Yasha Cadera
Mom'alor
Grief is a confounding condition of sentient beings. Whomever one pretends or displays themselves as, grief does sneak up and bite - in its way. [member="Mikhail Shorn"] and I left Annaj behind shaken and shorn up by the precious seconds of bliss we've found inside each others' lives. It's a conundrum of an alliance: One of affection and mutual flippancy of direction and somewhere along the months since our first meeting it gained a strength akin to my lover's Phrik armour. I leave Mikha in bed and pad out of the Sumatiyara's main bedroom as I often do when it's late of cycle and my mind is troubled.
Troubled.
Scant syllables wrapped around the helix of events spun into and out of motion by my rising weight gain and penchant for pickles. I pull a chersilk shawl across my thin shoulders and walk toward my chapel and enter the small remodelled bedroom to see Bucket lighting incense for the holder by the Goddess Shiraya. "Saying your midnight prayers, Bucks?"
"Mmmh. Felt right, what with Tus all broken and Tyr all being put back together. Told them... promised that I'd come. It stupid for a Droid to have faith in something, Boss?" I look Bucket over, the ill fitting of his suit over metal plates, the way his one eye socket whirs and whorls as he looks at me, evaluating seventy six different physical markers to calculate into a knowledgeable qualification on how I am and I see the droid companion for what he is: artificial life.
Life, nonetheless. I put my hand on Bucket's shoulder and rest my temple against my hand. "Tyr and Tus still have their bits. They'll be back in working order quick as a jiff. . . prayers help. They always help. I'm proud of you, Bucket. You've come a long way from a piece of stock from Jared's shelves."
"I'm just a machine."
"We're all machines depending on the definition." I smile and I feel the droid's shoulder rotors releasing, arms lowering an inch or two. The equivalent of a droid-sigh. "Want some company, Boss?"
"[member="Rave Merrill"] disappeared today. She's not coming back." My lips quirk, I feel the wellspring pooling up over my eyelids and I smile with a closed mouth as I light four sticks of incense and put them in the handcrafted metal bowl under the statue of the Goddess of Compassion. "Couldn't claim to be a friend, but I knew her. I grieve her nonetheless. I was there when she fought Circe, she was collected. Calm. A young woman bursting at the seems to relieve the burden of the Kaggath. I'd never seen one before." I sniff and Bucket holds out his hand to help me kneel on a handwoven carpet in the tiny Chapel.
I wove the carpet as I weave my words. This room is my sanctuary and my temple. I clap my hands and slide them over my red silk clad thighs to the thick, scratching carpet beneath. My shawl rests over my hair and I press my forehead to the ground in this, my most private of places.
"Goddess of Compassion I come before you, your daughter. Blessed of your holy providence I come bearing the grief of souls passing beyond the river of your cognizance. Hear me, my heart is heavy. Bear them up to the undying Force, may they find the peace and beauty of compassionate arms.
Guide Rave Merrill on her travels to a life past decision and time. Grant her the peace and the perfection she sought. Shine upon her. Rescue and respite her. May the parting evolve from the bitter end of lost friends to the consolation of pure joy. Carry her, when she cannot carry herself." My voice chokes. My chest heaves. I slide a hand to my stomach and grit my teeth.
"God. . Goddess." I hiss and feel the salt-tang of tears soaking into the woollen carpet. Bucket's servomotors sound and I hear his knee and ankle joints bending until the rustle of his mechanical body kneels beside my frail, human skin. He tugs the shawl back on my head, mechanical hand retreating elsewhere. I gulp down the lump in my throat, my inner gaze pausing on the docile vacancy which fetched Warren [member="Valik"] 's eyes in his lab. His neck goes askew, his body falls as if he'd slipped unceremoniously on the wet ground.
"Oh my Goddess, there aren't enough prayers for this man. Goddess of Compassion, I lift Warren Vali-.. W-warren. I barely knew him. I barely knew him, but he shook me, Holy Mother of Compassion, I cannot find his spirit to offer you, I search and search for him through the Force both Living and Constant and I cannot find him. Rescue him. Dear Goddess, I can't leave him on that floor."
