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Private Moving Forward and not looking back

The nice Vanagor died, now you get me.
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Veridia
Jedi Temple



Michael, Gabriel, Azrael, Sariel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel, Raguel
[Any text in brackets signifies comm-link usage and not face to face conversation]
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He didn’t call ahead.

He didn’t ask.

Still, Connel knew he was here.

Braze.

The Echani turncoat. No, he doesn’t know what the Echani went through, and frankly if you told him, it wouldn’t matter. He may very well be the GREATEST Jedi of the entire Light right now, he has the potential for it. However, in Connel’s eyes, and admittedly probably no one else’s, he had a lot of work to do, in order to make up for taking down the shield generators on Coruscant.

That, however, was a conversation for another day.

Right now, he was here to see the warrior. To keep a promise, and to close off something from his list.

“Knight Vanagor. Are you here…”

Cutting the Padawan off, Connel spoke up. I apologize for my curtness but I am looking for the Echani Braze… I have never known him by his last name… perhaps Kai’el? He knew that Braze and Master Kai’el were very close.

 


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The would be padawan was no one's padawan but a wayward hopeful that lived here with other wayward force users such as Jackie Rosso Jackie Rosso 0-7 0-7 and Roten Roten .

The oddly colored togruta crossed his arms and tilted his head looking Connel Vanagor Connel Vanagor over from head to toe then back again.

"Braze isn't here. Knight Kai'el took his padawan Leos Leos and Knight Loomi Loomi about eight miles to the South East from the main barrier wall. You will find them on the tall tree beach. They have been there for the last week. "
 
The nice Vanagor died, now you get me.
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Jedi Temple



Michael, Gabriel, Azrael, Sariel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel, Raguel
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How was father so patient?

Connel wanted to punch the Togruta for the look he was being given, like being sized up. Even if unintentional, the purported snarkyness of this kid was putting him in a worse mood. Admittedly, he was going into this situation wrong, but still. Your information is appreciated, I will head that way. If they contact you, or vice versa, please let them know I am on my way. Not to intrude or cause any issue. I won’t be long.

Pressing his Comm-link. He spoke into it. BRAD, please send my bike to my location.

A beep whirring “Sure thing! On the way!” came back from the astromech.

Moments later the sleek speederbike rolled up and he hopped on. Not letting himself be a jerk, he simply said Thanks again. and was slowly pulling off. Pulling up a map on his helmet HUD, he went to follow it.

 
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Braze was, in fact, nearly eight miles away, already hard at work on the new structures of the Tidewatch Aerie. It was early in the morning still, the cliffs still wrapped in cool mist, and he had chosen to let the others rest while he worked. There was a quiet artistry to his labor; through the Force, every movement became an elegant expression of precision and control. What might have taken a dozen workers, he accomplished alone, boards and beams rising, shifting, and locking into place at the beck of his will.

He was currently assembling the sweeping decks that would serve as the foundation for the coastal farms, broad, tiered platforms that would stretch over the shallows where crabs and clams would one day thrive.

The sea stretched endlessly before him, an ever-shifting mirror of turquoise and silver that caught the dawn light like molten glass. Wind rolled in from the horizon carrying the salt-sweet breath of the deep.

Below the Tidewatch cliffs, the waves broke in slow thunder against the ancient stone foundations, their spray casting faint rainbows across the rising sun. Above, tall sequoia maples grew impossibly from the cliffside ledges, their copper-red trunks twisting through stone like old guardians, roots gripping the rock in sculpted defiance. Dew-damp leaves glittered with the same gold as the morning sky.

Braze stood upon the half-finished decks, where planks of sun-bleached timber and carved stone met in elegant symmetry. Every beam floated at his gesture, each bolt turning of its own accord as the Force flowed through his movements, art and architecture entwined. The structure unfurled like a living thing: terraces layered down the cliff face toward the surf, curving to form the shallow pens where crabs and clams would thrive beneath the tidal nets.

