April's hands lingered over the holo long after the message dimmed, her reflection ghosted in the glass. Dinner on Coruscant. An unknown sender. A risk too great for any Knight to consider.
And yet…
She stood abruptly, crossing to her wardrobe. The doors slid open with a soft hiss, revealing folded tunics, simple travel cloaks, and training gear. She pulled one bag from the shelf, the kind she used for missions—unmarked, discreet. Piece by piece, she began to pack.
Standard robes. Boots. A weatherproof cloak. Practical garments, easy to justify if questioned.
But her hand didn't stop there. Her fingers brushed over a smaller bundle wrapped in silk, hidden toward the back. She unrolled it slowly, revealing something she hadn't touched in years: an outfit of sultry black lingerie, delicate fabric threaded with shimmer. Too delicate for her station. Too revealing for her vows.
April hesitated, heart pounding. Why would she even—?
Her throat tightened.
Why do I feel compelled to bring this?
She sat back on the bed, the lingerie draped across her lap, the weight of it almost accusatory. She closed her eyes, reaching into the current of the Force. Seeking clarity. Guidance.
At first, there was only static. Her restless pulse, her uneven breath. But then the deeper truth pressed against her mind like a whisper carried on wind:
You are craving.
Not food. Not rest. But touch. Sensual. Raw. A connection that training never spoke of and discipline never nurtured.
Her eyes opened, blue irises trembling under the dim light.
It struck her with sudden clarity. The flutter in her stomach, the heat beneath her skin—this wasn't born from the message alone. It had been seeded already, the moment Grandmaster
Pahul Vitorbreeze
hand lingered on her thigh, the way his smile had dared her to wonder. He had cracked something open inside her, something she had buried beneath years of silence and secrets.
April pressed the lingerie back into the bundle, hands shaking, then slid it into her pack. She hated herself for it—yet she couldn't leave it behind.
The Force gave no condemnation. Only silence.
And that silence was worse than judgment.