Kitter Bitters
Creator of the Bitterverse
I recently made a post reflecting on how much I've grown as a roleplayer. Looking back, I realize I was wrong. I still have a great deal of growing left to do, both as a writer and as a person.
In the span of just two days, I managed to deeply upset several people I genuinely care about. None of it was intentional, but I understand that intention doesn't erase impact. I am sincerely sorry for the things I've said and done. It hurts to recognize that, despite wanting to do better, I've continued making mistakes that other people have had to pay for.
I've never wanted to be someone who bullies, dismisses, or hurts others. I find that behavior awful, which makes it all the more difficult to acknowledge that I've engaged in it myself. If I have hurt you, please know how deeply sorry I am. Nobody deserves to feel dismissed, belittled, or publicly called out over something that is supposed to bring us joy. Yet that is exactly what I allowed to happen, and I take responsibility for it.
I genuinely care about the people here. I love this community, and I love this hobby. But those are just words, and lately, my actions haven't reflected them. I don't expect an apology to undo the hurt I've caused, and I don't expect anyone to simply forgive me because I never meant for things to turn out this way. I recognize that I have to do better, not just say that I will.
I'm also sorry to everyone I'm disappointing by stepping away from ideas, plots, and threads again. Being someone who follows through on commitments was something I had sincerely been trying to improve. I wanted to change how people viewed me. I wanted to prove that I could be dependable, that I could stick with things, and that I had grown beyond some of my old habits. I feel like I've let people down in that regard, too.
But more than anything, I don't want a hobby I love to become a source of pain for people I care about. No story, character, thread, or disagreement is worth making another person feel small or unwelcome.
Right now, I think the kindest thing I can do is step away and give people some space. Not because I don't care, but because I do. I need to reflect on my behavior and figure out how to make meaningful changes instead of continuing to promise growth that I haven't consistently demonstrated. I have always wanted to conduct myself with kindness, compassion, and consideration for others. Lately, I have failed to live up to those values, and that is something I am deeply ashamed of. If I cannot contribute to this community without causing harm to people I genuinely care about, then I no longer feel that I have earned my place here. As painful as it is to admit, I think stepping away may be better for everyone involved. You are all better off without me.
I am so sorry to those I've hurt, those I've disappointed, and those who have continued to give me chances. You deserved better from me.
In the span of just two days, I managed to deeply upset several people I genuinely care about. None of it was intentional, but I understand that intention doesn't erase impact. I am sincerely sorry for the things I've said and done. It hurts to recognize that, despite wanting to do better, I've continued making mistakes that other people have had to pay for.
I've never wanted to be someone who bullies, dismisses, or hurts others. I find that behavior awful, which makes it all the more difficult to acknowledge that I've engaged in it myself. If I have hurt you, please know how deeply sorry I am. Nobody deserves to feel dismissed, belittled, or publicly called out over something that is supposed to bring us joy. Yet that is exactly what I allowed to happen, and I take responsibility for it.
I genuinely care about the people here. I love this community, and I love this hobby. But those are just words, and lately, my actions haven't reflected them. I don't expect an apology to undo the hurt I've caused, and I don't expect anyone to simply forgive me because I never meant for things to turn out this way. I recognize that I have to do better, not just say that I will.
I'm also sorry to everyone I'm disappointing by stepping away from ideas, plots, and threads again. Being someone who follows through on commitments was something I had sincerely been trying to improve. I wanted to change how people viewed me. I wanted to prove that I could be dependable, that I could stick with things, and that I had grown beyond some of my old habits. I feel like I've let people down in that regard, too.
But more than anything, I don't want a hobby I love to become a source of pain for people I care about. No story, character, thread, or disagreement is worth making another person feel small or unwelcome.
Right now, I think the kindest thing I can do is step away and give people some space. Not because I don't care, but because I do. I need to reflect on my behavior and figure out how to make meaningful changes instead of continuing to promise growth that I haven't consistently demonstrated. I have always wanted to conduct myself with kindness, compassion, and consideration for others. Lately, I have failed to live up to those values, and that is something I am deeply ashamed of. If I cannot contribute to this community without causing harm to people I genuinely care about, then I no longer feel that I have earned my place here. As painful as it is to admit, I think stepping away may be better for everyone involved. You are all better off without me.
I am so sorry to those I've hurt, those I've disappointed, and those who have continued to give me chances. You deserved better from me.
