her thoughts went back to the trail that Bait had lead her on. Had she known what was really buried at the end of the trail she would have kept herself off the designated route and to her room until the world felt bearable again. She wouldn’t have agreed to go on a treasure hunt that had brought her little more than pain only for it to sprinkle a hefty dose of misery on top. Kaili had already broken once before a mere day ago and it had been the first time in her life that it had ever happened. Her heart had been heavy then but it shrieked now.

She hadn’t noticed her hand moving up to cover her chest at this point or the fact that her back had hit the wall. The grip on her chest latched onto her ribcage with a grip that seemed destined to push her fingers and thumb through her bones as she tried to get the pain to find somewhere else to strike, but it was fruitless. Eyes looked for Mister Thorn. He was unseen but not unfelt, most likely witnessing this somehow with a wide grin on his lips.

The hand that covered her chest changed place with the other and proceeded to drag itself across her face. The warm smoothness of metal firmly swept against her brow and cheek with a burn unlike anything Kaili had ever experienced before. It was the ring. It was Kaili’s ring, the one she had used to signify her willingness to commit, the ring she had worn since before they met yet simply moved from her index finger to her ring finger on Ruusan to signify something. Her eyes set on it with a panicked shiver. Trohn had said she couldn’t leave too many impressions, and right now she wasn’t sure if she could do this or not. What the ‘this’ was would be up for debate, but with time it would be quite likely that both Kaili and Allyson would realize what that was.

Kaili was beside herself in pain, but she had to go in there. She had come too far to not do it. Index finger and thumb slid it off and the effect was instant. An anger spread in her system, one she wouldn’t be able to suppress by herself and one she wasn’t sure if it was right to suppress or not. Before her mind was able to ponder the question at any greater depth the ring found its old place on her index finger again, the place where it had once been before and where it seemed destined to remain for a while longer yet.

Hand through her hair she gave the door another look but not the window. A careful hand reached out to open it but quickly retracted to wipe away the tears from her cheeks. Eyes closed as another quick inhale filled her lungs with air. Attempt two and the door opened. The sound of footsteps reverberated around the room as in stepped a girl wearing what had once been Allyson’s.

The two lovebirds had separated by now. At least Kaili was that lucky.

“Hello.” She tried to sound happy, but she failed. She felt pathetic, out of place, like she didn’t belong in here anymore. “I am Kaili.”

“I uh, forced them to let me in and see Allyson.” Eyes darted to the side as teeth sunk into her lower lip, pulling it into a bite to keep an all too obvious frown from taking shape before they shifted back to peer deep into the blonde’s eyes. There was pain in Kaili’s eyes and there was no doubt that the doctor could understand why.

“I am her fian- rend. Friend.” Kaili swallowed air and nodded. The lie hurt.

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

It hadn't worked.

Hazel could feel it in the kiss, rather than Allyson letting herself sink into the memories in hopes of something clicking, the opposite happened. The damage had already been done, the Corellian recognized a distinct difference between the blonde woman in her head and the one before her right now. Rather than it helping, it just worsened things. Hazel's mind still lingered on the 'what ifs', perhaps this act would've gone better in helping Allyson if it had happened earlier. But would that have done to her? Make her more confused most likely. The Hapan couldn't do that to Allyson, and yet she had just done this all the same.

She cursed mentally, almost feeling the outright sadness that was radiating from Allyson. Hazel didn't know what else she could do, and had a similiar thought and hope that someone would just come through the door with the answer.

When the kiss finally ended, the Hapan looked into Allyson's eyes. She saw the raw emotion there, the desperation was gone leaving sadness and helplessness out in the open. She wanted to nothing more than just wrap the Corellian in a hug. Which quickly came about when Allyson grabbed ahold of her labcoat again, only this time to bury her head against her. There was no hesitation on Hazel's part, she wrapped her arms, one hand soothingly rubbing Allyson's back. It was motherly action, one that the Hapan rather bitterly recognized as a stark contrast to moments before. She had made the wrong decision, and was now cursing herself out in silence.

Hazel offered her a small smile when the hug was finished, initially surprised by the kiss to followed, but the meaning behind it became clear with Allyson's words.

"No need to be sorry, I shouldn't have done that." She whispered quietly, not realizing things were going to get a whole lot more messy real soon.

That was when the door opened, and Hazel looked up mostly expecting to see either another doctor, a guard or even Mr. Trohn. What she wasn't expecting was a blonde haired woman to be at the door.