The air smelled of resin, brine, and distant rain. Seabirds cried overhead, their wings flashing white and gray as they circled the heights. The whole scene pulsed with quiet life, the hum of the Force through wood and water, the whisper of leaves, the rhythmic crash of the sea.... It was very peaceful here and breathtakingly beautiful.

To the west, beyond the highest ridge, the roofs of Tidewatch Aerie gleamed faintly, stone and crystal glass domes capped with metal, bridges laced between them like ribbons. And though he worked alone, the place did not feel empty. Every beam he raised sang faintly with connection, each line of the Aerie extending the living bond between the cliffs, the ocean, and the people who would one day call it home.

He spotted the bike in the distance and paused his work on the docks setting aside the materials and made his way down to the beach.
 
The nice Vanagor died, now you get me.
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Veridia
Jedi Temple



Michael, Gabriel, Azrael, Sariel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel, Raguel
[Any text in brackets signifies comm-link usage and not face to face conversation]
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The air smelled of salt and smoke.

Not the acrid kind from war, not anymore — the soft kind, from campfires and brine and resin. The kind that clings to old wood and memory. He rode until the sand became too soft to do so. Sure, he could have switched to “hover” but that could have caused ecological issues, and he was not going to do that. Vanagor was in enough of a mood to have to deal with backlash.

Connel trudged through the coarse sand, boots sinking half an inch with each step. The rhythmic crash of the waves wasn’t peaceful; it was maddeningly constant. He had always hated stillness that pretended to be calm. It reminded him of the eye of a storm — quiet on the surface, violent beneath.

The wind whipped at his cloak, carrying with it the hum of his saber’s emitter against his hip — a sound that felt too loud in this silence, this is why he hated cloaks… too “flappy”. His eyes tracked silhouettes ahead. Someone was there.

Braze.

The Echani.

The one who’d turned his back on everything and somehow lived to tell about it.

Connel’s jaw clenched as he climbed over a dune, the datadisk a heavy weight in his hand — though it couldn’t have weighed more than a few grams. His father’s final promise, wrapped up in a piece of data and trust. That was the only reason he was here. Not for Braze. Not for redemption. Just a delivery.

The beach opened wide before him — a patchwork of driftwood, fishing nets, and makeshift shelters. It was a hermit’s paradise, or a coward’s exile, depending on who was telling the story.

He stopped on the ridge, letting the wind buffet his armor. Part of him wanted Braze to feel his presence — to sense the edge in it. The other part wanted to finish this quietly and leave before the ghosts started whispering again.

Every step forward stirred up old anger. He had nearly lost himself once — to darkness, to command, to blind purpose — and here stood a man who had. And instead of facing judgment, he got to sit by the sea and meditate while the galaxy burned.

Connel exhaled slowly through his nose. The sound was half a growl.

“This isn’t about him,” he muttered under his breath, just to hear the words out loud. “It’s about Father.”

He walked on.

Closer now — the smell of resin was thick, the hiss of faint, extinguished fires mixing with the sea breeze. A figure stood beside the water, silver hair gleaming like the moon reflected on the tide. Braze hadn’t moved. Either he didn’t sense Connel, or he didn’t care.

Connel stopped a few meters away, the surf licking at his boots. For a heartbeat, he thought of turning back — of leaving the datadisk in the sand and letting the waves decide where it went. But that wasn’t how his father would’ve done it.

He reached into his cloak and held the disk up to the light. The faint blue shimmer reflected against his gauntlet, casting his own face in ghostly hues.

Caltin Vanagor made a promise, he said quietly to no one but the sea. And I’m here to keep it.

Then he started forward, the tide rolling over his tracks behind him.



 
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The small form that was Braze was noticeably dressed in Black and White attire. The pale Echani had very clean-looking skin and rougher hair, presumably affected by increased time spent in the salt water. He was small and delicate-looking, almost like an Astrisian Porcelain Doll.

Braze could feel the approach from nearly a hundred yards away. He turned those jade-green eyes toward the figure. He discerned who it was visually, as he was unfamiliar with the presence.

