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Urgh. Where was she? Neriah had gotten too comfortable following the trail of blood and death that she had forgotten which way went where. She should have stayed with the group. It was better than being by herself.
You can only trust yourself.
"STOP IT!"
Her voice echoed through the corridors, as she had finally had enough of hearing that voice in her mind. It was her own voice of course, but it kept twisting her emotions. Her feelings. Saying exactly what she didn't want to hear. Even now, there were giggles and laughter surrounding her as the
ex Padawan crouched down into a ball, holding her head in her hands. Tears welling up that she was trying to hold back beneath her glasses as more and more voices seemed to echo in around her.
"Weak." "Coward." "Traitor." "Fool." "Dead-Meat"
More and more. She didn't want to be here. Neriah wasn't a Sith. She wasn't an Acolyte. There was no way she was cut out for this. Even as the frustration was starting to build. The frustration. Anger. Fear. It was all boiling up. Stewing inside of her heart. This was what she got for abandoning the others. She should have helped. A real Jedi would have helped.
"But you aren't a Jedi. You-"
"shut up. Shut up. Shut Up! SHUT Up! SHUT UP! SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP!"
By this point Neriah was begging. Her emotions bleeding into her voice. Almost wailing as she clutched her skull. The voices were in her head. No matter how much she tried to block her ears, she could still hear them. No matter how much noise she made. The voices felt like they were a part of her.
"Because we are."
And with that, Neriah snapped. Her lightsaber was ignited in the blink of an eye, the green blade igniting the halls as the girl slashed around herself with no rhyme or reason. She had no structure to her style, no proper technique. Combat had never been something she had done well with. Cutting gashes away into the walls, as Neriah aimed to strike down the voices.
"Shut up! Shut up! Go away! Die! Die!"
The blade cut through various formless shadows, the laughter growing louder, and louder. Neriah's heart racing as it felt almost ready to explode within her, before she thrusted the saber forward into a shadow...and all of the sounds stopped dead. As the shadow took a form, details and features slowly coming to shape as the shadow took the form of her master. The one she had abandoned. The one who had been cut down because Neriah had froze.
"Your actions, or lack of them, have consequences. My death is on your hands. You can never return. You have no-one."
That was the last voice Neriah heard, before the shadow faded, leaving her alone. Alone with just the sound of her own frantic breathing and the slight glitching sound of her saber at her side, as the beam seemed to pulse ever so often. The girl collapsed to her knees once more, the glow of her saber vanishing and plunging her back into darkness, where Neriah realised. She was alone. Truly. And with that, the sobs began.
"I'm sorry...I'm so so sorry...Please don't leave me...Please."
Yet no matter as much as she sobbed, nothing responded. Nothing but the cold void of silence.