Hazel moved away from Allyson, slipping across the bed so she could stand up from it. Instantly the Hapan's mind thought it had been a twisted coincidence, and believed it for those passing moments. She recognized the name as the one Allyson had listed as a contact. But the more she looked at Kaili, the more she realized just who she was.

The forced attempt to sound happy, trying not to frown, the slip up with her words. This was Allyson's fiancée.

Karking hell...

When it rained, it poured.

"Miss Talith," Hazel began, forcing herself into 'doctor mode' and brushing her hands down her coat; smoothing it out. But also using that time to think of what to say, and what was there? 'This isn't what it looks like?' 'Let me explain.' No, none of those would work nor were they appropriate for the moment. She was between two women who looked as though they're hearts were breaking - in different ways, and Hazel was part of the cause. "I assume Mister Trohn has explained Allyson's current condition?"

[member="Allyson Locke"] | [member="Kaili Talith"]​

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson felt the doctor shift and move away from her. Part of her welcomed the distance, yet she longed for the comfort the woman attempted to give her. Allyson gathered her thoughts quietly all the while the woman she had been hoping was the doctor entered the room. Glancing towards the voices, Allyson blinked staring at the new blonde. It was as if the Force heard her prayers, but nothing clicked right away.

The young woman introduced herself as a friend and Allyson once more felt her heart shatter. There was a familiarity about the new blonde, but after the doctor she was afraid to trust it and shut down every hope she had. Allyson didn't know her heart could break this many times in a matter of minutes. Sighing softly she listened to the exchange and from what it sounded like. Raising an eyebrow Allyson looked fully at the new occupant in the room.

Brief and instant memories echoed her mind as she remembered the workshop and then some futile attempts at hitting on the girl. Chuckling softly, Allyson wondered if what was happening now was based off karma. The thick tension was broken as Allyson looked fondly at the woman she remembered as her dear friend and fellow technomanic “[member="Kaili Talith"] , how's your shop on Borleias? Didn't realize I left that much of an impression that you came looking for me haha” Her memories seemed to have covered enough of their initial meeting, but to Allyson...Kaili Taith had made her feelings known of being uninterested.

“Doctor [member="Hazel Zanteres"] this is my dear friend Kaili…” Calling Kaili that seemed wrong in a way, but Allyson brushed it off knowing it was probably her longing to find this girl in her memory.

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]​

For every second that passed she felt her tear ducts trying to open wide to let it all out, but Kaili couldn’t let it show, not here. The doctor straightened herself out but that hardly made anything better. Kaili continued to stare deep into her eyes trying to broadcast just the kind of hell she was trying to stop from being unleashed. There was a deep fire in there, a flame within amber eyes that the girl wanted to stop herself from sharing. At some point Kaili would find her head nodding up and down in a cold, calculated nod that lacked any kind of emotion behind it. Part of her didn’t even want to do it. Just stare at the doctor questioning what it was she had done.

But she was torn away by Allyson herself.

“It’s… Fine.” She tried to smile again but failed. “Yeah. Just… Fine.”

“I’d say it’s nice to meet you, doc, but under the current circumstances, I guess it ain’t.” The stare deep into Hazel’s eyes continued for a few good seconds before Kaili approached the bed proper. “Of course I came looking, Allyson.”

“We’re…” Truth was hard to swallow, lies harder to spew. “Friends.”

Her lip twitched trying to smile again with no luck. “I guess I just caught the two of you at a bad time, h-” Her voice cracked. “Huh?”

Brows perked, eyes closed shut tight to stop herself from breaking down. She didn’t want to play along with this.

“I can come back later, if you wish.”

What the feth had she been thinking. She should have stayed home.

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

Hazel winced as she looked at Kaili's expression; forced but hidden beneath was a raging fire that the Hapan recognized. She was in part grateful Kaili had that restraint, both in terms of personal harm and the fact it would potentially further Allyson's confusion. Right now she was stuck between two different people, both with a variant of emotions running through them.

To her credit, Hazel never broke eye contact with the woman, even though it was clear there was guilt in the Hapan's eyes. She watched as Kaili moved over towards Allyson's bed

Friend...

Allyson spoke it with confused certainty, some part of it felt right but there was a lingering sense of wrongness to it.

Kaili spoke it through gritted teeth, a lie that was more obvious to the two blondes and probably not the brunette.

The Hapan sighed lightly at Kaili's words.