The white sand beaches were littered with fallen petals of rich pinks, soft violets, golden yellows, and vibrant oranges that flittered down from the flowering forests along the cliffside. The sand was incredibly soft beneath his stride, making the trek perhaps... annoying in boots.

Braze didn't really know much about Connel Vanagor Connel Vanagor , and he hadn't recalled seeing him at the New Jedi Order's Tribunal, when what was left of the New Jedi Order had gathered to pass judgment after the whole truth of what happened came out. Braze was initially wary of why someone like Connel Vanagor Connel Vanagor would come all this way to the galaxy's edge to find him.

Whatever the case, he took a few steady breaths and let them go slowly, relaxing into the flow. The Force was unusually strong here within the Land of Flowers....it was soothing, almost unnervingly so, with how easy it was to become entranced by the odd Nexus of Veridia. It put him at ease even as the man approached. Braze offered a simple yet cordial bow in greeting, drawing a fist up to meet an open hand.

"Didn't think I'd have company today, much less a Vanagor...You came a long way, Connel..." He looked at the object in his hand. "Your father was a better man than most. He built things that lasted." Braze looked back toward the Aerie rising from the cliffs off in the distance, crowning the maple sequoias. "That's what I'm doing now. Building. Do you know what's on that disk?" Braze asked curiously.

 
The nice Vanagor died, now you get me.
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Michael, Gabriel, Azrael, Sariel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel, Raguel
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There was something his father used to say…

Heh… when was there not...

Something about forgiveness… why couldn’t he think about it right now? Truth be told, Connel felt reprehensible thoughts about the Echani in front of him. However the will to act on them, or even speak on them was not there, at least not with ill intent. It was annoying, it was self-defeating, but ultimately it was who he was.

The guy wasted no time in talking. Connel didn’t care why he was here, he didn’t ask, but that was neither here nor there. The man was fighting something within himself, and Vanagor could see it. So really anything he might have come here to do was pointless, as clearly, Braze was doing it to himself. He was wrong though, Caltin was a better man than everyone.

I’m not going to mince words. I hope you are finding the solace you are looking for. My father… he believed that “Redemption is never truly out of reach, you just have to reach for it…” THAT’S what he said! ... I make no bones that I feel you should be on a prison planet, or have the Force stripped of you, but it’s clear you are trying. So I can still remember what happened… but Light shines even in Darkness… so I can let my feelings go…

Looking down at the datadisk, he held it up. This is a datadisk of the remaining tiers of "Way of the Saber" (Saber Kata) the style of combat my father taught you. It is encoded only to you, so if it is stolen, it is useless to them.


 
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Braze tilted his head briefly at that... "Redemption is a becoming. A renewal of self being made whole... It's to be made whole again, and given the forgiveness and grace that follow a sincere change.

But I'm not seeking redemption... nor am I interested in the judgments of those who condemn what they'll never understand.
I did the best I could with what I had, as I was forcibly made a victim. The Force knows the truth of my intent, even if the Order doesn't.

I was violated; mentally, and spiritually... My autonomy was taken. My instincts rewritten.
It left me hollowed out with shame and fear, and a fracture so deep that I can barely tell where I end and what they made of me begins.

Now I have to rebuild trust in my own hands, in my own mind, and in the Force that still lingers within me.
I fear what sleeps inside... and what could wake if I ever lose control again.

Atonement means making right, when you chose to do wrong. But I didn't choose.
I was forced; bent by conditioning, commanded by will not my own. It wasn't my will that struck out, only my hands that obeyed.

Still, the memory and actions are mine. And because it's mine, the healing must be, too.

Regardless of my part in all of it, the damage is real. I will carry that truth. I will take responsibility for what I am accountable for ... not through guilt, but through honor for consequence.

I'm not asking to be forgiven. I'm learning to live freely and to heal myself in order to act by my own will, and not by the ghosts that once pulled the strings.

