A feeling of relief came before CT-312 before she could even understand it. Unwelcomed. Unearned. Letting out a flicker of breath, she didn’t realize she was holding. ‘Freshly dead’. Not the ones buried in her memory. Her jaw slightly clenched. Why did that matter to her? Guilt, maybe. Fear. Or both. Her thoughts spun.
‘The souls of the departed are safe… protected by the Living Force.’
That sentence sat uncomfortable with CT-312, like a stone dropped in still water. Ripples, she didn’t know how to process. Her grip slightly tightened on her weapon, fingers twitching. Tilting her head, in confusion and conflict. Protected by what? The Living Force? The Princess made it sound like it was a religion. A God or spirits.
CT-312’s breath caught.
‘Do I have a soul?’
Clones weren't born. They were
made. Trained, deployed, efficient,... replaceable. CT-312 wasn’t even a clean clone. Born from leftover sequences and crossed DNA strands like spare parts on a table. A patchwork.
Leftovers. Too divergent to be a standard issue. Too stubborn to break. Too flawed to be discarded. Air puffed from her nostrils, sharp and bitter. In the end, she was tossed to the Sith Empire. Who knows when the Empire will rid of her too. Did ‘things’ like her even get souls?
Was a soul something you earned through life or was it something only real people had? What did that make her, truly? Was she no different than a Sith Spawn? A monster created. Keeping her eyes forward.
“What if you were never whole to begin with…” she murmured, the words barely forming. Something inside her shifted. Realization came. Nothing was watching over her. CT-312 was empty. A husk.
She didn’t understand any of it. The Trooper didn’t look at the Princess, behind her visor. Not wanting to see the pity–or worse, assurance. Eyes focused on the Sith Lord's hand reaching out grabbing hers. With one fluid motion, helping the Princess stand.
"Well, if I don't take fault, you're not allowed to either." She paused, "That's a direct order."
CT-312’s whole body stiffened, caught off guard by such a simple phrase. ‘That’s a direct order’. Orders the Scout understood. Orders were clean. This wasn’t. No punishment, no blame. This wasn’t how things worked. This wasn’t how
she worked. Words came out slower than usual. Hesitant.
“...As ordered, Understood.”
Standing silently as the Sith Lord spoke, not interrupting. She watched the Princess explain why she was in the Nether. Her story from the beginning. The Scout’s helmet gave nothing away, but inside. Inside, something stirred. Death, the Nether, resurrection,... a soul for a soul? None of this fitted into any protocols, field manuals, missions she’s been trained on or completed. Yet, the sincerity in the Princess’s voice. The way she spoke–it wasn’t madness. It wasn't a weakness. It was conviction.
The Scout Trooper took note of the Princess’s reactions, the nervous laugh. Especially when her eyes darted away. As if she was trying to shield herself from being seen too clearly. Those things, CT-312 understood. At that moment, the mission changed. Something had
marked the Princess. She hadn’t denied it. Instead the Princess had
accepted it. Walking straight into it, despite the fear. This wasn’t a political escort or a diplomatic errand. It was something personal. That was either brave or foolish. The Trooper found herself respecting the Princess. Not for the title or bloodline. But for the choice. A subtle twitch at the corners of CT-312’s mouth was the closest thing to a smile. No words. Remembered her fair share of dumb choices too.
Observing the Sith Lord as she faced the other direction. The Princess didn’t hesitate to move deeper into the forest after telling her story. CT-312 didn’t move right away. Her gaze lingered on the Princess’s back. Rolling her right shoulder, the Scout quietly caught up behind her. At that moment a black cat appeared. CT-312's body moved instinctively. Left hand immediately gripping the vibroblade knife from behind her belt. Pausing in completing her actions as the black space cat rubbed itself on her.
‘CAT.’ Teeth clenching, inhaling, ungrasping the knife. Watching as the creature followed the Princess.
Paying attention to their surroundings, the smell of death and rot didn’t phase CT-312 much. Maybe it was because of her helmet’s filter system or that she was so used to it. As they continued the words spoken earlier clung.
'You did a good job.'