"That won't be necessary Miss Talith, but I would like a word in private?" She asked, motioning towards the door. There was a look in Hazel's eyes, making it obvious she was intending to face this head on, but it wasn't exactly the best thing for Allyson to overhear in her current state.

"We'll only be a moment," she said, the words directed towards Allyson. By now she was fine leaving the Corellian to her own devices, the pain that was previous wracking her body was for the most part gone, leaving soreness and numbness in its wake. There was still some pain there, but it wasn't as debilitating as before. Hazel moved towards the door, opening it for Kaili and waiting for the blonde to leave before shutting the door behind them. The rooms were thankfully soundproof, although the windows were still there allowing Allyson to see what might end up going down.

Silence fell for a moment as Hazel just looked at Kaili, and with a better look she could now understand why Allyson mistook her. Kaili Talith was almost practically a younger version of the Hapan, aside from some differences here and there; the eye colour being the most obvious one.

"I'm sorry."

[member="Allyson Locke"] | [member="Kaili Talith"]​

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson watched Kaili and picked up on some subtle things. It seemed she felt the same way about being called a friend. Thinking on it she wondered if they weren't as close as she thought, but she had come to find her. Everything was giving Allyson a headache. She hated feeling this helpless and pathetic. Her eyes moved away from the two women as she did her best to gather any sort of grasp of the situation.

Her reality as she knew it at the moment was completely tossed around, where she assumed one thing it was the complete opposite. Before she could say anything they shuffled out of the room and the Corellian was left with a window to stare out of. There was an uncanny familiarity with the two women. The looked as if they could have been the same person but at different points of the same life. Allyson sighed and leaned back into the bed and watched the window.

Could Kaili be the girl she had been seeing in her dreams? She did feel a pull towards her especially after seeing the pain in her eyes.

“Don't leave me Kaili…” Allyson mumbled to herself as her head turned away from the window. An odd sensation of deja vu washed over her as Allyson felt as if she had said that before. Deciding to shrug it off, asking Kaili if they were a thing would be one too many embarrassments for the day.

[member="Kaili Talith"] [member="Hazel Zanteres"]

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Hazel Zanteres"] // [member="Allyson Locke"]​

​

She wanted to reach out, to touch Allyson’s face, strike her thumb across her cheek and tell her it was all going to be okay. That she was here now and that thing would be alright, but none of those words felt right. Things didn’t feel okay, they felt as far away from alright as one could get. Inside of Kaili there was a fracture that she didn’t know how to handle right now, a hole torn apart by an amnesiac and a doctor. Was there really any words Kaili could use to make it better, and for who? Allyson had no idea what she had done, the Doc did, and Kaili had just wanted the comfort of knowing her girlfriend was alive. Well she had gotten what she wanted, but far from in a way that made her feel any kind of relief.

Allyson had forgotten her.

She had forgotten them.

What they had planned.

What they had hoped for.

Everything.

The doctor asked her to step outside for a second. Kaili glared over the bed as Allyson turned to look at the doctor, but as the Corellian Patient turned back towards Kaili it quickly faded away. So she wanted to talk then. There was no denying that the last person either of the two blondes would be safe with right now was each other, yet she wanted Kaili to step outside. She tried to flash Allyson a reassuring smile, but what emotion was there to support it except saplings of hate and anger? She felt part of her wanted to turn feral, the way her thoughts slipped further and further from a reasonable state of mind. To let loose a second time and not give a care in the world for whatever happened when she was done.

But she had been raised from a young age to see past it. She had to keep herself reined in. If not for Allyson, then for herself. Fists tied up into tight knots that didn’t let go as she passed the doctor on the way out. Teeth visibly gritted to expose her true feelings in full, fists pulling her back to keep her from doing anything stupid. The door closed, the doctor turned to look at Kaili.

An apology; she was sorry. Was that it? Sorry? She was just sorry?

“That’s one way to put it!” Kaili screamed at the top of her lungs. “I spent three fething days trying to retrace what I had with her, firmly believing she was dead.” She roared at this point. Did the room isolate it? Kaili wasn’t sure she cared or not at this point. The doctor would find the blonde struggling to keep herself away. A strained step forward as her fists shivered before her like a man struggling against his binds. She was holding herself back even if only barely so. She wanted to jump the doctor with fists at the ready, but she knew better.

SHE. KNEW. BETTER.

“I. MOURNED HER!” Kaili screamed as another step pushed her towards the doctor.