The Order prides itself on its wisdom, but too often it hides ignorance behind ceremony. They see through the Force easily, yet refuse to see through each other's eyes. The Order preaches balance, yet fears the weight of its own shadow. They teach serenity, yet banish those who struggle to find it. They worship the Light so fiercely they've forgotten what makes it shine. They conflate compassion with control. When power frightens them, they call it darkness, and when pain humbles them, they call it weakness.


Exile is mercy in their eyes, but in truth it is a way to wash their hands of what they do not understand. They preach unity, but the moment someone falters, they push them beyond the walls and call it justice. They confuse silence for peace, and yet peace isn't the absence of conflict. I have learned it is the courage to face conflict, no matter how uncertain the odds.

The Order is not the Light alone, but a single lantern adrift upon the sea. The moment they forgot that, their fire began to dim. They hold the Force like a leash when it was meant to be a river. I will walk where the current takes me, even if it carries me beyond their sight."


Every breath of what the small Echani said was spoken with calm conviction.

"You say I should be imprisoned or stripped of the Force, but you can't cage what was never yours to command. You've made peace with what happened in your own way, and I'm glad for that. But my peace for me won't come from seeking redemption or punishment. My peace doesn't depend on external absolution. It will come from learning how to live with what happened.

Your father's teachings helped shaped who I have become. But I can't be his student anymore, nor the New Jedi Order's. So I'll take your father's wisdom, and the datadisk, and I'll carry them both as memories of what the Light used to mean."
 
The nice Vanagor died, now you get me.
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Veridia
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Michael, Gabriel, Azrael, Sariel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel, Raguel
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This was never meant to be a friendly conversation, cordial at best. So Connel could not be all that surprised at the Echani’s response.The Echani had always been a proud and reserved people, and their responses often carried an edge that could catch others off guard. Connel had expected as much, but the sharpness in the reply still gave him pause, reinforcing the tension that hung in the air. It was also not the purpose of his appearance.

He reminded himself that this was not about him.

This was not about Braze, either.

This was about the wishes of his father.

I’m not here to argue, or make accusations. I would not do that anyway. I am here to honor the wishes of a man who felt you deserved this. Holding out the datadisk, he exhaled slightly. This was never about you, this was never about me, this was about him.

One of the last “real” Jedi… At least we can agree on the failings of the Order. This was not a cordial call, nor was he trying to find common ground, but this was the nature of life.


 
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Braze didn't wish to argue with the man but offered a correction born of compassion.

"I think that's where you're wrong.... It will always be about 'us'... about the choices we make, and what's left behind after the fact."

He turned the datadisk over in his hand, studying what was literally left behind... lessons for others to learn and follow, even in the wake of the man's passing.

"Your father was one of the few who looked at me and saw more than the sum of my parts. I won't forget that. I'm sorry he's gone."

Braze slipped the datadisk into the inner breast pocket of his coat and bowed his head to Connel Vanagor Connel Vanagor .

"Thank you. You have done what was asked of you. "

 
The nice Vanagor died, now you get me.
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Michael, Gabriel, Azrael, Sariel, Raphael, Jeremiel, Connel, Raguel
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Braze was dismissing him. That was fine, not unexpected. He really did not want to be there, and it was clear that the Echani was not wanting to be interrogated, or judged anymore. There was enough of that. There was a time when moving forward that you had to stop looking back. Something “Dad” was good at.

Heh, still teaching…

He was good at that. Also good at living up, or at least trying to live up to the example that he thought should be set. Turning, as if about to leave, he exhaled. Perhaps one day, I’ll learn it myself.

Connel wasn’t being down on himself, just realizing his Father’s legacy while staying out of the shadow. He was determined to carve out his own path, honoring his father's achievements while proving he could succeed on his own terms. By embracing his individuality, Connel aimed to build a legacy that reflected his unique strengths and values, separate from the expectations imposed by others. It started here. He’s a good judge of character, and I’m done being angry. You have a right to walk your own path, we all do. I meant what I said, but another thing my father used to say is … “The Past should be remembered. Not Relived.” Not a perfect way of saying “move forward”... but I hope your path leads you to your best existence. May the Force be with you.


 

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