Wearing: Outfit,
Heels
Accessories: Bracelet,
Echo Stone
Weapon: The Purse
Tags:
Starlin Rand
Makko Vyres
Nero Drake
Corazona von Ascania
Tenn Kalos
Aymeric Prendergast
Dracken Pryce
She had taken time to steady her own thoughts, allowing the emotional barrier to slip in the confined space of her own ship. Running through a number of emotions in a wave of doubt, shame, regret, embarrassment, and grief. All of her emotions put into self-deprecating comments as she changed from the jumpsuit and robes into an outfit more appropriate for a club scene.
Pausing mid-step as she caught sight of herself against a panel. The dark circles around her eyes the only sign that she had been crying on top of already making herself near horse with the volume she had been scolding and condemning herself with.
Her hand covered the reflection of her face, trying to push back the irritation she was feeling. As if stifling her own image would give her some reprieve from the invisible scar she had opened up.
A dark thought rippling across her mind as eyes narrowed before shutting tight against the loathing that bubbled up.
Why should I feel bad? You didn't know.
A cool prickle of anger settled into her spine, eyes opening as her arm tightened against the thought. Hand slowly balling into a fist that revealed more of herself. Part of her face visible as the rosy color of one eye became an ugly yellow stain, that stared back at her with a grin.
You were on your best behavior. Miss priss decided took a jab at you. What could you have done?
"Feth off!" Voice in a hoarse scream as she reared back and struck the panel. A crease forming that broke her image in half. The yellow glaring eye still present as the other half remained true.
Her knuckled stung and burned, mirror the pain in her throat as she tried to draw in air. Her mind awash with conflicting thoughts forming into murmurs of her own voices.
You did nothing wrong. Get over yourself and move on. You can't know everything.
Her eyes closed once more, focused on breathing and pushing the intrusion back. Wondering when her own thoughts had become an enemy as she leaned her head against the panel, rubbing her knuckles while her shoulders rolled with each breath. The tension in the small of her back slowly releasing itself.
Drawing back to the lesson Tiland had shared on Dagobah and focusing on her surroundings than her own mind. Her eyes opened, letting go of thought and drawing on her surroundings. They brought little relief when another thought prodded her already sore state. She missed the sound of her little droid working. The whir of wheels against the floor panels, and the sometimes mean but constructive reminders.
She bounced her forehead against the panel with enough force to sting, reminding herself of the waiting party. A final inhale pushing the issues back and locking them behind a practiced, blank mind as she took her
speeder over to the club. It wasn't a grueling trip given the proximity, but more than once she glared at an airspeeder that decided it was more important than her.
Finding a spot in the garage as she eyed another already present. Standing and checking her hand before dabbing at her eyes. A few steps towards the exit had her spinning around and grabbing her
purse as her heels clacked against the duracrete in hurried steps.
The security at the door holding her up for a moment as her purse seemed to set off an alarm in their mind. The once over met with a cocked hip and crossed arms. Their joined inspection revealing nothing more than an alarming weight to the bag and cosmetics along with a few bandages inside.
"You want me to empty my pockets as well?" The remains of her sour mood finally expelled as they handed it back and ushered her inside. The urge to scoff resisted for the moment as she made her way inside and set about finding Makko and Cora.
And desperately trying to keep her emotions in check behind her mental barriers.