Believe it or not, Eloise did have a heart.
And to her credit, she could admit her faults. She knew she had taken things too far during the conclave. By the time
Ala Quin
put her foot down, she knew she deserved it.
What she hadn't counted on was that her actions would result in both her
and Amani being kicked out of the meeting. Amani didn't deserve that. It made Eloise even more angry at the Grandmaster, but it also made her turn her anger inward.
Why am I like this?
It was a question she had asked herself many times. There was only so much she could blame on her parents. Was this just who she was? Sharp-tongued, abrasive, bitchy. Someone who snarled and growled and spat at people like an animal. She was angry all the time, and half the time she didn't even know why.
Maybe there was something wrong with her. Being the student of a healer, she knew such cases weren't unheard of among Force Users. It could be mental illness, or a hormonal imbalance, or something genetic... No. She was trying to find an excuse. There was no excuse for it.
She needed to find Amani. If Amani got mad or punished her, that was okay. She was used to it. But she needed... someone. The presence of another being who didn't hate her guts or think she was just an annoying brat. Should probably apologize, too. For all the good it would do.
Amani was sitting on a landing platform outside the Naboo Temple. She didn't notice Eloise approaching until her shadow fell over her.
"Oh, Eloise… Sorry, I was distracted."
"
You always are."
Damn it, I didn't mean it that way--
"...
But that's understandable. You're a queen, a healer, a wife, a mother, and the leader of a Jedi Enclave all at once."
Nice save. "
Honestly, I don't know how you're still able to function."
"Did you meet with Quin?"
"
Yep." Eloise sighed, dropping down to sit next to her master. "
Do you want the details?"