I have more prayers to say, but this? Tonight the ache of Warren's murder is dearest. In the aching silence I hear a whisper. My fingers cling to the fabric covering my torso and I search the whisper for an answer to the disappearance of Valik's soul.
Troubled.
Scant syllables wrapped around the helix of events spun into and out of motion by my rising weight gain and penchant for pickles. I pull a chersilk shawl across my thin shoulders and walk toward my chapel and enter the small remodelled bedroom to see Bucket lighting incense for the holder by the Goddess Shiraya. "Saying your midnight prayers, Bucks?"
"Mmmh. Felt right, what with Tus all broken and Tyr all being put back together. Told them... promised that I'd come. It stupid for a Droid to have faith in something, Boss?" I look Bucket over, the ill fitting of his suit over metal plates, the way his one eye socket whirs and whorls as he looks at me, evaluating seventy six different physical markers to calculate into a knowledgeable qualification on how I am and I see the droid companion for what he is: artificial life.
Life, nonetheless. I put my hand on Bucket's shoulder and rest my temple against my hand. "Tyr and Tus still have their bits. They'll be back in working order quick as a jiff. . . prayers help. They always help. I'm proud of you, Bucket. You've come a long way from a piece of stock from Jared's shelves."
"I'm just a machine."
"We're all machines depending on the definition." I smile and I feel the droid's shoulder rotors releasing, arms lowering an inch or two. The equivalent of a droid-sigh. "Want some company, Boss?"
"[member="Rave Merrill"] disappeared today. She's not coming back." My lips quirk, I feel the wellspring pooling up over my eyelids and I smile with a closed mouth as I light four sticks of incense and put them in the handcrafted metal bowl under the statue of the Goddess of Compassion. "Couldn't claim to be a friend, but I knew her. I grieve her nonetheless. I was there when she fought Circe, she was collected. Calm. A young woman bursting at the seems to relieve the burden of the Kaggath. I'd never seen one before." I sniff and Bucket holds out his hand to help me kneel on a handwoven carpet in the tiny Chapel.
I wove the carpet as I weave my words. This room is my sanctuary and my temple. I clap my hands and slide them over my red silk clad thighs to the thick, scratching carpet beneath. My shawl rests over my hair and I press my forehead to the ground in this, my most private of places.
"Goddess of Compassion I come before you, your daughter. Blessed of your holy providence I come bearing the grief of souls passing beyond the river of your cognizance. Hear me, my heart is heavy. Bear them up to the undying Force, may they find the peace and beauty of compassionate arms.
Guide Rave Merrill on her travels to a life past decision and time. Grant her the peace and the perfection she sought. Shine upon her. Rescue and respite her. May the parting evolve from the bitter end of lost friends to the consolation of pure joy. Carry her, when she cannot carry herself." My voice chokes. My chest heaves. I slide a hand to my stomach and grit my teeth.
"God. . Goddess." I hiss and feel the salt-tang of tears soaking into the woollen carpet. Bucket's servomotors sound and I hear his knee and ankle joints bending until the rustle of his mechanical body kneels beside my frail, human skin. He tugs the shawl back on my head, mechanical hand retreating elsewhere. I gulp down the lump in my throat, my inner gaze pausing on the docile vacancy which fetched Warren [member="Valik"] 's eyes in his lab. His neck goes askew, his body falls as if he'd slipped unceremoniously on the wet ground.
"Oh my Goddess, there aren't enough prayers for this man. Goddess of Compassion, I lift Warren Vali-.. W-warren. I barely knew him. I barely knew him, but he shook me, Holy Mother of Compassion, I cannot find his spirit to offer you, I search and search for him through the Force both Living and Constant and I cannot find him. Rescue him. Dear Goddess, I can't leave him on that floor."
I have more prayers to say, but this? Tonight the ache of Warren's murder is dearest. In the aching silence I hear a whisper. My fingers cling to the fabric covering my torso and I search the whisper for an answer to the disappearance of Valik's soul.