Feng breathed deep she was nervous, anxious, excited, giddy. This was going to be fun. A true to test of her skills, with just enough stakes to make it interesting. Feng wasn't sure which form she was going to go with her Makashi and Shien were her strongest, her Ataru and Niman adequate, Soresu was her weakest, Djem So she didn't quite of the strength for but it informed her Shien. Shi Cho was elementary, but Feng had never heard of anyone winning a lightsaber duel with Shii Cho. Feng didn't know any Vaapad. Truthfully it scared her, she had enough trouble in the heat of combat resisting the lure of the dark side without engaging in a form that specifically cultivated it. Though a part of her wondered if she wouldn't be suited to it, not just in inclinationbut in discipline, finding a way to get a hold of the darkness inside of her.
Part of why Feng was so looking forward to this particular test of skills, is that it would, she hoped, allow her to test herself in earnest without the dangers and pressures of true combat. Plus, it was just… fun. This was sport, no lives on the line, just good-natured competition. Testing oneself against a worthy opponent, without the sorrow that came with loss of life.
Sure, things might get heated in sport, but rarely did it cause a life lost, of untold suffering of civilian casualties as one tried to restraint herself from smiting those responsible with extreme prejudice.
Feng took a breath as she remembered the cultists on Corellia. Now was not the time. She had to set her mind to the task at hand. While Feng knew it wasn't healthy to keep things buried, without acknowledging of them, at the same time she couldn't give into her emotions, least of all on the battlefield. She couldn't be living her life in constant fear of what she was becoming. That was no way to live your life.
Life was about joy, happiness, growth, progression. Today's tourney could be an important opportunity for personal growth. It was better than combat, it was life, the opposite of what combat's purpose was.
Feng approached her opponent. Pantoran, jedi robes, head scarf. Her stance was good, well balanced, walked as if someone who could take up a ready or flow stance at a moments notice.
"Hi! I'm Feng!" Feng called out brightly a big goofy yet fierce smile on her face, a glint in her eye. As she took up a ready Makashi stance. The most useful form she had for one on one combat.
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