The Mentor
He would lower his blade once she would ask her long question, signalling that it was the end of the duel since she seemed more concerned about his facial expressions then the battle itself. A curious mind was fine, of course. Knowledge was power. Knowledge was a key thing for a Jedi to covet. There was no reason to inhibit the gaining of knowledge when they could simply spar another time.
"I'm a warrior, Padawan. While I try to avoid battle if I can help it, preferring non-violent methods to situations as Jedi should... I feel my heart beating wildly as I battle, and I'll admit I love it. But... Juyo. Vaapad. They can be good for those who know to use them, use... But they're dangerous. They require the use of aggression, of emotions, of a yearning that not all Jedi can handle. Jedi are taught about it, yes, in order to deal with it if it comes up. But to be taught it directly for offense is rare."
He took a breath and looked her over.
"Rarer still for a Padawan."
That was it, really. He questioned the logic of, even if she was Echani, for her to be taught to use it directly at her current level.
"It's risky" He remarked bluntly. "Echani or not. If the Padawan fits the style, that's something for them to look into when they hit Knighthood. When they're at a point where the risk is less and they know better how to regulate their desires, regulate their emotions, know restraint. Otherwise... Well, it's as I told you before. Losing control is far too easy, especially for a Padawan."
"But..." He began, and scratched his head. "I'll trust your Master's judgement. If it leads you to ruin, then they'll answer for it. As, obviously, will you."
He would pace the room a moment, collecting his thoughts. He would deactivate his blade and then look back at her.
"All I can offer is advice. Be cautious at all times. And never, never overestimate your abilities or your capabilities. Your bit about being Echani so you know you can handle it? Take that out of your head. Overconfidence will ruin you. It can ruin any Jedi. Retain caution, find your limits. Otherwise... The path of a Vaapad user is a very risky one, one that walks a fine line between light and dark. If I'm being honest with you, it confounds me as to why your Master would allow you to use it offensively at your current state. Especially when your mind is clearly clouded due to the situation with your lover. It just seems like a recipe for disaster to me, and the last thing I want to see is for it to lead to your downfall. Or worse, your fall in another matter."
The next words were blunt, but it was clear that he said it because he cared and wanted nothing to happen to her. It was clear in his tone of voice, even if strict - but moreso in his eyes. His eyes always betrayed his thoughts.
"The last thing I want to do is to have to strike down another Jedi, turned or not. I never want to go through that. Never again."
He looked to his lightsaber for a moment before returning it to his belt.
"I almost had to strike down my own Padawan not long ago. Impatience, lack of caution, thinking he could take things that he really could not. I almost lost him. There is generally a way to come back from the path... But it's not easy. Sometimes, it's impossible. That's a close call I do not wish to repeat, and certainly not a close call, or worse, that I want to see befall anyone else.
Just... Do me a favor, and be careful, alright? I'm not asking this as a superior, as a Jedi Master, as any of that. I'm asking you as a friend, to take caution, never overestimate yourself or your abilities, and be patient. I'm not saying to give up Juyo or Vaapad, but... Learn your limits. Know your limits. And know when you need more training and more instruction before you can trust yourself to apply it in the field. You're dealing with dangerous elements, Padawan. Echani or not, it's incredibly risky. And even as a Knight, or Master... The risk remains. The only thing that keeps us safe should we use it, is knowledge. Control. Restraint. Patience. Knowing ourselves and our limits inside and out. When we lose our control... We become but monsters. We become the things that the Jedi exist to fight, to protect people from. The things you wish to protect people from."
He didn't approve of the path she had chosen at her current stage. But he'd trust her to see it through and come through better for it. He just hoped that what advice he could offer would benefit her. He knew by people he'd worked with how dangerous Vaapad and Juyo were... And he'd seen the best of them fall to temptation, fall to what it brought out of you... And in turn, fall to a dark path that not many can walk away from once they had started on it. In a way, he just wanted to protect her. Even if he was coming off as strict without meaning to.
