"I really haven't done much for you. Would have been nice to do more..." Drifting off, a thought struck him, turning to Balun. "I hope your mother wished you a happy Life Day. If not..."
Balun visibly tensed, his expression turning from one of calm to obvious disbelief.
Judah Dashiell
spoke of his mother as if she were a present factor in his life, which she had never been, but the fact that he had said what he did implied that he had been in contact with her. All thoughts of
Danger Arceneau
were immediately set aside in the face of his shock, a mere sentence that held such revelation, he hadn't anticipated in the slightest. Why would his Mother, whoever she was, wish him a happy life day? She'd never even entered his life.
He seemed to be staring off at nothing in particular, tunnel-visioned as he wrestled with his thoughts and the urge to say something horrendous and inappropriate. Were he still a boy, he would have, yet he had grown and matured. His restraint in that moment was evidence of his progress in life. Much of which was largely, if not entirely, credited to his father, who had been his sole role model. Or at the very least, the only role model Balun had ever accepted and looked up to, before meeting
Ala Quin
.
"I've never met her. You know that" Balun spoke up after a difficult and seemingly eternal silence;
"After twenty-three life days missed, why would the twenty-fourth be any different?" he asked rhetorically. The question was one he had thought he knew the answer to, up until this moment, yet now his words echoed with expectation, unable to ignore the feeling that his father had something to tell him on the matter.
This wasn't supposed to be a conversation about Balun, though. He wanted to give his time to his father, to voice his continued interest and care in his father's life, just as Judah had been so invested in his and Makai's. He had hoped to show that it was now a two-way street, that Balun wasn't a kid anymore and could be there to care for Judah, whether he accepted it or not.
"Y'know what, don't answer that", he decided quickly, speaking up once more before his father could reply;
"This isn't about my Mom. She's had plenty of chances. I'm here for you", he reiterated. Balun even sounded convincing, confident that he couldn't give a damn about whoever the woman who birthed him had been. Judah had been there; he was someone who mattered.
"I don't know what you and Danger went through, and I don't know her well enough to be any kind of judge when it comes to personal relationships. It just seems like she's still the one that got away" he shrugged a little, leaning back into his chair once more and taking another swig from his bourbon.
"As you know, I'm the last person who should be giving out relationship advice so rest assured I have none to offer. I'd just like to see you with someone you deserve. Someone who appreciates all the chit you do".