“I GRIEVED FOR HER.” The tears that Kaili had held back burst through her barriers en masse.

“I don’t want to hurt you, doc.” The younger blonde struggled. “But every single fibre of my being is trying to make me.”

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

The Hapan did not flinch, nor even budge the moment Kaili began to yell at her. But the guilt, that increased tenfold as she was enlightened to what exactly the blonde woman had been going through right up until the point of coming here. Hazel could only assume she had done so immediately after being called by Mister Trohn.

Her arms remained at her side, and while Hazel was fully capable of defending herself at a moment's notice, she wasn't going to. There was no doubt to anyone watching that the Hapan was intentionally leaving herself open.

As Kaili moved closer, Hazel remained where she was. One was a raging inferno, just waiting to blow and for the fists to begin flying. Whereas the other remained stationary, standing with a seemingly calm and professional presence. Though internally the Hapan was on guard, and wary. Years of being surrounded by conflict had taught her as such, that standing before someone who looked unarmed - especially someone who was clearly itching to incite violence, required you to always be cautious.

Although this was a completely different kind of battlefield.

"What else am I suppose to say, Miss Talith?" She asked, "I am sorry." And for what it was worth, the words were genuine. "I made a mistake, I thought doing that - returning her kiss, would help aid All-Miss Locke in regaining some of her memories."

She stopped as Kaili broke through her words with more shouting, hitting a crescendo at that point. Hazel hung her head slightly, closed her eyes and exhaled softly before looking at Kaili again.

"She's been trying to kill herself." Hazel spoke, stopping there to let the words sink in. "Since Miss Locke woke up, she has made two attempts to try and end her life. The first was minor and mainly involved her trying to tear off the IVs. But the second time..." She paused again. "Somehow she managed to shut off the machines monitoring her and keeping the pain away. She was willing to just let her body be wracked with that, but I managed to heal it for the most part." Hazel had slipped into professional mode, keeping to it as almost like a shield. There was no need for any more emotion being added to the mix right now.

"It's why I did what I did. Upon first seeing me, Miss Locke mistook me for the 'blonde woman' or rather you, that she had seen in her dreams. From the get go I made it a point to make it clear that I wasn't you. And just ended up making things worse - as it likely was what pushed her even further to try and take her own life." As truthful as it was, it still sure as hell sounded like an excuse from certain perspectives.

[member="Allyson Locke"] | [member="Kaili Talith"]​

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Hazel Zanteres"] // [member="Allyson Locke"]​

There was nothing that Hazel could have said that would stop the storm brewing inside of Kaili. In the end it would be impossible to apologize for having made out with someone’s fiancé, and to a degree perhaps it was an anger that Kaili had always kept buried deep inside that was simply trying to scratch its way out. Fire shot out of Kaili’s eyes as she continued to glare at the doctor as she tried to explain that she was merely trying to help Allyson regain memories. It was the worst excuse she had ever heard, one that she would have expected a doctor to know far better than to try.

But it compared very little to what she told Kaili next. The look of outright hate switched to one of horror and disbelief. Suicide, as if the world revolved around Allyson herself. It didn’t take much for anger to be shifted from one person to the other as eyes set on the patient in the bed on the other side of the soundproofed glass. She was still furious with the doctor, but to hear that Allyson had tried to kill herself was just not something Kaili could wrap her mind around.

Even if it was to be with some blonde.

To be with Kaili.

It made it even worse.

Finger pointed at Hazel without Kaili saying a single word. Lips pursed, feet moved back towards the door that swept open before Kaili turned away from the doctor and walked into the room, brisk pace placing her next to Allyson.

“What the feth is wrong with you?!” She shouted at Allyson. “Suicide? Killing yourself?!”

“There are people right here, right now that are looking up to you, who need you and treasure you and you just think you somehow have the right to kill yourself as if the entire fething galaxy revolved around you?”

Screw the amnesia overload. “That is not the Allyson I knew. That is not who you are, and that is not the woman that I fe-...” Fell in love with. Kaili swallowed the words. “-ething taught everything I knew!”

“Wallowing in your own pity when there is a whole galaxy out there?” Hand gestured at the door for dramatic effect.

“No. That ends. It ends now, you hear?” Eyes set on the doctor and then Allyson again.

“You are going to get fine, you are going to accept your treatment and then you are coming with me even if I have to force feed you the medicine with my bare goddamn hands, Allyson.”