But... Whatever got the message across. And whatever kept her from making a mistake that could cost her. Jedi didn't have a lot of room for mistakes on the field. Sith didn't let them make mistakes. One generally led to a lightsaber in the gut.
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"I'm a warrior, Padawan. While I try to avoid battle if I can help it, preferring non-violent methods to situations as Jedi should... I feel my heart beating wildly as I battle, and I'll admit I love it. But... Juyo. Vaapad. They can be good for those who know to use them, use... But they're dangerous. They require the use of aggression, of emotions, of a yearning that not all Jedi can handle. Jedi are taught about it, yes, in order to deal with it if it comes up. But to be taught it directly for offense is rare."
He took a breath and looked her over.
"Rarer still for a Padawan."
That was it, really. He questioned the logic of, even if she was Echani, for her to be taught to use it directly at her current level.
"It's risky" He remarked bluntly. "Echani or not. If the Padawan fits the style, that's something for them to look into when they hit Knighthood. When they're at a point where the risk is less and they know better how to regulate their desires, regulate their emotions, know restraint. Otherwise... Well, it's as I told you before. Losing control is far too easy, especially for a Padawan."
"But..." He began, and scratched his head. "I'll trust your Master's judgement. If it leads you to ruin, then they'll answer for it. As, obviously, will you."
He would pace the room a moment, collecting his thoughts. He would deactivate his blade and then look back at her.
"All I can offer is advice. Be cautious at all times. And never, never overestimate your abilities or your capabilities. Your bit about being Echani so you know you can handle it? Take that out of your head. Overconfidence will ruin you. It can ruin any Jedi. Retain caution, find your limits. Otherwise... The path of a Vaapad user is a very risky one, one that walks a fine line between light and dark. If I'm being honest with you, it confounds me as to why your Master would allow you to use it offensively at your current state. Especially when your mind is clearly clouded due to the situation with your lover. It just seems like a recipe for disaster to me, and the last thing I want to see is for it to lead to your downfall. Or worse, your fall in another matter."
The next words were blunt, but it was clear that he said it because he cared and wanted nothing to happen to her. It was clear in his tone of voice, even if strict - but moreso in his eyes. His eyes always betrayed his thoughts.
"The last thing I want to do is to have to strike down another Jedi, turned or not. I never want to go through that. Never again."
He looked to his lightsaber for a moment before returning it to his belt.
"I almost had to strike down my own Padawan not long ago. Impatience, lack of caution, thinking he could take things that he really could not. I almost lost him. There is generally a way to come back from the path... But it's not easy. Sometimes, it's impossible. That's a close call I do not wish to repeat, and certainly not a close call, or worse, that I want to see befall anyone else.
Just... Do me a favor, and be careful, alright? I'm not asking this as a superior, as a Jedi Master, as any of that. I'm asking you as a friend, to take caution, never overestimate yourself or your abilities, and be patient. I'm not saying to give up Juyo or Vaapad, but... Learn your limits. Know your limits. And know when you need more training and more instruction before you can trust yourself to apply it in the field. You're dealing with dangerous elements, Padawan. Echani or not, it's incredibly risky. And even as a Knight, or Master... The risk remains. The only thing that keeps us safe should we use it, is knowledge. Control. Restraint. Patience. Knowing ourselves and our limits inside and out. When we lose our control... We become but monsters. We become the things that the Jedi exist to fight, to protect people from. The things you wish to protect people from."
He didn't approve of the path she had chosen at her current stage. But he'd trust her to see it through and come through better for it. He just hoped that what advice he could offer would benefit her. He knew by people he'd worked with how dangerous Vaapad and Juyo were... And he'd seen the best of them fall to temptation, fall to what it brought out of you... And in turn, fall to a dark path that not many can walk away from once they had started on it. In a way, he just wanted to protect her. Even if he was coming off as strict without meaning to.
But... Whatever got the message across. And whatever kept her from making a mistake that could cost her. Jedi didn't have a lot of room for mistakes on the field. Sith didn't let them make mistakes. One generally led to a lightsaber in the gut.
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