Lingered. Even if it was a joke. It sat inside CT-312’s chest. Strange and warm and… confusing. She wasn’t used to this. Praise. Thanks. Let alone someone opening up. Sharing pieces of themselves that were meant to be held by someone else.
Not her. No one trained the Camo Trooper how to respond to these things.
Studying attentively to the Princess’s reactions. CT-312 recognized that kind of strength. Acting like she wasn’t going to break under the weight. Pretending it doesn’t bother them. Keep moving. Carry the mission.
And yet… something in the Trooper
understood.
It was the sliver of thought, uninvited and troubling that crossed CT-312's mind in that moment. That maybe she
wanted to stay with this Sith Lord longer than the mission required. The notion caught her off guard. She had just officially met the Contact. It shouldn't matter. But it bothered her. Was it because the Princess had a different demeanor of how Sith Lords and any other higher authority acted? Polished, poised, but not cruel. Curious. CT-312 grilled it into her head. It was because she was curious. Nothing more. Nothing less.
Or was it better to stay away?
Of all the deployments, this one was by far the most dangerous. Not because of death. No. The thought of death didn’t scare CT-312. Instead, this was testing her. Her identity. Her place. Her worth. It was forcing her to feel. The Princess was already in her head and CT-312 didn’t like that one bit.
A piercing echoing screech pulled CT-312 out of her deep thoughts. There was a constant itch in the back of her mind that couldn’t be scratched. The world around her felt off. Every step felt amplified, like something was clawing at her senses, trying to get in. It was a too-familiar feeling.
‘Focus.’
"Ignore the feelings. Whatever we're getting closer to is trying to shake us."
A low growl formed in CT-312’s throat. Silenced behind the modulator. This thing. This presence. She shifted her stance closer to the Princess. Not protectively. Tactically. Words escaping her mouth almost too quietly in a low, sharp and serious voice.
“If it marked you, it made a mistake.”
Demons?
With a step forward, CT-312 closed the gap. No longer following. But walking alongside the Princess.
Her voice came low, modulated through her helmet.
“Everyone has demons.” CT-312 stated rather bluntly. Shrugging her bruised right shoulder. The Scout Trooper kept her focus on the direction of the screech. Not surprised if the Princess gave her a questionable look.
“Me?” Her voice was neutral, but her mind wasn’t. Thoughts started to recall events.
The outpost. The order. The thermal detonators. Explosions that lit up the sky, taking out that
thing that killed her squad.
Gone.
Woostri. The
Force-Light behemoth golem that killed other Troopers and nearly crushed her. Denoting it and herself. Barely surviving.
Erased.
And then the angels. Those twisted, winged
Sithspawn. Shot
Dead.
“No.” tone dipped into something colder, deeper.
“I’ve killed my demons.” Her grip tightened on her weapon. Thinking about all the horrors she’s faced since doing missions for the Empire.
A beat.
‘A monster created.’ Clones didn’t have souls—especially not her. Inhaling deeply, CT-312 would be the monster demons learned to fear.
“And I’ll kill them again.” she paused. Turning her head, visor locking eyes with the Princess. Not a trace of doubt in CT-312's voice,
“I’ll kill your demon too.” A promise.
Slinging the assault rifle over her shoulder, CT-312 reached for the sniper rifle strapped across her back. Her hands were smooth. Mechanical. Muscle memory forged by repetition. She flipped the safety on with a soft
click, ejected the cartridge, and pulled back the bolt. A single round spat free. The Scout Trooper caught it midair without looking. Sliding it back into the mag with a quiet
snick, and handed the rifle to the Princess.
"Here," CT-312 said, her voice low beneath the helmet.
"You'll see farther with the scope." She hesitated for a heartbeat. A thought brushed her mind. Had the Sith Lords ever even held a blaster? From what she could recall, the Trooper doubted it.
"Forgive my intrusion." CT-312 murmured in a formal tone. Carefully, almost reluctantly, the Scout reached out with her gloved hands and adjusted the Princess's grip. Guiding them into proper placement.
"That'll make it easier to line up with the scope" She added, voice low, almost gentle.
Taking a step back from the Princess.
"It'll help you find your target faster." the edge of her voice easing.