 

[Allyson Locke]

Allyson had been on her way into a nap. She had curled up under the blankets of her bed and stared blankly at the door. She didn’t understand what was going on or why it was going on. So instead of questioning anything that was happening outside she just watched and waited for the women to return. A part of her questioned if this was the time that she needed to take a step towards ending her life, if this was the answer the universe had given her when she questioned it. If the woman in her mind was gone what was there to live for? A part of her felt empty, but when she further pondered it – the appearance of Kaili made her hesitant about it. Ignoring the urges, Allyson yawned slightly and closed her eyes.

It was then, Kaili burst through the door in a fit of energy. Her frame instantly casted a shadow over Allyson as the brunette looked up at fury incarnate. The words spout from Kaili’s lips quickly and without a moment for her to interject. Allyson took all of it and sat up in the bed and adjusted the bedding. She sat there, covered in IVs, bandages which had blood stains showing the freshness of her wounds. It had taken surgical teams to work on her damaged lungs along with other parts of her body which caught flame from the explosion. Sitting there, she took the vicious scolding. When it finally finished, Allyson looked up at Kaili with a pain that the woman had never expressed before to the other.

“To hell with the Galaxy.” She said it and inhaled deeply fighting back anything that threated to show her true emotions of her situation. “I woke up, thinking it was a different time, thinking that it was just like any other day. I came to realize that I had forgotten Force knows how much of my life. I remembered slowly that my family is dead, my mother, father and brother…gone along with my home.” Pausing, Allyson did her best to keep her tone calm, countering Kaili’s words. “Ember, the man that taught me everything I know about survival…he’s gone too. To make things worse, I have dreams.”

A bandaged hand raised from Allyson’s lap and covered her face, a head ache was setting in as she tried to recall things and absorb everything Kaili had spouted to her. So, it was how their relationship was, Kaili was her teacher and Allyson her student. Shaking her head slightly she continued. “I have dreams of a woman, I can’t remember her name, but I remember really just the color of her hair. I remember how I felt…how she made me feel.” Tears welled up in her eyes but she continued. “I don’t know who she is, but I know she’s important to me. I remember a ring and a promise and then everything after that and everything there is all a blur. Knowing my luck and track record, she’s probably dead too.” Her tone sharpened as she looked at Kaili as tears fell from her face against her will.

“So tell me what there is to live for? Tell me why I should even stay? I know it would hurt you, but Kaili you’re all I have left…and you’re just my teacher apparently…and a friend. I want to feel what I have with this girl in my dreams, I feel so complete and happy…but if she’s gone too…” Allyson’s head fell. “I…I don’t want to keep fighting anymore. It was hard enough to fight back after losing my parents and Ember. I don’t know if I can survive fighting after them again and this girl who I can’t even remember. She’s so important to me…and I can’t even fething remember her face fully or her name…I’m just tired…”

[member="Kaili Talith"] [member="Hazel Zanteres"]​

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]​

Kaili would have accepted any other answer except that. She saw Kaili in her dreams and she wasn’t even able to tell her as such.This situation was growing out of hand. Allyson looked away, at her chest.

“That is bullchit. You have me.” Kaili said and grabbed her chin to force her to look at her. “And you are all that I have. My brother almost died in the very same explosion that you were part of, he’s still critical and put under the care of my mother.” Kaili stared Allyson deep into the mirrors of her soul with a fire that prayed to the gods that she would see something in her amber eyes. A memory, anything. Tears continued to well down her cheeks with a pain she couldn’t even put to words. “My best friend is right here in this room saying she wants to die, and my other best friend — the only other person in my life, one out of three — is on her own little crusade against the Mandalorians which is an endeavour I can’t follow her with. I refuse.”

“So do you think you are alone with having no one? Do you think it’s right to kill yourself over a girl in your dreams?” Kaili shook her head. “No, and I won’t let you.” Kaili let go of Allyson’s chin. “You aren’t given the choice anymore, so stop pretending that you do.”

“Your dreams are your own, but I know with the utmost certainty that your dream girl doesn’t want you to kill yourself over this. She’d want you to live your life as you would have lived it with her. Not to live your days wishing it was your last in this miserable state, lying in a hospital bed while being a selfish idiot with no concern for anyone other than themselves.”

Furious headshake. “You know the rules now. You know what I will put you through.”

 

[Allyson Locke]

Frowning, Allyson stared at Kaili and listened. The girl was taking command of a life that wasn’t hers, but if Allyson didn’t want it, then Kaili had a right per se to take it. As much as Allyson wanted to fight it, she figured it was going to be a losing battle and in the end because she was starting to become exhausted she would lose. Shoulders slumped as she shrugged and nodded. It was how things were going to be, but she wasn’t going to just sit here and take it.

Allyson Locke was a Corellian, no one controlled a Corellian – not even when the Corellians had nowhere to call home. Her brow furrowed as she thought quietly about everything that Kaili had said. In her mind, she wanted to tell Kaili she should be with her kin, family was the most important thing and she was confused as to why the blonde would choose to looking for her than the brother. Deciding it would be wise to keep the question to herself, Allyson glanced towards Kaili and studied her face. Familiarity was written all over it, but beyond the simple memory of the workshop – Allyson couldn’t quite place why she was so familiar with her.

After studying the girl’s face, she slowly ran her eyes down the frame of the woman. She studied and as she wondered what was under the clothing a brief memory flashed of a dark room and bodies tangled. The memory wasn’t clear but she knew what was going on. Raising an eyebrow, she looked at Kaili and nodded. “Fine, I’ll do what you say.” She paused and then looked away. “Six months, if I don’t remember anything in six months. I get to do what I want with my life…whatever I want.”

[member="Kaili Talith"] [member="Hazel Zanteres"]​

 

[Kaili Talith]

[member="Allyson Locke"] // [member="Hazel Zanteres"]​

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Nothing.

Kaili sighed in frustration and let her shoulder slouch in defeat. Allyson wouldn’t remember everything overnight. It wasn’t realistic to hold on to that hope, and it wasn’t really right of Kaili to expect that of her either. Yet she could have sworn that something in the Corellian’s eye twinkled. She had something on her mind, but wouldn’t voice it. Kaili knew it but didn’t have the energy at this point to question what it was. Six months, that’s what she was granted and six months what Kaili would take.

“Okay.” She threw her hands in the air out of sheer frustration. “You get six months to remember me, starting the moment you get out from here.” Or I will throw you in the dungeon until you do. But that didn’t need to be said, and was most likely not something she would actually do at that point either. Was Kaili at her wit’s end? No doubt. Had she lost her memory? No. But had she lost her faith in a great many other things in just the short span of a few days. Who had been there for Kaili in all of this? Mara had helped her off Bespin, but beyond that what had Kaili even seen? No one. There was simply no way in hell that Kaili would agree to actually letting Allyson free after six months even if she didn’t remember a thing. She had already lost her once, she wasn’t losing her again. Not now.

She just couldn’t.

Eyes set on the doctor. The masked up pain ever so evident in the younger blonde’s eyes no matter how hard she tried to hide it behind a thin layer of being merely ‘okay.’

“What does she need until then?” Kaili asked and let her eyes set on Allyson once more. “If there is anything that can speed the process up I will pay for anything she needs whenever you need it.”

One final glance, a warning for the doctor. “And I expect you to keep up a professional approach from now on.”

 

[Hazel Zanteres]

Hazel had barely blinked before Kaili was gone from her view and had stormed back into Allyson's room. She had quickly followed, mouth opening to speak before the other blonde could. But it was to no avail, as Kaili was almost instant in her shouting.

The Hapan just remained there, standing and watching. The back and forth between the two women, one with very limited knowledge of their shared history and the other forced to not reveal it. Not matter how much it hurt.

There wasn't much more Hazel could do, at least in this specific situation. She had tried to help Allyson, but none of it had worked - and her last ditch attempt at trying to help the Corellian gleam something from her hazy dreams had made a specutacular mess of things.

In part the Hapan was glad Kaili Talith had arrived, as on one side it meant there was now a much more solid anchor for Allyson to latch on to. But on a more selfish side, it meant this whole situation would be out of Hazel's hair.

She sighed lightly, shaking her head.

That was not the type of thoughts she should be having. No matter the situation, she was still a doctor and Allyson Locke was her patient. So she stepped forwards, closer to the bed and looked back and forth between the two women.

"Nothing like that Miss Talith, we just require her to remain here for a few more days. The damage to her lungs will heal, but we'd like to monitor her for a while longer to ensure nothing else crops up. After that, she should be healthy enough to be discharged into your care." Hazel turned to look at Kaili, giving the woman a nod in response to her warning. "Of course." There was nothing more to be added to that; no fluff, just short and sharp professionalism.

[member="Allyson Locke"] | [member="Kaili Talith"]​